I think I am back... I have a slew of entries to upload, at least 20 that are as complete as my entries ever get and I am facing the dilemma of how to do this... if I upload twenty entries today, nineteen of them will be history before you ever see them... and then what happens to this entry, buried behind 20 others...

at least twenty others...

I mean, with all the love and respect I have to offer, how many of you dear readers really have time to read twenty or more suddenly archived entires... I'm not exactly one to write short entries either, ya know?... how many of you on the fringe will I lose (or have lost in this month of near disappearance)?...

and then I ask myself (holding my breath), does it matter?...

not you, dear readers, you matter a whole lot to me... even if you never identify yourselves, I feel you out there... and even though I am way behind on thanking you all who do let me know you enjoy my ramblings, I love you... I try to check in on you regularly (and when I am updating regularly, I do)... and when someone new leaves a message or adds me, I get all excited to go read and hopefully find another new friend... always looking for the one or someone who might connect me to the one or at least a friend here in Orlando in the offline world... and always loving the fact that you beautiful people are out there...

but does it matter if I update with optimal timing, with precision clockwork, with the best chance for the largest audience for each and every entry?...

I don't think so...

I think those of you who care will find as much time as you can and try to catch up on all the entries, no matter how many I find bubbling out of me ready for upload on any given day... and those of you who need to be sold on reading me, well, bless you for your interested but maybe you're just not interested enough... no offense taken or meant, just accept the choices we make...

I choose to trust my dear readers who care enough to really want to know me and what goes on in my head and in this daily life behind the candoor to read as much as you can as I do in your diaries, journals, blogs, and whatever you call your web world...

and everybody else, well, I trust you'll find what you are looking for somewhere else and maybe you'll be more interested some other time...

the first half of the entries are archived notes (so actually there may be just a dozen or so babbling entries to catch up on)... you may remember that notes were archived last year to clear the notes page so it loads faster... notes begin here... and the rest, in chronological order, here (each page is chronologically from the bottom up, just like the Diaryland notes page):

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(just let me know you were here)