selfishly, as always, once again I am stunned and frozen by the brilliance of how well she describes me and what I do... I quote from the entry now:

"Curiosity is a wall that separates me from actually being touched by the reality of every unpleasant thing I�ve learned of as my experience grows."

it might be frightening to find someone write words that make so much sense that the words strip you naked and leave you speechless except for what a well trained analytical brain can ramble on about when confronted with truth too close for comfort, but my curiosity about what more lingers behind the words that have touched me so close to home (and therein forces me, in the present tense, to take a look around me at that home within myself I am just now) keeps my precarious balance intact...

"To be curious, you must be objective, personally removed.

That means I don�t have to feel a thing when I�m curious.

Being curious keeps me occupied."

well shiver my timbers, it's all so crystal clear... and I laugh at myself as I distract myself from facing myself by asking myself (and you, collectively and rhetorically), who the heck is going around tell my secrets?... huh?... what scientific method?... what analytical theory?... what detached professional perspective?... what avoidance technique?... what disassociation?... aye?... antidisestablishmentarianism?... homina homina homina?... supercalifragilisticexpialidocious?... omigosh... what?... dociousaliexpiditiousfragicalirepus?... oh, but that would be going a bit too far, wouldn't you think?... indubidibly...

who's thinking?

"there is no such thing as logic, only a line of [sometimes factual] reasoning which the majority of individuals collectively deem correct" ~ CRB

and truth so simply stated is the essence of genius...

and speaking of genius, last week I started to let one of the most positively inspirational people I've ever found on the web inspire entries and got to three before life and whatever pulled me away from the keyboard and I mean to get back to her because she is so consistently inspiring and I'm going to share the last note I left her because she easily deserves every word of praise in the note and then some more and hopefully reading this will get you to visit her and be exposed to her positivity yourself...

I started, last weekend, with the intention of continuing, to read you daily and let your words and images inside me to inspire whatever might be inspired (because every time I did it before it felt wonderful, for me at least)... obviously weekday time constraints and life stuff and my ever distractable cranial filler got in the way...

your thank you notes defy your insecurity about writing them... your hair inspires my smile, your face inspires my joy... your entries, whether about yourself or life or philosophy or art or anything are powerful positive messages that shine way brighter than the essense of your name... your heart shows in your words and it is added to my personal list of definitions for the word beautiful... your ideals, lifestyle, beliefs, and values are revered pedastals for me that I would like to sit comfortably upon again one day...

your Lanny is blessed to have you as a life partner, your students are blessed to have you as a teacher, your friends are blessed to have you in this world as are we who know you only through this site, blessed to have you as an artist of words and more, the beauty of living a positive life...

I treasure my time here with your web presence and hope to know you forever, at least (and odd or not, I still have a strong suspicion that my biological parents, wherever and whomever they might be, may not be completely human J )

go read why she deserves those words... make the time...

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