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2006-11-12 - 4:06 a.m.

rock, roll, bounce, and doves [enhanced] (part 2 1/2)


just think, this rock, roll, bounce, and doves series was a trilogy when it was first written in the RealTime blog and it started out as just another brief entry to share one day in the life in real time with the few who care to know... and eventually, the events of the day, the concert, will be shared in this stream of babbling, but this entry even more than others showed me that I miss babbling when I am away from this diary... so when I don't have time to come here and I make time for the brief entries, the babble comes out there...

the babbler must babbler...

and repeat things, huh?...



how many times do I come to my rhymes
with this dream of sharing the love
how many ways can the same words say
what every pure heart dreams of
how many nights will I turn out the lights
and long for someone to make love to
how many years will this world of fears
keep me from finding you

let me not get lost in despair
for I believe that true hearts care
and that brings me joy I can share
in my rhymes with you right here
until you are here
I send this joy
everywhere


and the next Dove wrapper said: joy is contagious... and yes it is, most certainly... and of course the added rhyme was influenced by the wrapper, but we can believe the rapper influenced the wrapper if we like... our illusions help us fall in love... our illusions bring us joy even when the world is in despair... even when most are blinded by fear, believing in love, believing you love, that brings me joy right here...

and speaking of joy, George Carlin is On Campus on TV... I love George Carlins brain... he articulates a clarity of reason in ways I respect and admire... I wish more would listen to him... I wish more would hear what he says...

even as I know and feel a personal joy, a wondrous bliss within me that comes, I believe, from my daily actualization of my love, I feel the deep fear and despair for this world where love is not actualized in the course of a day in most people's lives... fear limits the ability to actualize love... hunger, starvation, greed, insecurity, war, pain, confusion all limit the ability to actualize love... I believe that of the billions of people alive, relatively few people in this world have the peace of mind and faith in heart to actualize love these days... I feel it and it hurts... if at all, they barely actualize it with those closest to them, but so with repressed awareness, with consciousness limited by fear and stress and worry, it ends there...

but I shall not believe that there is no hope for humanity... I shall believe that we as a species can raise our collective consciousness enough to become aware of our fears and how they limit our awareness and ability to love... and I will continue to believe we will overcome the fear and actualize love for each other, personally and collectively as a species... and I shall believe that we will grow and learn to live in peace by actualizing the love and making the love more important than the fear...

today, as a species, we trust our fear more than we trust our love... I believe that we shall learn how to trust the love more than the fear... this is my faith in the human heart, in the human spirit... this is my hope and joy for humanity...

meanwhile, there's a fine distraction on the television... and after hearing the commercial seven billion three hundred fifty two million six hundred eight four thousand nine hundred and six times (and actually looking up to ogle at it a few times), I am tempted to buy Girls Gone Wild for $9.99 or whatever the price is (plus shipping and handling, of course)... yes, I have a strong degenerate side... I am male and extremely visual (but dont pretend its just a male thing, ok?, cuz that would just make you very nave, uninformed, or a liar)... the reason I havent is because I would probably be disappointed in the actual viewing because its probably much more tease than actual visual sensuality...

of course I could just be pessimistic...

of course the Dove candy wrapper might have been referring to one of the girls gone wild girls touching herself in her favorite spots on her perfectly proportioned body and we wouldnt actually want to catch what shes got, unless it's pure joy, but then, that might be an odd thought so we dont have to think it any more...

yeah, try to get it out of your head now...

make love not war is a wonderful thought
but how many know how to make love?
I don't mean the sensual sexual acts
I mean the love most claim comes from above
as long as you believe it's somewhere up there
you'll never realize you can do it right here
as long as you place your god is above you
you will wonder why everyone doesn't love you
you must actualize your holiest love inside
and then let it out cuz it means nothing if you hide
and then you can make love not war
until then you can only mouth the words


oh sure, in the midst of stroking the right spots to bring on a powerful physical passion on the way to a wondrous orgasm I'll start pondering the deeper ethereal meanings of love and the actions of humanity and how the energy on this planet is not positive and therefore our love-making can not welcome in the energy of humanity if we are aware... so we shed a tear for the imbalance as we release out passions into each other and we say a prayer to humanity to rise above the fear and feel the positivity of true love...

any wonder why so rarely find someone who I want in my bed (and when I do, I treasure them and keep them as long as possible?)... ah, these last few years have been very lonely years for I have not found a consciousness actualizing the understanding I actualize in the physical reality... it is still an alien experience for me to sleep alone, for most of this life I shared a bed... and I've let this body slide into a less sensitive place by letting it puff up and letting the muscles and nerves atrophy (fool's survival technique) because the ache of loneliness is maddening when it is felt at it's physical peak for too long...

and I wonder how much of this is just words... and how much is understood... and how much is experienced... for I know few people who maintain optimal physical sensitivity while still keeping in touch with and open to the true love... our culture frowns upon it, even condemns it... and yet I cop out today... I give into the repression today... I am a laughable court jester today... and the sugar must be wearing off, aye?...

ready to change back to myself?...

I'll think about it and come back after an ice cream break... if you havent read part one yet, you have the perfect opportunity to do it now and try to experience this wonderful evening I am experiencing in RealTime even though you read the multi-part entry in reverse chapter order... try that with the next book you read and see if it changes things for you... or dont and maybe were on the same page because youve already read part one... good for you... Ill be back, again, in a bit...

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