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2005-10-06 - 4:56 p.m.

hodge podge


I left the previous entry up for a very short time, considering the real-time effects of uploading a couple or few entries in one sitting... it is not the most pleasant entry to read as I ponder what I do and see around me where I work... take a deep breath and prepare clinical (however cursory) telling of a night in the life of a kid with a horrible history and the staff that are paid to take care of her...

and I left out all the gorey details...

and then there's this entry which was actually written the night before but I was too bleary eyed to finish the entry before the last entry (something about met, I think) which is pretty much completed, I think, at least for a part one...

and then there's roommates who just walked in and have stuff to tell me and there's pizza which was just delivered and there is blurriness all around since woke briefly from a nap and have not actually gotten to bed yet, again...

I just noticed that nobody says "bless you" around here when I sneeze...

ahhh... ahhhh... ahhhhh...



sigh...

I'm getting to really relate to Marvin...

anyway, what I upload today is the rambling of a couple of nights ago as I sat at work desperately trying to stay awake and using the tapping of keys method to see what might be in my head that might keep me awake cuz it's really not a good thing to be sleeping at work, at least not from the administration's perspective...

so ready or now, blather...


well, suddenly awakeness overcomes the bleary eyed boy who has accumulated no more than nine hours sleep (I actually counted on my fingers) for the past six nights (sleep deprivation study, anyone?) and still, in spite of frequent caffeine crutches, the stimulant kick starts the brain/body thing I live in and for a few moments, at least, clarity comes through the fog (before the palpitations shiver through the body, demanding to know just what the heck I think I am doing to it)...

we have a few minutes left before wake up time here at the no-k corral (wow, there's a clever little double meaning as I am a ric with no k and this is my work-home {if we personalize it, which pleases ego} and the people living here are not quite ok at the moment {if they were, they wouldn't be here, here being a locked hospital psych ward slash behavioral center} and in both cases there's an effort to maintain some containment {corralment} so perhaps the pseudonym No-K Corral shall stick around when I talk about my home away from home, this place I've worked for more than four years...

this would now qualify as the second longest tenure at any job working for someone else, the first being twelve years at a developmental center that differed from this place in many ways, but shared essential similarities at the core (caring for people who required assistance to maintain stability in their lives and in many cases, to simply survive)... between here and there I retired for a while (everyone should retire for a while before they hit thirty, remember that if you want to love life all the way through to it's core) and worked for myself for a while (would it be egotistical to say that I was the best boss I ever had?)...

I still don't see a future for me at this place because the pay sucks and the administration have pretty much consistently demonstrated a desire to not utilize my skills and experience (mostly, I think, because that might mean more work for them or even exposing incompetence for some key players in the running of this facility... probably also because they manage reactively with blinders and try not to see much of what goes on around here, so some may simply choose to not know what I can do in spite of the obvious)...

that part of me who retired compromised with that part of me who can not shit cash (when asked why I went back to work after almost a decade of retirement I used to respond, "well, I can't shit cash" or well, in spite of my many efforts, I can't shit cash" (ironically, most of the people who hung around me were surprised because I think they genuinely thought I could)... but I usually keep the seven words George Carlin identified as words you can't say on television out of this particular diary, so I thought maybe you'd appreciate the origin of the term I slipped in here as I suddenly found the part of my brain that can be succinct... of course I dissolved any reasonable evidence that I might have the ability to say something meaningful in a few words {really?} with this long winded explanatory note for the brief four words explanation of my abject poverty if I do not work... and so it goes) by taking this cushy little job on the night shift...

so now you know a little more about me, I think...

I'm not very good (by choice) at filling out simple questionnaires and surveys and such because I do not believe in the superficial (no matter how much Libbo {libido, in case this is your first time here} drools over nubile young athletic flesh, aherm... aherm is the sound of a throat clearing, kind-of faked, as if to suggest a somewhat sarcastic response to a statement that may be true, but does not necessarily support the point of the previous statement or article being written, by the way, if you know what I mean, ya falla?) and most of the about me pages I see are based on the basic statistics that only Libbo really wants to know...

if you're interested in such mostly physical world facts, or in Libbo, go visit Libboland, but if you want to know me, then ask or start here and decide when you want to stop learning about me or when you run out of words to read, whichever comes first... if you actually reach the latter and still want to know more, please write or call to let me know because I will give you some sort of award eventually in our communications)...

yeah, so that's all there is today...

I think...

wait...


you could go back an entry and have your heart tested by a taste of the reality of my work... you could go back two entries and find hilarity, or at least some amusement, amongst the blog wars... you could go back three entries and find my own personal religious revelation (and dinner)... you could click on the archives and choose by titles (a rose by any other name?)...

you could just take a chance...

and then, there's all these googles that brought people here to explore (amazing how we can be connected by these searches sometimes... and how a typo will bring so many people to check out this site)... so you have many choices now (and more choices that have nothing to do with me)...

hope you have fun...

nite nite J


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clarity
"Jude Law" nude
"a 'crowd's' emotions"
you have no scars on your face and you can not handle presure lyrics
holloweener
linsey lohan nude
Blossom Music Reddy
sparkspark
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ringinears
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yacko world song lyrics
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jurazic part video
"loud stomach"
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meaningful trivia
missing person hirricane katrina
googlisms
Herry Chapin song lyrics
Buloxi <>hurricane photos
dr deborah serani
candoor
amyiswaiting
portabelle mushrooms
moviesontv
ellen murth
roy nagin
cutething.net
"Amy Skye"
lyrics "there must be something more than this life"
kracken sea world recliners
threesom positions
BuloxiKatrina Relief
"American Express girl"
prepondering of evidence
giga enema movie
"it would be so nice to see your face at my door" lyrics
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Slowly I turn script
lyrics of song dulcenea
thestatenislandboys.com
ky threesom
"101 things about" "what is your name"
"scooby dooby do" lyrics
"angel voices calling" lyrics
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