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2006-03-20 - 9:19 a.m. return of the blogmadding babbler as a previous entry let you know, I've been spending my net time browsing sites through blogMad! (and loving every minute of it, Jerry) and yesterday actually started chatting in the shout box on their site (something I've not done in years)... as blogMad! synchronicity would have it, Smash showed up during my first day back into the world of online real-time chat, which helped loosen up my rusty chat fingers... so if you've missed me (and thank you for that), you just might find me chatting there again (and in their IRC window we could have a more private chat if you'd like so you could ask me all the questions you really want to know and get real-time answers... imagine, we might even engage in conversation... I've got chills just thinking about it)... today at 7pm EST, the blogMad! site goes into public Beta, the doors open and everyone is welcome (though it would be kind of you to let me refer you so I can give you some free credits to start you off)... you use the site as much or as little as you like... you get from it what you put into it... if you sign up and want no more to do with the site, do nothing and you'll have no more to do with it... I signed up for many of these visitor-increasing sites and haven't heard from any of them because I did not seek any further attention or service... I mention this for those of you who are concerned about your privacy and, as I am, remain somewhat of a recluse online... signing up does nothing to change that (but it does allow you to explore the features and services for yourself - and it helps me if you use me as a referral... and you want to help me, right?)... if you do want more visitors to your diary or journal or blog or other personal site, then blogMad! is the best way I've found... for every site you visit through the blogMad! site, another new visitor is introduced to your site and, in fact, you'll likely get a better than 1:1 ratio if you interact more on the site... I've had more than 2000 visitors that came through blogMad!... the more I browse their sites, the more visitors come here... and best of all, for me, is that I am finding fascinating and inspiring new sites and learning a lot which is giving me much pleasure and ideas for entries and fun, it's much fun... if you want to chat with others like you who share themselves and/or their creativity in words or images on the web, if you want to find new friends and learn great stuff you can use to enhance your own site, than the blogMad! community has just what you need... as a bonus (and the creators of the site are amazingly supportive, almost always around to answer questions or chat, and generous people) there is a double credit day to celebrate the public opening... that means that for ever site you browse, you get two credits... you can do all sorts of fun stuff with your credits, but mostly your credits are how you get new visitors to your site... one credit is deducted from your account each time another visitor is directed to your site... so I will be browsing there most of tonight (starting Monday evening, 7pm EST) and tomorrow because it's more fun than ever to get two for one while having fun exploring new sites and meeting new people... if you are one of the folk who prefer brief entries that stay on a specific topic, then this is your stop... I probably already exceeded your reading quota... the rest of you, well, here comes whatever we might find as I pour words out of my mind... hmmm, a build up like that deserves something special and there's so much bubbling over in my head that nothing's particularly special in any coherent form... as with any personal diary (journal or blog) meanwhile, aside from the major change in my writing time (I've written less in the past week than I have in at least eight months), life hasn't changed much behind the candoor... I'm still passing by the gym, though the improved diet that re-started last week is continuing... I am still working nights and sleeping days (though getting less sleep what with my recent blogMad! explorations)... I'm still lonely for romance and intimacy and there's no change in my monotonous offline social life... the babbling words in my head are bumping into each other a lot and they'll be exploding out any day now (this is a start, I suppose) to further enhance the impression that I am quite without all my marbles at times... as for the others behind the candoor, Precious starts back at school today after three weeks (at least) of being home sick with strep and mono and hopefully she'll not have any relapses... Rasputin is still working way too many hours between sleeping and farting... Berry is nearing the end of her pregnancy and has been put on bed rest by her doctor because her blood pressure has gone up too often, so she's ok for now and might be having the baby in her eighth month (which starts in a week or so)... baby shower and other plans are postponed now... Bert is doing ok for a stressed out daddy-to-be, all in all, and we're all hoping for no more complications... so at work, with Berry on bed rest, I expect the paperwork to become a mess in a week or two and I will hopefully take a few days off to keep from taking it too seriously and stressing out over it (if I am wise, that will be what I do)... naturally some probably expect me to do everything, but that's just not happening... so Elpien, who's still the same, will have to step up and be a supervisor when and if the mess becomes too noticeable to ignore... I write as I have since I could first hold a crayon, primarily for myself to express and release what I think and feel... to get a better sense of myself and everything by seeing the words and read them from a different perspective... to record this life I loosely call mine... I write online still primarily for myself, though almost equally in the hope that someone will read the words and find me and relate to me and like me... I've experienced very social periods in this life and in recent years, experienced very solitary times... I have room in my life for friends, for an intimate friend, for a lover, for a partner in life... I joined the blogMad! community to further expand the possibilities of finding those few people in this world who might share similar enough qualities (and flaws) and who can truly relate to me enough to fill those rooms... as I have said, I live to share caring because that feels best and I choose to feel the best I can feel... I had a lot once in terms of friends, family, and material... a very full, rewarding, beautiful life... I lost everything in the nineties and I have been on and off in rebuilding a full life and quite lazy about it in recent months (and in some ways for specific reasons, ambivalent for a decade)... participating in blogMad! may be a concrete step back from the land of the mostly dead where I sleepwrite heart dreams, dance in a lovewarp, try to remember fundamental aspects of the self I used to know as me (and others), and listen to the deafening silence (and this just about scratches the surface)... maybe... the fact is if you were to click on every link and read all that can be found and then explore the rest of my written gardens on the web, you'd still be at only the deepest aspect of the first layer of sharing and realness in the real world... words reach through your eyes and into your mind where you control everything... what you make of these words is not me, but it is your vision of me... to know me, you must know much more than the image your mind paints... other senses must become involved... others ways of connecting... and ultimately, the second layer of sharing and realness in the real world begins with eye contact... there are so many more layers, deeper layers, more meaningful layers... as you skim the surface today, you may not even reach this paragraph... you may click away on your surfing for credits expedition before you read half of this entry... and if you've come this far, you still might not be here for the same reason I am here... the rooms of your life may already be quite full and if that is the case, yay for you and thanks for reading this far down the line... it is my hope that the sincerity with which I seek friends might impress upon you that I am worth knowing and worth passing along to others who might have the similar perspectives, temperaments, interests, and room in their lives for me that I have for them... life, the universe, and everything is mostly fun for me, almost always... loneliness inspires me to continue searching and the hunger to share sometimes aches, but even that does not diminish the fun I experience in being me and loving the moments of this life... read this if you want to know more... I don't want to be your reason to live that is something I want in shared time and space but make yourself comfortable in this place these words are a window reflecting within so I treasure my secrets, few as they may be I am a dreamer a poet a sage I don't want anything you don't want to share these words are a doorway into my psyche so I pleasure myself, while I am alone I am a dreamer a poet a sage
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