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movie database

Giga-Quotes

Harry Chapin Lyrics
SSA




OLD AND NEW READS
(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

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utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
bugmenot
global news matrix
break for news
are you generic?
neil gaiman
h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
capitol hill blue
boing boing
nobody here




SITES I AM CONSIDERING
SEEING MORE OFTEN

3Hive
metafilter
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REFERENCE LIBRARIES

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Giga-Quotes
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all musicals




AMUSEMENTS

Diaryland Times
home star runner
hell
hell too
sinfest
ill will press
the guide
purple
despair
maximum awesome
86 the onions
straight dope
something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
cracked



CULTURE

the superficial
darwin awards
this is true
urban legends
news of the weird
church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
faqs
fark
iGod
post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


COMMERCIAL CRAP (AND PRON)

(Note: pron is porn worth a look for amusement much more than passion, so if you see a (p) next to a link, be aware naked people may appear if you click it, m'ok?)

beautiful agony (p)
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real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

(or it could just be a typo)




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�2006 Candor Communications


2006-03-19 - 8:59 a.m.

personal babbling



this is a place for personal babble... kind of like a persona bulletin board, dumping ground, and world...


if you are looking for brief specific topical posts, you are in the wrong place (try here)... you might find my observations of the news of the day or anything, however they will be reflections distorted by the fun house mirrors in my mind... my style is free associative rambling with little concern for grammatical conventions or other linguistic structures... it may therefore be fraut with typos (which I find quite amusing most of the time) and tangential asides and obscure references and in the end (or somewhere shortly after the beginning, in fact), you may find your patience and ability to mentally multitrack sorely tested here... if you do not like to be teased intellectually and/or easily become dependant emotionally and/or you always want to be absolutely certain you know where the writer is coming from (or you're even slightly a control freak), again, you may not be happy here... I like literary head games...


heed the word...


but just because I like literary head games does not mean I am always playing them... that is just part of the game, when and where and how... and sometimes why... this is a sword with a fundamental double edge (for brevity, click the link, no scrolling), however, as the dreamer who hopes most sincerely to find friends in the real world offline is undermined by the enigmatic is this the real thing, or is it fantasy word game...


still, it can become more real...


if you choose to reach out and touch, my number and address are on the left and I welcome real-world contact with honest open minded beings who intend no harm... if you are not an honest open minded being who intends no harm, please move along now, unless you enjoy being ignored or taunted playfully and think you can handle it without causing harm... if you aren't sure if you are an honest open minded being who intends no harm, proceed with caution for you will be tested regularly for consistency, veracity, and tenacity too...


see also resiliency...


and will the landslide bring you down?... the real world has many levels and layers... at least mine does, but then, my real world is my illusion and yours is yours and the twains may never meet, but just in case they do, this is my view of this reading writing life we share on the internet...


welcome to my world...


this is the fringe, you reading words that are meant for me and no one and everyone... as serious as I may be at times, as much as you might want to believe me, your belief and faith in me is your illusion, your leap of faith, and it is good, even imperative for you to be aware of this...


how strong is your determination to be right?...


I deserve your trust, your faith, your respect, your honor, your friendship, your love... I know this... I also know that what I know does not matter... you must use your judgement, intuition, and resources in determining if you will take the leap of faith to believe in me based on words alone...


how do you handle being wrong?...


life is a series of moments we try to connect with our minds in the form of memories... memories create the sense of linear time... I understand that this life as we know it is temporary and therefore I choose to accept the end of things when things end, whether that is a TV show, a book, a song, a relationship, or a life... death may or may not be the end, but I am certain that death is not the end for those left living...


even for the mostly dead...


the sense of loss is profound at times, however I am aware that what is lost in extended mourning or self-pity is self-respect, respect for what was lost, and the moments of pleasure that life could have been... too much value to give away for such futile self-indulgence... so I release sorrow as I release all emotions (especially negative emotions) quickly... and out of respect, continue enjoying life...


have you had a breathtaking reunion with sanity?...


words on the screen represent thoughts in my head, feeling in my heart... you can make them anything you choose in your head and heart, though it may be similar or different, it remains illusionary until some sharing occurs between us... and meaning deepens if we share more of the real world by crossing the levels and layers...


to crystal clarity...


now where do we stand, what have we shared... can we read body language... can we hear the pauses... can we feel the heartbeats... are we just imagining each other out here?...


imagine...


here, online, with only words, the best you can do is watch and guess or inquire... some of you guess really well... and I appreciate all of your comments... notes... cards and letters... packages... phone calls... with each step we make each other a bit more real...


and sometimes when we touch, the honesty's too much...


it begins...








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