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2005-01-29 - 2:58 a.m.

Swiss Rolls, Part Two


see (seriously, read part one before this for the full intended effect, or just forget intentions and assume you know everything like most people do and judge what you see as you see it by chance or whatever and enjoy everything as much as you are able... or... return to part one and see if anything makes more sense after reading that before reading this)... a-herm...

anyway, we left off at naaaaaaaaaaaaa...

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and now, part two

see, I can be dumb and have many of my own faults too... perhaps I'll provide you with a list one day... until then, I will continue quoting Rosanne Rosannadanna and other SNL characters whenever the mood strikes me and playings games with my head in the hope you you might find it at least as amusing as I do and just in case you don't, I'm sorry...

not really, and not just sorry seems to be the hardest word and not cuz love never means having to say you're sorry and not just cuz I like cliches, but because I am not sorry... I apologize at times when I inadvertently destroy someone dreams or eat the last cupcake, but I am not sorry for anything... sorry is a sorry way to be... sorry means regretting what you do... and regrets, well, I've had a few, but then again, too few to mention... I did what I had to do and saw it through without exception... seriously, I intend no harm and apologize if my not being sorry offends you in any way...

sometimes even I don't know when I am serious...

or is it just a style?

yeah, ok, so returning to the stream of consciousness that related to the life in black and white we were swimming through earlier (in part one, remember?) once again, I am pleased with me for finding the inner security to overlook the negatives and spend a couple of hours of my precious time off interacting about high school math problems instead of just separating and grumbling and leaving us all unsatisfied and frustrated (that makes sense to me and hopefully you understand what I mean)... she did great in the first part of the test and slacked off in parts two and three with further slacking (loss of concentration and concern as evidenced by more incorrect and omitted answers and her anecdotl report about environmental factors being a major distraction) as the test taking time moved along... so we went over all the questions she got wrong or omitted and she needed minimal help answering them which, after the DOH! moments, left her appearing to feel more confident about her knowledge and more determined to understand that test taking skills is a whole subject unto itself...

personally, I was always a rebel in school and philosophical thumbed my nose at the whole system... I think the way we as a culture measure intelligence and knowledge and ability is warped, inconsistent, and often times just plain stupid... I was able, however, to sit comfortably on that high horse while in school (my SATs, taken somewhere between a great drunken drugged-out party and the pending hangover, were in the 1300s and my military IQ tests, taken under even more wild and crazy conditions, were just under 160) because I had (whether I still have them or not is debatable) the four prerequisite skills for test taking... lack of fear of tests, an almost photographic memory, the will to sit still physically, and the stubbornness to focus my mind/self on one thing for a period of time without letting anything distract me... some might say I also had/have good analytical and logic and comprehension skills, but that's subjective and secondary to the four primary skills required for going well in school... all that to say that I did well on tests in spite of sleeping through or skipping many classes and doing no homework whatsoever (which is why, after the early grades, my grade point indices did not reflect my aptitude test scores, ever... that's ok by me cuz I am sincere about my lack of respect for grades and other cultural measures)...

I guess I mention this in part because I demonstrate my ability to digress and flow with distractions so well in my babblings that just reading here might give you a skewed impression of the me I know as me and the me you would know as me if you met me beyond the words you read on the web... but I think I got on the subject cuz I was happy with myself for spending a couple of hours with Precious helping her work on her test taking skills and math...

or maybe I just feel like showing off...

we can decide whether that is self-mockery or true confessions some other time, for now I Will Be Earth... actually, that was an irreverent way of segueing (to segue, conjugate... you have thirty seconds) into the next adventure we (that'd be Precious and I) shared... see (or you will, we hope), she is in chorus now, which, by the way, is the umpteenth extra curricular activity she's signed up for so far this year, and we have the fund-raising chocolates to prove it... and for chorus she has an assignment to sing a solo of the song linked above and right here called I Will Be Earth so I found the mp3 so she can hear it since she is learning how to site read music for the first time and, well, I believe in using all the senses to learn (which some purists might call cheating, but then, rules are for those who are afraid to think out of the box)...

or maybe I'm just being obstinate to keep intimacy at bay...

so after spending most of the evening with Precious and her school life and putting off ordering food on the guise that I was waiting for Rasputin to wake up, all the places were closed... this bummer was compounded when Raspy pulled out his leftover General what's his name's chicken and ate that while I mourned the emptiness of hunger when all the delivery places are closed and I'm too lazy to cook anything, almost regretting having finished my whatever I ordered earlier today when we had dinner for lunch (it was sooooo good, whatever it was... wait, I'm not that valley girlish, it was... Five Flavors Seafood something... Medley, maybe... delicious)... in the end, Precious went to bed, Raspy retired to his room, and I microwaved some eggplant parmesean and enjoyed one of my favorite sandwiches... then I finished the Swiss Cake Rolls that I bought this afternoon...

decadence is delicious...

yeah, I know, this completely contradicts the healthy wisdoms I try to remember I once had and lived by and ridiculously belittles the frustrated whinings about other people's habits and bad influences and my own apathetic givg up on life and love and everything mood swings, but that's ok...

have another Swiss Roll...






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