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2004-12-30 - 7:35 a.m.

notes 4


messages to candoor:
(click here to add new message):


from pandionna :
That was a STUNNING comment you wrote about strong women in Colz's diary. Just had to tell you. Wow.
from alwaysinhim :
okay.. I've read all five of the newest entries.. and now I just have to have a looksy through all these links I opened in new windows..
from alwaysinhim :
I don't miss any of your entries due to adding a ton at a time, cause I love ya that much.. I go to your olders page and check to see if their are other entries prior the one found on the index.
from alwaysinhim :
ohh.. so that's how it's going to be, huh? you're going to be all mysterious like (I swear I can see your mischievious smile this very second) and bug the heck out of me till you tell me exactly what you were saying yes to! (and yes, I'm glad to know some progress is being made =)
from augustdreams :
There are soul-mates out there for each of us, many of them. I think sometimes that our souls are scattered and that whenever we meet someone we feel an immediate love for and connection to, we've found another piece of our soul. Those people never seem to come when we want/need them the most, but they do come. *kiss*
from alwaysinhim :
oh posh, I've read tons worse than what you write. don't worry a smite about it. I have yet to find your writing so convoluted with mistakes that I can't read it in peace.
from alwaysinhim :
oh posh, I've read tons worse than what you write. don't worry a smite about it. I have yet to find your writing so convoluted with mistakes that I can't read it in peace.
from alwaysinhim :
well now... I still don't know what exactly you're saying yes to lol... (and I can't begin to describe how hard I'm smiling right now =)... but I'm guessing you were anticipating my question:.... would you really let me have one of your shirts?
from alwaysinhim :
yes what? I'm sorry, I missed something I think. (truly sorry for certain).
from reviews-only :
Thanks for your advice. :) (this is for-you-only)
from small-talk- :
Ah yes, a new Richard book, that's just what I need. Pay day here I come! Thank you for letting me know. Gretel
from the-thinline :
sorry! the username (tah) & password (dah) for schampy changed when i re-locked it. i just forgot what the passwords had been! missing you too, take care
from ariza :
Hi. I read your diary and i just happened to read about Conversations with God. Those books are so wonderful, and they have changed my life. just a tidbit I thought you should know
from kilowatt :
I hope you do not mind but you are mentioned in my latest entry. "A compliment is a gift, not to be thrown away carelessly unless you want to hurt the giver." ~ Eleanor Hamilton ~ I hope that your day will be a delightful adventure of bliss, laughter, discovery, satisfaction and inspiration.
from augustdreams :
Ah-ha! There are hugs on your list. Well, I've got more than plenty of those. {{{Candoor}}} That will have to do until I can give you the real thing.
from augustdreams :
How are you, sweetie? I'm so sorry to have been so out of touch lately. We really have to find a time to chat on the phone again. And make plans to hang out in person. I shall put that link to your wishlist to good use. ;)
from arc-angel666 :
Hello Mr. Candoor LOL: THanks for being a good sport. I assumed by your words being as open as they were You had to be female, most guys don't open up at all. And being that you were the first male to respond to my post about Alayna Kate threw me. Most of my men friends that knew her felt terrible about her passing and grieve deeply, she touched everyone's heart. Those that didn't know her and read my post have accknowledge it but don't comment. It took me a long time to be able to speak of her, men have trouble dealing with the loss of a loved one...and many here have told me they didn't know what to say or do, it hit them in their hearts and it frighten them. Thats okay with me I just wanted to share a bit of me and alot of her on 9-19. It felt good and I'm sure it made her smile..once again thanks for your kind words.
from fallen9angel :
i don't know if my concience is still alive, but my deeds will be my cross to bare. thank you for your concern.
from cats-corner :
The addition of my diary to your favorites list is much appreciated. -catherine
from cats-corner :
I'm sorry for bothering you with e-mail and notes. I didn't realize yours weren't meant to be reciprocated. Thank you again for leaving such lovely posts. -catherine
from dangerspouse :
Sorry it's taken me so long to acknowledge your gracious note at my place, but here it is. Thank you so much! You lived in Newark for a "few days"? Wow, and I thought *I* had a low threshold of pain when I moved out of Jersey City after two YEARS! Anyway, I'm looking forward to checking out your archives...even if you HAVE been cheating on Diaryland, you slut. Ciao!
from arc-angel666 :
Hello again: It has just been brought to my attention your a Mr. Alrighty then. Let me rephrase part of my post to you. First the caring and sweetness thingy I meant it in a manly way LOL. How about those Dodgers? Maybe we can get together and go shoot something, strip club, tattoo's possibly. Belching contest? Damn its hard to get out of a situation like this. Anyway I'm still grateful for your kind words and like me you seem very sensitive with all that said now lets go blow something up LOL. Later Mr. Candoor LOL
from cats-corner :
While I'm flattered to know you're "salivating" over my "Books to Read Which I Don't Currently Own" list, I'm sorry to report that I don't own a scanner. So getting the titles online would be rather difficult...unless you'd be willing to accept them via e-mail. If so, let me know and I'll start typing up the list asap. I just hope you're not to disappointed when you see some of the titles...as I tend to read crap as well as fine examples of writing. (I was once told by a writing instructor, it's just as important to expose oneself to "bad" writing, as it is to study the "good". -catherine
from arc-angel666 :
Good Evening Candoor: Nice to meet you, my name is Michael. I read your last entry, thanks for the look inside of you. There's a lot of caring in there covered by a lot of sweetness. Thanks for your kind words. I believe I did know love in its purest form, I loved her unconditionally and her love for me transformed me into a better man. It was the kind of love I had never known, I had been and seen alot of this world by the time I met her. I had seen, and been a part of things that harden a man. War and the harsh realities of the ways of the world turned me into a stone fortress and within that fortress in its deepest part surrounded by a moat of acid lay my heart encased in steel. No one could scale the walls of my fortress, swim the moat of acid let alone penetrate the steel that entombed my heart...Then I met her and she brought me into the folds of the love. You read what happened and my world shattered, thanks to my little boy and his love and that of my family and hers, with her spirit surrounding me 24 hours day I rose out of the pit of despair. Out of respect for her and the vastness of her love that still lives in my heart I continue to live, well, attempt and try very hard to a live as good human being. Its because of her I live and enjoy life, as you will see I am playful, a bit of a trickster, enjoy teasing and being teased, love a good natured insult hurled my way almost as much as I enjoy delievering them lol. I'm looking forward to spending time with you. Good Night Ms Candoor
from alwaysinhim :
well, if you'd email me back already =P then I would give you more attention.
from linusthegirl :
Thank you so much for your sweet message in my notes. As soon as I find five minutes, I'm going to check out your diary. Thank you. :)
from vodkavases :
you checked me out!!! so i came to see you. glad i make you smile. trying to read you as often as i can. loves.
from kilowatt :
"When you're in solitary confinement and you're six feet under without light, sound, or running water; there is no place to go but inside. And when you go inside, you discover that everything that exists in the Universe is also within you." ~ Rubin Carter, "The Hurricane" ~ "Listen to your life. See it for the fathomless mystery that it is. In the boredom and pain of it no less than in the excitement and gladness: touch, taste, smell your way to the holy and hidden heart of it because in the last analysis all moments are key moments, and life itself is grace." ~ Frederick Buechner in "Now and Then" ~ Surround yourself with the resources that help you understand the spiritual dimensions of your life experiences. Be grateful to their creators. Begin a love affair with yourself and live life undaunted!
from kilowatt :
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you for the beautiful words you wrote about me in your latest entry. "I can live for two months on a good compliment." ~ Mark Twain ~ I am shocked, amazed and so extremely flattered regarding your level of appreciation for my meager attempts at creating an online presence. I thank you for your considerate nature and exquisite generosity. I feel unworthy of your praise, but I will humbly accept it as a token of our burgeoning friendship. "Too much of a good thing can be wonderful." ~ Mae West ~ Your steadfast faith in my words inspires me to be a better person. I also thank you for not being blinded by your own brilliance and the abundance of beauty in your life. Furthermore, I am convinced that no one can ever receive too many hugs; therefore, hug away, dear Candoor! "Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as ever you can." ~ John Wesley ~ I thank you again for your kindness and thoughtfulness. May your day be filled with ceaseless beauty, wonder, and amazement.
from clarity25 :
Hi again, I hope you stay safe through the storm and keep your electricity. Thank you also for the wonderful comment in your previous entry about my diary. That left me feeling all warm and fuzzy inside. :)
from alwaysinhim :
I forgot what I was going to say... it had something to do with the interesting music I think. I can't remember really.
from alwaysinhim :
hm. I know I'm heartless. but I don't much care for animals. (although it is sad that they are being abandoned; I'll give you that).
from alwaysinhim :
It was really funny... as much as you're an attention getter... that was one of my reasons for saying carrots instead of chocolate.. See, I felt bad about not leaving you anything but a "already done" (in answer to your pleading to return, etc) in your notes, so I wanted to add something else... so I was going to offer you some of my candy bar.. but that made me feel even worse seeing as how I just finished reading a whole entry about you already have chocolate and such and knowing that wasn't too good... so I offered carrots instead. And no dear, it wouldn't be presumptuous to assume I loves you. honestly. (and you don't suck in the least bit; cuddly people are the bestest there are). *gives you hugs for all the ones I she got... and a few to grow on ;-)*
from annie-m-s-b :
I have been laughing about the sucking thing for two hours now! Just thought I'd let you know that. Thanks Babe! Hugs
from alwaysinhim :
already done. want some of my carrots?
from cactustree :
you know i'll be back...can't keep a good bitch down!
from irishblueyes :
Just wanted to thank you for the hugs regarding the diary stickers! I'm always thrilled when anyone enjoys them, and of course you also found Clarity, my dearest diary friends, so that means you have wonderful taste and I look very foward to exploring your diary more!
from alwaysinhim :
okay.. I'm not confused anymore (and I did laugh many times at your attempt [and eventual success] at explaining things). and I'll be awaiting your responses with as much patience as I can.
from clarity25 :
Thank you so much for the compliment on my artwork! that means alot to me. a book..(laughs) I wish!
from cats-corner :
I've noticed you're a fan of the curious...perhaps you might enjoy some of the following diaries: ninapetrovna - a fiercely intelligent young woman, so much so that she puts me to shame; clarity25 - an unbelievably insightful, talented young woman; beatpoetgrrl - I've only managed to read a few of her entries so far, but I think she's worth a look; liviasgarden - I just love her); mom-on-roof - another love; long-ignored - so sensual, so good at shooting an arrow that pierces your heart with her emotions; purplebanana - so funny and so intelligent; trancejen - words cannot capture the appeal of her biting wit and intellect. i could go on, but I don't want to overwhelm you. :-) -cat
from alwaysinhim :
okay.. so I'm confused. just a couple entries ago, you said you went to the post office... and that was after you left me that last note saying you hadn't yet. (at least I'm pretty sure, of the time frame that is). so... huh?
from annie-m-s-b :
Your PO box Friday...... ANNIE
from alwaysinhim :
I did the other night.. oh it was good. I had a very hot bubble bath and just sat in it for hours. *sighs happily*
from annie-m-s-b :
Oh and the pics under the red are copies of the clip art from Gretels Bread Crumbs. Hansel & Gretel. Love You!
from annie-m-s-b :
Thank you babe and I'll think on that comment. Love you, Annie
from augustdreams :
Your smiles are always contagious! :) And please don't worry at all. Friendship is the most important thing to me as well. Friendship is absolutely the sunshine in my life. Corny as it sounds, it's true. People toss the world 'love' around all the time, but mean it. I love my friends. Near and far. The ones I cuddle at least once a week and the ones I know only by the souls that shine through their writing. Two and four-legged. All of 'em. Completely and unconditionally. So never worry about being out of touch for a bit, or the times when life just gets busy. It don't change a thing. And I'm sure we'll find a good time to hang out in person soon and have some grand adventures. (Mummy's Reveeeeenge! :D) *hug*
from cats-corner :
I don't mind at all, but...are you sure you left the note in the right diary? :-) -cat
from alwaysinhim :
umm... I bought more clothes.
from annie-m-s-b :
Yes it was me... remember they were my mom's and I sent them to you after she passed away.
from beagle47 :
a(y), b thanks you c.
from alwaysinhim :
lol.. I take it that you liked them. (I'm pleased).
from annie-m-s-b :
I don't understand what you wrote about me..... please explain. Annie
from englshfreak :
thanks somuch for the note...your in my thoughts..*smooches*
from alwaysinhim :
so? have you gotten anything yet?
from englshfreak :
have you tried benedryl?
from elysium1982 :
thanks for the smile.
from kilowatt :
Thank you for the lovely note that you left for me this morning. The beauty of your words mesmerizes me. What a gift with language you have! Thank you for sharing it with me. Thank you for correcting my lack of observation skills at noticing the "(removethis)" portion of your email address. Despite removing it and only using the email address candoor AT diaryland dot com, I am still unable to email you. Strange. I apologize for posting my previous note to you twice. Please feel free to delete the duplicate of my note. May your day be a delightful adventure of bliss, laughter, discovery, satisfaction and inspiration. Thank you again for your kindness and thoughtfulness. "This is not a day for asking questions, not a day on any calendar. This day is conscious of itself. This day is a lover, bread, and gentleness, more manifest than saying can say." ~Rumi
from kilowatt :
Candoor, (I tried to email you at your diaryland address, but was unable to do so.) I feel as if I know you. As if we met long ago, maybe in a dream, or maybe we never physically met one another but still know of each other, as if we were characters in a Nick Bantock novel. "What a grand thing, to be loved! What a grander thing still, to love!" ~ Victor Hugo ~ Your lastest entry about love was quite lovely. It reaffirms my belief that life is loveliness. And that you are lovely. "Blessed is the influence of one true, loving soul on another." ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe ~ As you travel through today, remember that although the world may seem dark and full of sadness, there is still light and beauty and love. Light that shines upon and through all things, filling everything with color, lush and vibrant and sharp. Beauty, sublime and towering over every sensation, enhancing all things. Love, overwhelming and powerful, conquering all and flowing through life. "Come live with me, and be my love, And we will some new pleasures prove Of golden sands, and crystal brooks, With silken lines, and silver hooks." ~ John Donne, "The Bait" ~ Please continue your wonderfully delightful descriptions of your life and experiences. I thank you for the pleasure of reading them. The poet, Ruiz says every human is an artist, "and the supreme art is the expression of the beauty of our spirit." I am blessed because all that you have ever expressed to me and to my friends has been thoughts and gestures of extreme loveliness. May you paint a day of extreme beauty and serenity for yourself today. Kilowatt Question: How many different websites do you actually maintain on a regular basis? Thank you for your reply.
from the-thinline :
i know EXACtly what you mean about picking up roommates' habits. too bad it weren't the other way around! take care,
from futureceo :
Thank you!!
from hamiltonian :
wow football season.. i think the real game is bush vs the world
from alwaysinhim :
ya take the good with the bad. life's like that. (I'm glad to hear you're being positive about it though)
from englshfreak :
I see you have a link to me...Cool!! thanks
from riskamemory :
Thanks for the note and sorry it took so long to respond. You're diary is interesting and I like the way you write. Have a nice night. I hope everything gets fixed that needs it.
from jwinokur :
Dude! Nice to hear from you. I won't be in Orlando anytime soon that I know of unless I get a compelling reason -- like someone books me a killer art show or music gig. Got any ideas? -Justin
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