and who is the girl in Terminator 3 and is she so appealing because she is so beautiful to me, a libido fantasy, or because she is starke naked and the camera teases me with glimpses.... definitely the latter, for she is not high on my personal libido fantasy reactions... in fact, libido is thinking of others while turned on by the glimpses of nudity...

now Claire Danes can do something for my libido, as can Linda Hamilton... but libido is so much dependant on my visual senses and that is why I do not empower Libbo much (in spite of giving it a website of it's own, sort of... I ought to remember to visit there more often and update it)... while my visual cortex is an easy way into my lust, trust turns me on much deeper and that is why my libido is not nearly the turn on that words and music and the connects that come through similar senses of humor and intellect and ideals and open mindedness inspire...

it's fun to let my libido fantasize, but if I wanted to play with a libido fantasy I'd not be alone tapping at the keyboard right now... I am not online to find sex of any kind, I am online to expose my inner being (whomever that may be), to put myself into words over and over again until there is no doubt, no inconsistency, no unrealness... so that in the summation of all the words, I might be found...

strange as it may seem to some, this is what comes to mind when my visual cortex is stimulated sexually... I want more, I want words, I want time listening to a voice, I want to watch lips move, I want to see eyes and facial expressions, I want to read body language and most of all I want to feel the presense, the power beyond words that can only be sensed in shared space by two who dare open their senses to the awareness of a being's presense...

. o O ( NOTES ARE THE NEW HAPPY PILL ) O o .
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