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2005-08-07 - 5:30 a.m. prisoner in disguise and I feel like a prisoner in disguise, if you know the song or can ken what I mean from this entry (maybe the song will appearin this entry)... and then, when I see the words, the concet no longer appeals and fits much less comfortably... But true love takes a little time You can touch it with your fingers And try to believe your eyes Is it love or lies I sense a few of you out there may know the feeling I am pasing through (or is it passing through me?) as I try to express it in this entry... wanting to trust, to count on, to depend on, to believe in someone else and wondering about the imperfections and inconsistencies... are they intentional?... doesn't she/he know I want more, I feel neglected, I feel dissed?... am I too sensitive or is she/he insensitive?... doesn't he/she care?... A little bit of room around you But if he doesn't return your call on time Oh my my You just act like a fool on a holiday There's nothing that you wouldn't try You must be a prisoner in disguise yeah yeah, hope for the best but expect the worst, self preservation, baby... yet when you know you can survive the worst because you have faith in your ability to survive anything, you will try anything to get what you want... and leave the jury out as long as possible on whether he/she wants you as much as you want him/her... a prisoner of your own desire, of your wanting to believe in someone because your heart fell in love, or at least strong like with him/her... and your libido is hungry, lusting for him/her... and your psyche is wanting to believe in him/her... and your ego does not want to be wrong in your judgment that you can trust and count on and depend on him/her... so you wait... But there's no one else in it And sometimes those lonesome breezes blow But it's no show so you might as well go If you think you could win it Without losing and letting it show and the risks, races are run (thank you Stevi and Lindsey)... and the loneliness... it always grows, exponentially, when you get closer to believing in someone, when you let desire grow and you get closer to believing in the fairy tale romance... or at least in someone you can trust (which is almost a fairy tale at times)... Everybody knows your number And you know that you could never be alone if you tried You just run like a man with no reason to run And no place to ever arrive but to be alone may be the only way to be sure you can survive alone and then, you can start to share without the doubts that lead to co-dependencies... that is not easy when you are attractive to others, when you have willing and able (and ready) potential relationships lining up at your door... and sometimes you feel your beauty/attractiveness is a curse and you wonder why so few see it that way, why so many see it as a gift you should appreciate a whole lot more than you do... so where do you go?... Look just like a prisoner Well you must be a prisoner in disguise
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