actually, if you want to see today's entry you'll have to go back an entry because this is the missing entry from a couple of days ago (even though it's being written today, it is actually the day before yesterday, so just imagine one of those strange time paradoxes like in Groundhog Day {which just happens to be on the toob at the moment, though you don't necessarily have to fantasize about any of the characters in the film, unless, of course, you want to and have a free hand, and you think it won't distract you too much} and travel back, or wherever, with me and the chast of characters in my head, one of whom obviously has OCD tendencies as it insists on writing an entry every single day even if I didn't at the time), if it actually is written today and uploaded today, whichever day that may be (and as you may follow, if it is uploaded tomorrow, it will be the entry for the day before the day before yesterday, even if it is only two entries out of place chronologically because it is uploaded a head of today {which in this latter case might be tomorrow)'s entry in which case the first few words of this paragraph might be inaccurate and today's entry might be the next one... time, relative, not enough, strange concept, remember?)...

so what to do with not enough time (a rather paradoxical query, I suspect, since if belies the question - can anything be done in no time?)... of course catching up on older emails could not happen, since that takes time... there were no new emails at all this week (at least none that made it to my Inboxes... hopefully none were lost in the SPAM filters... SPAM continues to increase at an alarming rate and though most is filtered out, it is a ime consuming pain to have to wait for thousands of junk-mails to be filtered through each day just to find there's no new personal mail, which is why I don't always check mail each day, cuz, I mean, anything who really wants my attention for any reason relatively immediately can call my cell phone, which has been posted here and in my other ramblings, numerous times and even though I do not answer at work or some other times when I either forget the phone or am too deep in sleep to acknowledge it, there's always voice mail)... so in no time I am rather limited in activities so there's not much to write about and work, which happens more often than I'd like, is rather dull and monotonous and contains minimal bits of interest as the night shift attracts a somewhat listless crew, at least in the particular psychiatric hospital where I work... it would be so much more interesting if Stephen King would show up...

I have been reading him and that has been the most fun I've been having lately... I have a follow up doctor's appointment later this week and I must remember to finish sorting through the bills (which will take several hours on the phone, again, as the utility companies continue to play ignorant in order to try to get more money out of me than they are due) and settling accounts with Rasputin... and life on the personal side continues to be lonely since I have no time to meet new people and the people I know are as busy as I am and they don't do much anyway... the space hasn;t changed much, except for a new week's worth of clutter and dirty dishes piled up in their sink (I've gotten them to mostly leave one sink and counter alone by continuously moving things out of that sink and off that counter and then wiping it down with a cleaner that is the only thing that remains on that counter so it remains relatively clear and clear so I have space to use in the kitchen without having to clean up behind them much... they haven't cooked in two weeks, so the kitchen is much improved as I can ignore their mess as long as I have my clean cooking space)... the CD burner is on the fritz, just when I was feeling the return of music and getting ready to take a leap back to the soundtrack of my life... I am still working out daily... life is good, just missing more sharing of it...

and so, this would have been (at least partly) the entry that was if it had been on time a couple or few days ago... dull, huh?... well, I know I need to fall in love and a few other things, but until something more exciting than the usual happens, we'll just keep in touch by sharing the simple daily life in black and white... if that's ok with you... smile now, it's your turn...

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