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2005-06-25 - 11:20 p.m. on the crest... ok, I've got at least twenty entries in near completion (enough to upload and see how they layout) and a dozen more in my head that will come out in the next few weeks (besides the dailies, if the dailies actually get back to continuing, which is the plan, for whatever plans are worth in my non-planning head)... I am hoping that I get enough together tonight so that I'll upload all the catch up entries and be back in real time (as this paragraph is)... and found hope in my eyes as I wished on a happy tear and much to my surprise you came to me with open arms and with room in your heart a wish come true, a true friend and memory came apart so a new day could start today I spent most of the day (and last night) culling through my brain and emails (because emails saw a lot more of me than usual the last two weeks while I've been mostly away from here)... my venture into developing more of an offline social life (including exploring falling in love and finding a true friend) was a wild ride that seems to have fizzled because, well, you can read the email conversations for yourself in the next series of entries as they are part of the catch up entries this time... simply, I want a true friend more than a lover and she wants a lover more than a true friend... add to that the fact that the most important wants for me were not the most important wants for her... and she has enough friends... I am sad that she suddenly is too busy to communicate with me anymore... I can only accept that her excitement in knowing me was purely physical... and my excitement was almost all ethereal... oh well, sigh, and all that jazz... guess I need to find someone who doesn't have a best friend who shares my interests and wants and values and ideals and perspectives enough to want me as a best friend... I still do not understand the term more than a friend... for me, there is nothing more or better than a friend... I add true to the words just as I add honest to love to emphasize how I perceive the words... there is no love unless it is honest... there is no friendship unless it is true... and two who share true friendship share everything that matters (with or without sex... yes, sex matters, but not as much as the unconditional trust of true friends)... not with my body see the inner me the child inside pure and innocent here I am in words I don't even know if she reads me (you out there doc?)... intimacy, for me, starts here in the thoughts, in the mind, in the words and dreams and history and knowledge of who I am... passion, for me, comes from the knowing, the trusting, the loving of the ideals and perspectives and insides... extending this loving into the physical world, for me, means instinctive attractions must be there and that means truly loving the body (not overlooking any self-abuse that we might be doing to our bodies at the moment)... I will not pretend that sex is enough to satisfy me nor will I pretend that sex can make me turn off my awareness (even if I could)... so I am too sensitive, too intense, too real, too consciously aware, too empathic, too whatever... again... when your eyes are full of soap but it's worse to lose a friend when your heart is full of hope it's the story of this life as I've known it... and it is beyond any literal explanation (no matter how many times I try to explain, it is an experience one must attain... again, read The Celestine Prophesy and Illusions and then talk to me about it)... and I will continue longing for the one who understands... and the one who actualizes... and the one who shares... who will chase the stars across the sky who will reach for the best we can be nurture mutual creativity be each other's fantasy and settle for nothing less and how are you, dear readers?... remember, whenever I am away there is plenty of reading material you've probably not explored elsewhere and one way or another as long as I am able to tap keys and connect to the net, I shall return...
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