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2005-08-15 - 8:42 p.m. or maybe tomorrow yesterday's plan to add to yesterday's entry and call it more complete may have to wait since I gave into sleep (and the body feels a lot better for it with that cold/flu bug thing very much on the run at the moment)... time, once again, shall run out before I can really get moving on the babbling I so love to do... I wonder just where the psych books would categorize my mind's way of surviving in this world... probably schizotypal or something... get it, schizo-type-all... yeah, I know, bad psych joke... but I work in a psych hospital, what do you expect?... good psych jokes?... what I did today upon waking was respond to an email I found as I was sorting through the junk mail folders on this desktop... see, over the past year or so, mail just kept pouring into this desktop whenever I remembered to download it... nothing was ever looked at, or almost nothing, because, after all, in all likelihood, nothing does not exist so how could it be looked at... but that's a philosophicial joke, not good or bad, since philosophically there is no good or bad, and maybe not even a joke, for... where were we?... yes, I am tangentially oriented... and functionally schizotypal... extremely manic depressive... and most likely borderline multiple personalities... we've learned to live with it... what joke?... and the secret key to the combination lock that opens to reveal the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth is to know precisely when the laughter occurs and when it does not... that's how the match game is played too... anyway, I found an email dated last November from a friend I've known since high school, in fact, my best friend in high school, and he was coming down to Orlando with his family and wanted to get together and do the theme park thing and well, it's August, isn't it?... so the email I wrote explained the email issues I've had for years now, sort of, and tried to catch up on however long it's been since we last talked... it's been a few years and I don't remember where we left off, not that it matters except to fill in the blkanks in the time line of our respective lives... he's a guy I'd do about anything for and most welcome anytime he pops up in this life, or any life, for that matter... and not just because I do not have time for an actual entry here tonight, but also in keeping with the revealing nature of this life in black and white diary, I present the email here for anyone who cares to know anything they might not already know, in case the email reveals anything you don't already know... just cuz I want someone to know and hope that someone who knows might like me, cuz, after all, I'm still alive and resisting the aging process, fending off the frustrations of pressure to conform, keeping hope alive that the good in life does truly outweight the bad, and ultimately that dreams do come true... and staying alive and reaching out is pretty much a prerequisite to my dream of sharing life, ya know?... so we'll see about yesterday's entry later, or maybe tomorrow... for now, for whatever it's worth to you, here is the my most recent attempt to get real in words, to express what is going on in my life offline and what is real inside of me, and to find my own truth about it through as unhibited a release of thought into words as I can manage at this time... or something like that J oh wow, Hi R :)
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