(slightly updated again on or about the ninth of march, not to be confused with the ides of march, which may or may not exist... inspired by the afterfore-{as opposed to the be-fore}-mentioned smash {see link below, which means read the entry before clicking to go somewhere else, ya know?} and his creative writing skills, though i don't have time or focus or painless hands by which to go on about it further which is why i am updating instead of writing a new entry even if this is gonna seem like a new entry by the time the updating is finished which will not be tonight, by the way, so stay tuned for further updates whenever they seem to appear to appear... and i'll probably do it again... update, that is... and now we continue with the endtry {i mean entry, i think, you know, like as in therefore i am?} already in progress)...

i, on the other hand, still exist, as does this account (still in supergold, i think), and even though i left the last entry up for almost a year and it might have suggested i could be found elsewhere, like blogging at myspace, even, but even though i seem to be attracting a lot of very interesting myspace people (and real people too) and much music at at "my" myspace page, i haven't been there in a lot time except to click on messages and add friends and respond a bit, but just a bit... there are some bloggers over there i like to read, but time is so very limited of late...

but as i said, i am hardly ever there lately...

i am, however, still babbling almost daily in the supposedly brief, supposed;y RealTime blog... yes, in fact, whether you knew (or cared, even) or not, there are almost six hundred mostly babbling entries at the blogspot blog cuz i started out trying to be brief there and intended to return here to babble and did for a while, like almost a year, even, but then just got in the habit of going there mostly because the site is faster loading (or at least it was way back when i wandered over there to respond to a comment a couple of years ago) and online (and babbling) time was getting shorter and shorter (as if time actually changes shape or size or length or duration or something, but who has time to be philosophical like that in two places at the same time, after all, or at all, even, especially tonight when i brought home a ton of work from work cuz i am still doing 2007 reports cuz i'm important like that now in my own office and directorness and meetings and stuff?... was that a question?)...

yeah, so ok, i am babbling over here now, with music even (and if you really wanna know, doing whole lot more and even more if you explore the branches off the tree of madness (code name for bread crumbs, or a list of random links leading further deeperonward into the maze of knowing me, or not knowing me, which is the real question, with or without the me) on the right of the blogspot blog (so many bead crumbs, so little time) and still more scattered amidst the others listed below the branches and on the side of this diary as well and i wish you all followed me here and there and everywhere and made me rich and famous, but i know i don't deserve that because i chose to babble over there for free instead of staying here and paying for the privilege... but wait a minute, i'm still a supergold diarylander and have been for six or seven years now and i think i'm paid up for another year or more cuz i love diaryland and wish it was a little faster loading, but will support this place as long as i am able (and remember candora {who was here even before candoor?}... i'm pretty sure she is still a dland goldie too, though i think i let the super go...

but even there i am drifting in and out these days... i am wandering between focusing on offline world activities and finding sharing in the physical world and my lifelong habit of writing everything for myself, posterity, and anyone who cares... somebody cares, i feel certain of it... i mean besides me...

i don't really wanna be rich and famous all that much� money just attracts people who want money� i've been there and really don't like those people all that much when they get too close to me, but hey, they are ok from a distance� i want love and i'm full of it� wait, that didn't sound like i meant it to sound� i'm full of love, yeah, that's it, not it� that is, i'm full of love, not full of it, whatever it is�

but i loved reading you guys here when i had time to read you guys here and i miss you much more than you know (cuz i don't tell you, after all, so how could you know)� so suddenly, without any planning or anything, i find myself here (cuz i said hello to someone who commented at me once upon a time) and babbling along as if i never left� wow, imagine the catch up entry session this could start� and the linkages� definitely not soon, cuz i've got way too much work stuff to do in the next week or few and i'm actually enjoying offline social stuff now� no, i'm not in love (so don't forget it), it's just a meetup phase i'm going through� fun, too� you oughta check out your local meetup if you are looking for new people to hang out with�

dandy just asked how we say goodbye and i figured i'd cheat and put what her question inspired here (not that i'm hoping she'll notice and come by, cuz, after all, this is all about my ego, not any hunger for attention, after all):

bye

see ya

love ya

you know this is really not good bye, right?

ariversdirty

sighyournara

grassyass

live long and prosper, may the force be with you, nanu-nanu, klaatu barada nikto, never give up, never surrender, to infinity and beyond, scooby-doo, and all that jazz...

gigglefart

wait, what were we talking about?

nite nite

yeah, pure genius, just like you used to be used to when you were used to coming here like you used to be... but don't feel used, it's a brand new day and while it may not be a perfect day, it's still full of musical references and irreverent asides and ridiculous segues and illogical conclusions and meaningless trivia and almost seemingly endless balle... balle?... i think i meant babble, but then, who knows... and besides, it's not as if i'm saying good bye or going anywhere right?...

ok, so this was a brief entry, relatively babbling, but I really really really meant it when i said i love ya�

miss ya too J

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