in a future entry, I expound on notes I left here and thank you for inspiring thought in my brain... but first, in regard to my recent entry (and entries) in which I am attempting to focus more inwardly and re-create my image of myself for the here and now (as opposed to who I thought myself to be or who I was in the past) without external influences as much as possible...

in my ongoing attempt to share myself with the entire universe, I expound on the thoughts hoping to find harmony in me and perhaps strike common chords in some of you dear readers out there...

this note below was in response to a note she left for me (this note is more specific and less philosophical than most of my ramblings, so I include it here in the hope it may offer some further incite into me and my ways of sharing)...

about my not explaining... there are some things I will not explain about me because they are on levels deeper than words can express and must be experienced (and therein defined) by the person sharing... this is more often the case with in-person sharings, even more within intimate sharings... I refer to the intangible aspects of personality that even I (or anyone) may not fully grasp about myself (or one's self)... sometimes subconscious, sometimes unconscious, but always way too important a connection and understanding to trust to only words... just as we have layers of depth and trust we put into (and share) in words (as exemplified by our use of different writing spaces and access privileges), there are layers of depth that words will not touch or represent well...

hopefully that makes some sense of the words you referred to...

and I agree with your note, interactions help define who we are in this world and without interactions, we are enigmas... it can be said that to be unknown is to not be... to not share self is to not exist in this world... sad that some choose that path often or all the time... we all need some down time, some solitary time, but without the sharing, this being life can be pointless... thank you for the inspiration to share today J

it may be helpful to explain that my words (to the left) "search for yourself, you may find me" (I use the universal you in this paragraph) refers to how often I mention diaries and web sites in my writings and if you put your name (or your site name, at least) into a search engine, you may well find my site pops up for you were mentioned on the page... that may be obvious, or not, but hopefully it's understood... the underlying message is the irony of how similar some thoughts and feelings can be (or are) and how if you search for yourself or something that matters to you, you may find my words relate to you or the subject you search for even if we do not know each other yet or the words were not written with any particular you in mind (as is most often the case)...

and a side note to myself reminds me that it's about time I updated my linkers and matters pages to include all the wonderful people who've added me as a favorite since the last time I updated those pages... did I tell you (specific yous now) how much I appreciate you and admire your patience with me recently?... in all seriousness, I send that message out ethereally every time I lay down to sleep, wishing you life blessings and dreams come true and hoping you know how much you are appreciated... hopefully you'll feel that energy, perhaps as a warm breeze blowing through your window or anything you find comforting or beautiful in life, now and then...

you are loved, even when you do not know it J

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