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�2006 Candor Communications


2006-12-20 - 5:48 a.m.

Z SAID, C SAID


...::: Z SAID :::...
i do not want to die to end anything, there isn't anything to end, i simply would like a change of scenery's all.

i've had enough of the earthling ways, why linger? like the kodak man i say: "my work is done!" i have accomplished nothing. move along home.

1o,ooo,ooo years of nothingness, sitting here hoping you'll get the fuck bored already of reliving this love scenario life after life after life. wombs of deception.

you cannot go around offering people happiness, here take some of mine, it's free!

infinite love preaching until some energy draining worm shows up, then all you get is finger pointing, run away, run away, he's out to hurt you.

disregard the previous paragraph, i have no idea why it popped up.

yays and shit, jolly good x'mas time,
z-grouchy-grinch

...::: C SAID :::...
and there's a part of me who agrees with you and makes much sense of your words, but somehow that part of me just sits in the back seat nagging the driver of this bus I often call my life... why make their paranoia come true, after all...

the driver, of course, is this silly kid who believes in true love and fairy tales and all the stupid shit that gets the heart beat up and the mind spun into knots... but somehow the ride remains more fun than the idea of jumping off the bus...

the joke will be on me if jumping off the bus is the answer I've been seeking all along :)

...::: Z SAID :::...
before i forget, your mission, should you choose to accept IT, is to remove the deluded vail from serenity's eye:z!

you need to tell her the whole truth and nothing but the truth, including some made up shit to finally scare the living day lights out of her as of what fatal mistake she's made for ever paying even remote attention to me.

scare her good man or else one day i'll give her a heart attack in her comments or something and omg all her followers may have a stroke as well seeing my wmd:z and shit!

not to mention i've met her in the real real life and what the hell might happen if i meet her when i'm in a kennedy space center type of mood? whoa! run for the wood:z!

...::: C SAID :::...
wonderful, I've missed your wize and witty ramblings...

my mission, aye?... yes, I know, you're the epitome of public evilness, but you only have the tools we give you, after all, and deep down you, well, we won't go there in public cuz that would spoil my mission, wouldn't it?...

I'll make up some good shit...

we wouldn't want a lynch mob soiling the fine linen at Serenity's Tide, after all... and I've grown a might fond of your neck (and imagine you've become a bit attached to it yourself)...

when you're ready to beam back to your home world, if she's smart (and she is), she'll have as much fun with you as I did :)

...::: Z SAID :::...
oh yeh, and back to that part of you, it's not always hidden, one just has to have enough lifetimes to cycle through your almostly and mostly dead shit and then it bubbles up quite nicely.

i too am nice at times, neh? once a year, not for x'mas, mebbe? common, once? once! you can gimme once now, can't you? yes you can! you always positive you. thank you kindly.

...::: C SAID :::...
if I was hiding, you'd know me way too well what with your having a vast brain that reads and absorbs so many of the slippery details woven into my manic babbling and other places... I haven't visited the land of the mostly dead in quite a while, but mostly due to lack of time and I hope to find time to revisit soon because it's a healthy thing to go mad and throw a pity or vengeance party every now and then, not to mention the roots of the MD, hard core "getting real" and "reds" back at the crossroads...

thanks for the plugs (at least they are not shamelessly linked as I'm apt to do, aye? :)

and yes, if you insist, your niceness is unsurpassed at times, kindness too... at least seven minutes every year, twice on Sundays... but you don't want me to be giving away these secrets behind your evilness too often, do you?...

...::: Z SAID :::...
and furthermore as you've always known IT in your heart that i can always do candoraesque lengthwise posts and/or comments, because i have looked in your eyes and have seen downstream far enough, you will not be saved "SOLARIS" style, you know, by finding the eternal soulmate. no.

you will fukkin continue on spinning your love wheel, carefully spending your karma on concerts and other audio/visual distractions and over and over again you will dance with little devils (at least stop picking them from toronto - there live the most terrible ones) and all that will only temporarily recharge your batteries, just so you can spin the wheel again. the monolog lives forever.

i would almost call you a perpetual spinster, no pun intended, dia!

am i saying you should do anything different? nevermore. those who tell others what should or should not do are but bigger fools than those who take or not take the advice.

still, youtube vlogging is for you, now get that lappy/webcam combo and get going. imagine that, one vlog a day from the green chair. would save me a lot of time from trying to sum up your 8 page entries in 42 blogs over 58 sub(space)nets.

...::: C SAID :::...
and then we come to the dastardly comment threatening to whip up a candoraesque bisque on my ass and exposing the weakness of my fanciful delusions so I come out swinging with both fists wrapped in rhapsodic rap that proves the hollow visions behind my passionate beliefs...

and while it may be one possible choice to give up on the possibility of a recurrence of a Solaris eclipse with another in this life, I have repeated the collision of stars more than once in this life and shall do it again cuz what goes up, must come down, spinning wheel, got to go round... talkin' 'bout your troubles it's a cryin' sin, ride a painted pony let the spinning wheel spin... so I'll just sit here watching the wheels go round and round (I really love to watch them roll) cuz I'm no longer riding on the merry go round (I just had to let it go)... cha cha cha (cuz it really is a double fantasy, you know)...

though I will give you this with a sigh, it is a challenge to cultivate just the right dialogue (sigh)...

but hope springs eternal in the youth and me and one day I just might stumble upon someone realistically fitting the role (currently filled by darling Dia) in the flesh and she'll share my fantasies in realities and be inspired by my muses and ultimately become the most primary muse of all (muse prime, of course)...

especially with the sweet sounds of The Sound Of Music playing between commercials on the TV at the moment, there's no way any cynical power or negative thought can penetrate the aura (see, I had a secret weapon as this response to your astute and adept comments began... so sneaky, I be)...

lol, a vlog from the green chair, won't that be fun... of course I could just set the world aghast (or more hopefully laughing) by singing my rhymes (or perhaps Edelweiss as I just did)... or perhaps reading my entries as nightly news reports like they do or did on Saturday Night Live...

such an ego...

you are my dearest fan, you know : )

...::: Z SAID :::...
and whenever did jumping off a bus get you anywhere but having to walk to the next (way)station and still hitch a ride on the zipper (oh, the kerouac days of hoboing from mexico to north carolina in 2 days are so forever gone), just so you can have a place to sleep before dreaming about crossing the ocean on a steamliner? fly my ass to the moon and back, there are NO SHORTCUTS anywhere outside the mental starry box.

...::: C SAID :::...
but my, what sharp teeth you have... and I am not convinced that the kerouac says are gone forever, for truly the enlightenment of our species comes in cycles and I can hope to be alive, if only as the latest version of the elder statesman type Tim Leary, for the next thrust of conscious awareness into the collective psyche of the culture... perhaps this time, what with AIDS and all waking us kids up to the perils of casual sex, free love will take on a deeper and more meaningful cultural actualization...

or we could just blow ourselves up and start over, as that's been done a few times before, at least...

and should I be only a dream in a starry box (they should have told me, Vincent), then I'll leave it for another generation, or even for another incarnation in the evolution of homosapien (or perhaps even another species) to find their way with or without the words I leave for posterity...

...::: Z SAID :::...
what happened man? you are almost as popular as serenity now! so many comments, so many people in eternal love with your x'massy babbling. good job, keep on keeping on!

...::: C SAID :::...
as for popularity, I don't know what you mean : )

I am noticing my myspace friends list growing in leaps and bounds, but I'd call that more perseverance than popularity... it is nice to see one of my shortest posts here get so many comments, even if they are all from the lunatic on the grassy knoll... and if the dam breaks open many years too soon and if there is no room upon the hill (or knoll), and if your head explodes with dark forebodings too, I'll see you on the dark side of the moon...

and if we shout and no one seems to hear...

once again, my reluctant muse z0tl, you've inspired me to be thinking and perhaps, as so often does with your provocative and occasionally acerbic input, an entry shall blossom in the behind the candoor garden... and to at least conclude this comment, before you give up all hope on any sort of hard core realism ever coming again from this perpetual dreamer, I let slip that a very special Xmas carol will be performed in an entry coming soon to a diary, journal, or blog near somewhere... I'm just not sure where it's going to pop out yet, but I promise it will be a step towards restoring your faith in the evil within even the most candoraesque of hearts left for dead in this cold cruel world for too long (now aren't we excited?... too much build up?... well, we're among friends, after all)...

PS... here it is






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