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2006-07-03 - 1:26 p.m.

where the heck have you been (part 2)


and then at home, lately, the writing has slowed to a few lines at a time and the time between those times of a few lines increases with each passing day... and I don't take the time to return to the few lines and expound or at least combine them into an entry much (or haven't until the past few days)... so you see that you see the time passing without entries here behind the candoor and brief life summaries are all I get out from day to day, elsewhere... simply, this is a place for babble, for the words to flow without direction, without particular reason, without restrictions... and I've not had the time to set the babbler free to write lately...

still, I write daily to keep in touch with myself... and for anyone who cares to keep in touch with me, I put the daily synopsis of life as I experience it in RealTime in the (ta-da) RealTime blog...

hold the applause, please...

right, so anyway, there (in the RealTime blog) I set some limits (what?... the babbler is scared, or faking it well to mock the idea) as I try to be brief in telling you what's going on for me in life offline and tangential babbling is supposed to be kept to a minimum (ha) so I can actually upload an entry most every day (though, as you may see if you are looking with your eyes open {so many dont really} , the babbler seems to slip in and break my rules anyway cuz, well, that's what babblers do)...

in all seriousness, the RealTime blog is my attempt to keep in touch with you, in case you didn't know this already (hey, I don't expect all of you to be reading every entry, after all, so I repeat this introduction of the RealTime blog over and over just in case this is the first entry you're reading this year or something... vanity?... narcissism?...desperation?... pathos?... a sincere attempt to keep you in touch with my life and encourage you to leave comments so I might keep in touch with yours? (yup)... whatever, you call it, labels don't matter much to me... being out here and findable by true friends is all that matters... connecting is what this internet is all about)...

for a while there I was giving some time to the onion blog, but my interest in the experiment of putting up a blog on a personal dating site is waning as I am so very not looking for a long distance relationship... I am not interested in relocating for at least a year or two and I want love and companionship like I want everything else, in the here and now, in flesh and blood... unfortunately, so far, I've yet to find an active local network for this area...

before that (going back to February through April now) I was spending a lot of my online time at blogmad where some really great people hang out, but again I do not have the time to spend so much time online (even though I seem to have the time to repeat myself a lot, huh?)... thing is, everyone there is so far away and I am here, alone... and while spending time online is fun and I love the people I meet, but its not where people around here are so I am ultimately keeping myself alone whenever I am online and I am rambling quite redundantly by now, arent I?...

ahem...

the fact is, to repeat myself yet again in an attempt to find the words to clarify my meaning enough to satisfy me, I love sharing words, but words are not an adequate substitute for eye contact and sharing activities offline and the more time I spend chatting online the less time I have to find some more sharing offline... after all, the only people I go out with lately are teenage girls to teenage events and while that's fine for the kid in me (and the eventual dirty old man who is, for better or worse, actually waiting for a partner to lust again... dumb overly respectful dude that he is), the rest of me gets jealous when faced with the lack of equal sharing, so I'd like to satisfy other parts of my diverse personality... after all, there's still a chance I might develop a healthy balanced relationship with someone on an equivalent experiential and awareness level again someday (seriously, even amidst my irreverence), right?...

hopefully youve noticed that I still try to check in on many of you and you may notice that I am still commenting here and there (though sometimes I just read you silently because I'm finding myself boring and unfocused of late)... I wish we could just pop over and hang out a while because I am starting to miss hanging out with friends in the offline world more and more... once upon a time I had some great groups of friends to hang with...

I could spend an hour or more every day setting up my umpteen fantasy baseball teams, but they are lucky if they get a few hours a week this season so far and I've not looked at them at all this week... or last week... or the week before, for that matter... I think I am losing interest in the whole fantasy sports game because there's just not enough time in life these days for solitary games and more and more I want more sharing offline...

once again?... what's the thrill in repetition?... a mantra, perhaps... find friends offline... find a soul mate... fall in love... find passion, intimacy, honest sharing... offline... in the flesh... feel me breathing, see me smiling, talk with eyes, hands, posture, lips don't need to speak to communicate...

yes, and yes, and oh yes, yeah... and well, and then there's the offline life where I've spent most of my time of late (when I'm not working extra shifts)... with Precious out of school for the summer and her not driving yet, she's around most all the time looking to share music or videos or to be fed or be taken somewhere or just to talk... all the more so now that Rasputin is overseas for a few weeks... and even more since she's become hyped to go to concerts and her friends aren't as into going so I'm the most music loving concert going person in her life (and I usually pay for her if I'm going, which is probably her biggest incentive to try to talk me into a concert)... I think I'm lucky I work nights or I'd be spending a fortune on concerts and clubs cuz it doesn't take much to talk me into going out for music...

will she talk me into showing up late for work on Wednesday so we can see Red Jumpsuit Apparatus at The Social?... I hope not, mostly... there's too much to do in the first hour at work for me these days... next Saturday we're heading out to the House of Blues to pick up tickets for a concert she and her friends are going to on the following Saturday (Dashboard Confessional and Say Anything) and buying tickets for the Spill Canvas concert coming up a couple of weeks after that (I'll try to be somewhat sensible and not buy tickets to too many other concerts while we're there)...

any of you whove read me for a while know that it's actually a blessing in disguise that she's suddenly so into music and going to concerts because the TV is on music stations a lot more now and I'm dragged along to concerts (I suffer from a distinct lack of music loving friends these days, so I am loving it)...

and there we have it... there's the answer to the musical question where the heck have you been? for the few dear people who really want to know... remember, the daily blow-by-blow synopsis can be found in relative RealTime as I try to imagine myself stepping closer to actually sharing RealTime with someone in RealSpace (yeah, you know, the here and now, wherever that is)...






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