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SITES I SEE A LOT
IxQuick Search
Google Search
itools references
movie database

Giga-Quotes

Harry Chapin Lyrics
SSA




OLD AND NEW READS
(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

mother jones
utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
bugmenot
global news matrix
break for news
are you generic?
neil gaiman
h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
capitol hill blue
boing boing
nobody here




SITES I AM CONSIDERING
SEEING MORE OFTEN

3Hive
metafilter
comics
digg





REFERENCE LIBRARIES

questia
wikipedia
gutenberg
internet public library

itools references
movie database
Giga-Quotes
rare-lyrics
all musicals




AMUSEMENTS

Diaryland Times
home star runner
hell
hell too
sinfest
ill will press
the guide
purple
despair
maximum awesome
86 the onions
straight dope
something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
cracked



CULTURE

the superficial
darwin awards
this is true
urban legends
news of the weird
church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
faqs
fark
iGod
post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


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beautiful agony (p)
(a turn on or a laugh?)
real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

(or it could just be a typo)




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Unconscious Mutterings
Friday Feast
Wednesday Whatevers
Sunday Brunch
Monday Madness
Thursday Threesom
Saturday Questions




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Poetry Corner

it doesn't matter
what we do
it doesn't matter
what we say
the evening
leads us into night
the morning
always brings the day

every one has limits
when you hit their wall
you're through
you could have been
their best friend
they will be done with you

every one closes their mind
sooner or later you'll see
you might have been
two so in love
then still more suddenly
you are the enemy

it doesn't matter
what we do
it doesn't matter
what we say
people see
what they want to see
people feel
in their own way

you can talk
'til you're blue in the face
but if they've closed
their ears
you're just singing a song
no one hears

you can have
the best intentions
but if they've closed
their mind
you're just doing a dance
for the blind

it doesn't matter
what we do
it doesn't matter
what we say
the night
will show us what is true
even
if it changes the day

every one closes their mind
sooner or later you'll see
you might have been
two so in love
then still more suddenly
you are the enemy

it doesn't matter
what we do
it doesn't matter
what we say
people see
what they want to see
people feel
in their own way





Whose Garden Was This?

Whose garden was this
It must have been lovely
Did it have flowers
I've seen pictures of flowers
And I'd love to have smelled one

Whose river was this
You say it ran freely
Blue was its colour
And I've seen blue in some pictures
And I'd love to have been there

Tell me again, I need to know
The forest had trees, the meadows were green
The oceans were blue
And birds really flew
Can you swear it was true

Whose gray sky is this
Or was it a blue one
You say they were breezes
I've heard records of breezes
And I'd love to have felt one

Tell me again, I need to know
The forest had trees, the meadows were green
The oceans were blue
And birds really flew
Can you swear that it's true

Whose garden was this
It must have been lovely
Did it have flowers
I've seen pictures of flowers
And I'd love to have smelled one

Tom Paxton





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"to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, day in and day out, to make you into everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle that's ever been fought, and never stop fighting."

~ e e cummings



some quotes will be repeated... especially during times when I need reminding... and these are those times, what with a creeping malaise attaching itself to my every breath and the world of humans seeming so eager and willing to help it along... I want to see the glass as half full... I want to see the positivity in everything... and I do, however I wonder if my perception is skewed or if there really is less positivity in our collective consciousness than there has been before today... that is how it feels to me... and I wonder how much of that comes from within and how much of that comes from out there...

are you satisfied with a culture that is based on snap judgments and instant gratification?... is that really where your meaning can be found?...

take VARB, for instance... you open a window, click a number, you've judged someone... the sum of their life is reduced to a number one to ten... we look at the number and decide if the person is worth our time...

so I ask you, VARB clickers, how much time before you click the number?... do you even let the site open?... do you glance at the window and click without scrolling?... do you read more than a few lines?... more than a single entry?... how do you judge a blog?...

do you choose a number based on visual design?... on ease of navigation?... on content?... on other criteria?... do you even think about it?...

how much thought or serious concern do you put into the number you click?... really... do you justify your rating with any thought at all?...

while ego always likes the higher numbers because ego is shallow and stupid, it doesn't matter to me what number you assign to me, your judgment speaks more about you (and means more to you) than it does me... I've seen my VARB as high as 7 and as low as 4 so far and as most things in this life, it's meaningless without the why...

the irony is that those who are really into clicking VARB, judging by numbers, are a skewed lot and not a representative sampling of the population... those who feel a need to judge others have a different personality and perspective than those who are content enjoying life without imposing their judgments on others... critics and those who enjoy finding flaws, expressing criticism, and viewing things from a perspective that seeks to find something negative to say about anything are not in the same mind space as those who do not...

one is a closed mind, a mind into control and based much more on fear than love... one is an open mind, a mind into pleasure and based much more on love than fear...

but this is something that the closed mind can rarely comprehend because it is closed to such possibilities and a defensive instinct to argue against any idea that might be different than what it perceives as right prevents learning...

discussion becomes moot, as does this thought...

numbers, for me, are fun... life, for me, is fun... writing, for me, is fun...

blind judgments, for me, are stupid... as I look at our culture, from an online community perspective or from a larger humanity perspective, I see way too much stupidity... I see people judging and hating and condemning and even killing total strangers based on fears they were taught, based on information they were told that they never verified, and too often, based on misunderstanding and outright lies...

In 1958 there were zero pop song titles with the word "hate" in the title versus 44 titles that contained the word "love". "Hate" showed up twice in 1963 and remained an unpopular word in song titles. The popularity of 'love' hit an all time high in 1968, 90 titles spoke of 'love'. It's popularity has steadily declined since than, so that 2004 saw only 20 'love' song titles vs. 3 'hate' song titles.

This trivia was gathered using the song title word comparison tool at the Top 40 Database...


if I found this on your site please let me know so I can credit you and than you for doing the research... if you, as I, believe that popular music reflects the human consciousness as well as any measure we have, then you see the trend...

I believe human emotion and consciousness follows an ebb and flow pattern a bit like the tides and wave particles... perhaps because fear is so deeply engrained in our consciousness and personalities by instinct and education on all levels, and because fear is a most powerful anti-love force (perhaps the most powerful), the pendulum of collective human consciousness swings back and forth between fear and love...

so my sense that love is in a downward trend in my lifetime may not be merely my paranoid or depressed perspective... the chicken may lay the egg, but the egg produces the chicken... I'll believe that the growth of the oppressive fear-based culture has more to do with my withering hopes than the way I see things, but that does not relieve me of any responsibility for my perspective or for what I do about it...

I escape into words... I ramble on and on about this or that, referencing anything, external or internal, that might amuse or add flavor or insight or depth or meaning to the words... this process amuses me, distracts me, satisfies me... it is something I can do in a relative vacuum, all by myself, independent of anyone or anything outside of some method to record words and even without that, I can do it in my head... that is how I survive solitary time even though I ache to share, to be shared, to love and be loved...

words are my sanctuary, my hobby, my therapy, my mindless diversion... writing is my passion, my home, my friend... so are numbers...

to imagine that this could be summed up in a number is ludicrous and sad, but like most sad choices humans make, for positivity to survive I find a way to seem amusement in the sorrow... I can pretend the contest, no matter how skewed and arbitrary, has meaning (I'm good at delusions of grandeur, in case you haven't noticed)... I can sell the contest as a meaningful activity, even as a way of showing love... click number ten for me if you love me... I could take it quite seriously as I do many games...

but after all the games, the truth remains...

way too many people miss out on so much of the beauty and wonder and fun and excitement and real worth in this life by accepting superficial judgments (often not even their own) and assigning false value to most everything...

are you one of them?...


PUNISHING LANGUAGE


ARBITRATOR

A cook that leaves Arby's to work at McDonalds.

AVOIDABLE

What a bullfighter tries to do.

BERNADETTE

The act of torching a mortgage.

BURGLARIZE

What a crook sees with.

CONTROL

A short, ugly inmate.

COUNTERFEITERS

Workers who put together kitchen cabinets.

ECLIPSE

What a barber does for a living.

EYEDROPPER

A clumsy ophthalmologist.

HEROES

What a guy in a boat does.

LEFTBANK

What the robber did when his bag was full of money.

MISTY

How golfers create divots.

PARADOX

Two physicians.

PARASITES

What you see from the top of the Eiffel Tower.

PHARMACIST

A helper on the farm.

POLARIZE

What penguins see with.

PRIMATE

Removing your spouse from in front of the TV.

RELIEF

What trees do in the Spring.

RUBBERNECK

What you do to relax your wife.

SELFISH

What the owner of a seafood store does.

SUDAFED

Litigation brought against a government official




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