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movie database

Giga-Quotes

Harry Chapin Lyrics
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(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

mother jones
utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
bugmenot
global news matrix
break for news
are you generic?
neil gaiman
h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
capitol hill blue
boing boing
nobody here




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ill will press
the guide
purple
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maximum awesome
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something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
cracked



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darwin awards
this is true
urban legends
news of the weird
church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
faqs
fark
iGod
post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


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real doll (p)
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�2006 Candor Communications


2006-10-14 - 1:25 p.m.

I love you for still being here


first, please love me, love me by going to vote for Meg and Dia on Yahoo so they can feel the love they deserve cuz they are better than cream cheese on bagels with chocolate milk (take that yesterday... shhh, stop giggling and try to get to the point, ok?)...

ummmm, I hope you are here because you care and if you are then you will, if just cuz it'll make me happy, take just a moment to click over to vote for Meg and Dia (no sign in or anything required, just a click here and a vote there) before tomorrow night and I will love you, love you even more than yesterday (but not as much as tomorrow)...

and now, the entry...

hello again... I can only guess as to who you are as I dont have any details stats, so I have no way of personalizing this hello or any message to you unless you leave a comment (and I know, Ive become a hard core slacker in responding to comments or responding to anything in the past six months and I love you even more for still being out there now that I dont feed you with personal words on any regular basis (no less daily)... so to quickly update you on the life on and offline...

changes since last here:
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a new AV program (thats anti-virus) is installed running, further slowing computer adding additional daily freeze-ups, but at least I found one thatll run, I think, so daily scans run and if I forget to shut down the windows that are open, I return to a frozen screen and locked system... -
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yeah, so the computer is as staggering as ever (not in that good fun way that one might get after a marathon or a great party, but in the Microsoft crashes more often than ever way, but at least I still get it to work) and I am considering shopping for a new one a bit more each day but expensive make that possible only if the store will give me credit... -
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the car air conditioner stopped working and I am hoping that when I finally do take it in to get it fixed it isn't the major cost it could be... -
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one of my kids needed more money again, so a few hundred dollars that might have gone toward a computer went to someone else and as usual, there's nothing left for frivolous expenditures for me (in case you don't know, the bad thing about once being wealthy is that the people who knew you then still expect you to always have extra money to help them out and they don't want to accept that you can only help them out with money now by reducing the things you do or get for yourself)... -
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there's still no retirement plan... -
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the RealTime blog has not been updated daily lately because it's not as much fun because Google took over blogspot and complicated the sign-in process and that turns me off when I go there to babble so that sucks for the babbler and for any of you who care to keep in touch with me which sucks for me when I feel lonely and want to believe there are people out in the world who care about me... -
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on the other hand, there is much more babbling going on at myspace (and offline), but the weak computer memory and possible dying hard drive crashes the browser there at least hourly due to graphics and music and stuff... -
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the concert season has swung into full swing (entry at myspace has a list of all the concerts scheduled for the next couple of months) and Im loving it... -
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I am still lonely for love and romance and intimacy and creative play... -
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I am still eating daily salads and much healthier most days, but I am still binging on weekends and not getting to the gym daily lately (or keeping up the exercise logs or blog)... -
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not much else (or at least nothing else comes to mind at the moment), but overall and in the end and when all is said and done and when I lay me down to sleep and wake and the bottom line is that I am feeling better than ever about being alive (mostly for no apparent reason except being alive)...



so for you, dear readers looking for babbling life in black and white here behind the candoor, the bottom line is there is much babbling inside, much less time lately in the daily life to get it out... statistical reality tells me that most of the 100+ avid daily readers (ego still thanks you uber-much) I had earlier this year (and many other occasional readers) are not stopping by nowadays and there may be a dozen of you out there checking for daily updates here (and that might be wishful thinking at that), but its all good because I dont want anybody here who doesnt want to be here and I appreciate the few of you who care to come here and read all the more for putting up with my staggering entry uploads lately...

your caring matters much more than words can say and probably much more than you will ever know unless you visit offline...

meanwhile, in the mind of the babbler, the dancing words continue to build up pile on (no doubt college football season will add some phrases to the babble) even as the synapses are stretched what with adding a lot of new computer-play at work (exploring the Access, Excel, and XP) and adding more new music to my musical memory every day...

it's a wonder there is any room left in my head...

maybe that's why I am so alone?>..



ah yes, there's definitely a fair share of lament piling on the piles in my brain what with the deep sleep that's come over the gardens in recent weeks (just look for yourself if you know where to look) and the laments and dreams and heartbeats and all the life inside is not released into words (or personal sharing), but the pits of despair hold little appeal for me these days, so even the voice of reason or doubt that questions the worth of everything and most especially the worth of all the alone time and even the babbling that happens in lieu of actually physical sharing is met with giggling irreverence cuz it's just as possible that I am saving the universe from eminent destruction by doing what I do...

there is no waste of time, there is only unappreciated time...

and the kids in my head says, I'm appreciating, I'm appreciating, enough with the philosophy, ok?... as the peanut gallery continues to giggle along their merry way to everywhere and nowhere and all points in between...

so anyway, what this entry is about (yes, an actually purpose, ready?) is to let you know the babbler lives and actually intends to sit home with the TV on (cuz it's another college football Saturday) and open up the head and let some of the piles spill out all over the blank canvas (The Spill Canvas?... ah, still second to Meg and Dia on the personal current favorite artist charts, in case you needed to know that... did you vote for Meg and Dia on Yahoo yet?... pretty please?) for whatever it's worth...

it will be a mish mosh of random stuff falling out of my head mixed with scribbles and probably some stuff from entries written elsewhere because I don't know if you dear readers of this life in black and white actually go elsewhere to read the rambles happening behind the candoor and I want to give you the opportunity to see what you are missing cuz maybe you'll enjoy it and I know there are time constraints on life and browsing and reading and most everything...


now go have fun and come back when there are dozens of new entries to read, ok? J






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