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2006-09-16 - 12:49 a.m.

so where were we?...


something about connections... maintaining the links (literally on the web and literally in the flesh)... keeping in touch (kit, as my original journal said for those who remember or ventured back that far) and staying in touch... that is the reason I first came to journal on the web, to kit, to keep in touch with my friends and family... it didn't work for some who either didn't get on the web or didn't want to keep in touch, but hey, I can only tell people I am here and be here, I can't make anyone come find me...

and I can't stop people from erasing themselves from the web either, though I wish people wouldn't do that... so many broken links... so many dead ends... we can do better, humanity, really we can...

if and when this diary is reproduced and the entries flowing in dated chronological order, this entry would precede this entry (the one you are currently reading) and therein explain (or confuse) a few things, at least until the RealTime entry made of three RealTime entries was injected into the flow but at least it would bring us back to babbling along the stream of the rambling that this is part of, as opposed to seeming to follow a compilation entry actually written tomorrow in RealTime which followed a college football ranking table which was sort of part of this rambling...

and now that all that is cleared up...

this ramble can continue...


(and it will)



and until it does, in case you are unaware, this is the eighth entry uploaded in the last few minutes as part of a series that was written in one sitting over this weekend and we can call it the ramble...

and this is where the ramble began



but before you head there, give head here... I mean, continue reading here... I mean, we could call giving your attention to reading these words giving head and I kinda like that idea, but some people might think I was referring to something else and be offended and run and tell and point fingers and picket and claim to never want to darken my door again as they continue to focus their attention on checking me out for subversive commentary and other things they can get offended about so they could point fingers and claim they want nothing to do with my kind...

people are weird like that...

so give head here...


and give often... because I want your attention... there are those posers out here on the net who go around pretending to hate everything and could care less about anyone's opinion outside of their own... I'm not one of those people... I want to know what you think... I want to know how you feel... are you soft or hard?... furry or smooth?... do you trim or shave?...

it's late... I really ought to be asleep, but I have wash in the machine and I'm waiting for it to be finished so I can hang it up so it doesn't get all wrinkled so I can wear it to work this week... I should have remembered the wash earlier, but I was distracted most of the weekend... Meg and Dia sing to me... I was reading about how Dia gets so excited and involved in the music that she tackles people on stage... I'd love to be tackled by Dia...

. o O ( storing fantasies ) O o .

one of these days I am going to meet someone who fulfills my fantasies and then... who knows... maybe I'll die... maybe I'll stop writing... maybe I'll be inspired to write the song the whole world sings... it'll all depend on what she wants, but odds are heavily in favor of her wanting me to write and share and sing and make wild passionate love for days on end, pausing only to make mad passionate love in the shower as we wash each other and to make deliciously passionate love in the kitchen as we feed each other... not saying that's absolutely certain, but odds are...

she will be into what I am into... and she will be the vision of my dreams... like that Neil Sedaka song, only updated... she will mean everything to me... and she will stay connected, always in all ways as much as possible... the trail of bread crumbs will be following her around her whole life from everywhere she's ever been and everyone she's ever touched... nothing will be lost, nothing will be forgotten, nothing will be left behind, nothing will be wasted, not a single moment or breath...

the lemons shall make the sweetest lemonade, the bitters shall be left for those who enjoy bitters, the sharps and flats shall be integrated into the symphony that is our combined whole lives together... discord shall find harmony, even as a primal scream...

and we shall sing from Barry Manilow to the Virgin Prunes, from Frank Zappa to Josh Groban, from Meg and Dia to Cindy Bullens, from Pink Floyd to Mars Volta, from Chuck Berry to Dead Can Dance, from Evanescence to The Beatles, from Elton John to Johnny Rotten, from Billy Joel to Metallica, from Air Supply to Aerosmith, from Andrew Lloyd Webber to Jimi Hendrix, from Led Zeppelin, to The Spill Canvas, from Barbara Streisand to 30 Seconds to Mars, from Garth Brooks to The Who, from Tanya Tucker to The Moody Blues, from Ozzy Ozborne to Harry Chapin, from Sarah Maclachlin to Melissa Etheridge, from Simon and Garfunkle to Nirvana, from No Doubt to Yes, from The Supremes to Paramore, from The Beach Boys to The Rolling Stones, from Soul Asylum to The Four Seasons, from AFI to Jen Chapin, from The Red Hot Chili Peppers to Jay and the Americans, from REM to Bruce Springsteen, from Alice Cooper to Radiohead, from Little Richard to Pink, from Elvis to Prince, from Bob Dylan to Cyndi Lauper, from Eric Clapton to Kelly Clarkson, from Patti Smith to The Cowboy Junkies, from Cream to Death Cab for Cutie, from Dixie Chicks to Tom Chapin, from Michael Jackson to Rilo Kiley, from Joan Jett to Sleater-Kinney, from Avril Lavigne to Pat Benatar, from Linda Ronstadt to Janis Joplin, from here to there and everywhere from sea to shining sea...

yes, we will stay connected with everything...

through love and music and sharing completely open honesty with each other, exposing everything, hiding nothing, and trusting unconditionally that we will always do our best to do no harm and always do our best to fix any harm we've done as well as possible... never quitting, never ending, always being there for and with each other whenever wanted and always wanted... the perfect fit...

these are the thoughts that pass through my brain in the wee hours when I should be asleep... loneliness and longing for love, for sharing everything with the one... for a musical partner in life... for a passionate partner in love... for a perfect partner in everything for all time... perfection is possible, you know, it just takes a whole lot of luck and compromise... and really, the luck of finding the one who fits... the one who is as she is just as I am sharing the essential ideals and perspectives on the essential aspects of life and everything... and I dream...

that is why I came to the internet in the first place... while ego sells you the song and dance about being on stage for the applause and libido looks at the pictures and a social conscience expresses the desire to help others and save the world, my heart lead me here first to find the one... there, I've confessed, seems like old times in candora... right from the beginning...

this longing for love has kept me awake many nights, writing love songs, dreaming in words of making love in every way to the one who was waiting just for me... it's been a beautiful feeling, too, to be so true to a dream... even if the dream does not come true again, the feeling of wanting and knowing I've known love, that is so much better than the haunting wondering of never knowing...

I think I'll let Dia sing me to sleep now...

may your dreams keep you awake until they are ready for you too J


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