LIFE

IN
BLACK
AND
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( FEATURED OTHERS 'n STUFF )

MEG AND DIA!

ORLANDO?

WHERE IT BEGAN


ARE THEY SERIOUS?
(how far are we from censorship?)

ONE. . . WHY
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CONVERSATION WITH GOD

MEANING OF LIFE
FORWARD THIS ENTRY
INTELLIGENT DESIGN

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ABOUT ZOOPLA

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HELP THE RED CROSS
MESSAGES FROM MISSISSIPPI
BLOG FOR RELIEF
NEW ORLEANS JOURNAL

(MIRROR OF N.O. JOURNAL)
(INCLUDING LIVE CAM AND PHOTOS)

HELP AND BE HELPED
HURRICANE HOUSING
LINKS TO HELP
IMAGES FOR HISTORY
New Orleans News
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THE FAILURE


FREE SPEECH
(tell them what you think)

The White House
(202) 456-1111

Senate and Congress
(202) 224-3121

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FAT MAN WALKING
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SITES I SEE A LOT
IxQuick Search
Google Search
itools references
movie database

Giga-Quotes

Harry Chapin Lyrics
SSA




OLD AND NEW READS
(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

mother jones
utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
bugmenot
global news matrix
break for news
are you generic?
neil gaiman
h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
capitol hill blue
boing boing
nobody here




SITES I AM CONSIDERING
SEEING MORE OFTEN

3Hive
metafilter
comics
digg





REFERENCE LIBRARIES

questia
wikipedia
gutenberg
internet public library

itools references
movie database
Giga-Quotes
rare-lyrics
all musicals




AMUSEMENTS

Diaryland Times
home star runner
hell
hell too
sinfest
ill will press
the guide
purple
despair
maximum awesome
86 the onions
straight dope
something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
cracked



CULTURE

the superficial
darwin awards
this is true
urban legends
news of the weird
church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
faqs
fark
iGod
post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


COMMERCIAL CRAP (AND PRON)

(Note: pron is porn worth a look for amusement much more than passion, so if you see a (p) next to a link, be aware naked people may appear if you click it, m'ok?)

beautiful agony (p)
(a turn on or a laugh?)
real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

(or it could just be a typo)




PROMPTS
(IF YOU KNOW ONE LET ME KNOW)


Unconscious Mutterings
Friday Feast
Wednesday Whatevers
Sunday Brunch
Monday Madness
Thursday Threesom
Saturday Questions




(make it real)

PO BOX 780398
Orlando, FL 32878

send me some music
your favorite music
old or new
blissful or blue
let your message come through
and I will love you forever



last---past---next---now
�2006 Candor Communications


2005-07-21 - 4:20 p.m.

something about love


am I being discovered?... I mean, after years of rambling on the internet (you know the links), after thousands of pages, millions of words, time and time again sending my please for love and caring and respect and friends and just a little consistent attention, could people really be noticing en mass?... ego looks hopeful... and I laugh... and then, the heart speaks...

here I am
naked to words for you
anyone caring to read
can find what is true
inside...
I've got nothing left to hide

I wonder how many human beings really live this life with a true science fiction perspective... I mean, truly believing (and living by the belief in every moment) we are out there alone in these bodies, only to connect through imaginary bonds we call love and affection and temporary bonds we call laws and touches, understanding the experience we know as life as an illusion we can mold into anything we want to believe it is...

can I imagine I love you
will you go along with my dream
will you make it yours, open all your doors
and believe in all that love can seem
to be...
you can share all I can find in me

even loneliness is an illusion (so why do I create it so well for so long when it hurts so much sometimes?... perhaps because the memory of the euphoric bliss of the shared illusion of love is appealing enough to create the illusion of suffering when alone... hmmmm, interesting hypothesis doctor... pass the brandy?)...

someone sang of whipporwills
as if it meant something
of loneliness and emptiness
but what if I would sing
to you...
asking what you know is true

has anyone out there really tried eHarmony?... I'd like to hear your stories, if you don't mind sharing... privately would be fine... I'd like to hope there is real hope out there for meeting people after college... all of those meeting-type sites seem fixated with demographics... age, sex, race, size, etc... for me those are the least important aspects of knowing a person and anyone who places those attributes at the top of their list is unappealing to me... different aspects of my mind have different personal tastes, mostly based on genetics, instincts, and memories...

if you want to understand
how I feel and who I am
we must spend time in space
studying each other's face
inside...
where there's nothing left to hide

for instance, my first loves were all petite females with dark hair, so my libido prediliction is to lust after such visuals (Libbo has a website with lists, if you're interested), but I don't place sexuality at the top of my list of qualities and sharings I want with the one... I could live with an open platonic bond with the one if I found a soulmate who was not physically appealing to me...

if you want to turn me on
and have me really respond
you must look a certain way
take me back to yesterday
and be...
the vision of my fantasy

but even as the visual cortex is powerful aphrodisiac, sexuality is momentary and mostly superficial... much more important to me is intellect and creativity, curiosity and above all else, an open mind eager to seek out, learn, share, explore, and create positive experiences... and shared interests and activities are vital to a mutually pleasurable relationship of any kind... and energy level, so intangible, at once abstract and concrete (if you understand, you do, if you do not understand, you do not and explanations are all but meaningless except to approximate detached logical concepts that most likely mean different things in each mind), energy level is the most important aspect of a being... compatibility of energy levels reaches beyond all physical knowledge and empirical concepts...

somewhere in the cosmic mind
beyond human life and fear
open up and you will find
energy is everywhere
to feel...
how much do you dare be real?

but still the first questions most ask is age (as if profound meaning and knowledge can be found in such a number), gender (as if sexuality was the primary foundation of all sharing), race (as if the ignorances that form prejudice thoughts that are created by fearing differences in appearance and cultural experience can be validated and used as a judgment of compatibility)... are these still the first questions you find in a first meeting, especially on line?... numbers, labels, categories, boxes?...

my mind believes it is four years old
my heart still feels as it did at seventeen
much to my surprise
my soul is as ageless as time itself
my spirit is reborn each time I open my eyes
I think my spirit's wise

age is a number that grows more or less meaningful in different company... if you are feeling old, you probably will see me as an obnoxiously bouncy child who will wear you out emotionally and intellectually and physically... if you are feeling about five years old, you will probably relate to me well... feelings are all in the mind, after all... you know?...

what do you think, what do you feel?
what gives your life it's greatest appeal?
if we share the same root causes for being
we can find intimacy very freeing
you know?...
who are you when you let it all go?

I deliberately exclude such information from my online writings (you really want to know, you must call and ask) because I do not want to feed into typical superficial human prejudices in my written world... and I hope those who call to find out the basic stats will respect my choice, though probability leans toward those wanting to know such information up front are insensitive to the ageless, genderless, raceless ambiance I hope to create overall in my written worlds... still, I continue wanting to trust the human race... so I do, one by one, true you...

what if I lived to several hundred Earth years in some past life?...

not possible in your mind?... then your mind and my mind would not be compatible sharing intimacy for in my mind...

anything is possible...

what if we are life forms that pass through this human life on this planet only to move on to another life form on another planet (or another somewhere) after what we humans perceive as death on this planet and we do not retain any conscious memories of the past life experiences (or elsewheres), but somewhere in our energy matrix the information, the memories exist?...

what if everything knowable in all universes (all the elsewheres) is already within the energy matrix of this universe and all we had to do was tap into it with our human mental energy? (and what if we could learn how?)...

what if you could create a world of peace and prosperity and security for all humans simply by giving up most of your wealth and luxury items, while still living comfortably (and actually feeling safer than ever) in this life?...

what do you ask yourself when you are alone?...

we all believe in something, most of us believe in something concrete, explanable, even tangible... I believe that anything is possible and everything we know could be wrong... I believe in making the most of each moment and the best of each experience... I believe in actualizing honesty without harm in every decision I make and every action I take... I believe in love...

each heart beat holds magic
each thought tells a tale
each feeling's a wind
that can fill your sail
and take you anywhere
your heart wants to be
if I believe in you
and you believe in me
and we believe in love
we can share our fantasies
anything is possible
when love is your reality






. o O ( NOTES ARE THE NEW HAPPY PILL ) O o .
(just let me know you were here)




see me - - - feel me - - - touch me - - - heal me


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the moment

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202 Things
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DO ME WRONG!
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SOAP!

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A Diaryland Survey
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small world
your profile matters
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tell others
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applause?
favor?
gift?

get your own!

saturn rings and other places
googlisms
browsing
where've ya been?
the searchers

favorites

911
HEY AMERICA!
LOOK AT YOUR CHILD
STOP THE ABUSE

(GET THE CODE)

THOUGHTS ON GOD

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