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2006-09-25 - 3:30 a.m.

sleeping?


and then I wrote: PS... if all goes according to plan, as if there was any sort of plan, a couple of entries will be added here each day from now on until we are actually up to date with the calendar...

just in case you missed the PS to the previous entry which was the starting over point (sort of) for this renewed house-cleaning (sixty-odd pages of babbling is creating a Word file that is too big to be easy to manage on this ancient computer and besides, there's a lot of old news just getting older that was supposed to be uploaded weeks {and months} ago)...

there was some sort of idea here, really...

ok then, we shall get on with the RealTime entry and the expansion project of said previously written a while back RealTime entry introduced in the previous entry (or perhaps this one even, or odd) right here in life in black and white behind the candoor... if your neighbor has fallen asleep, it is time to nudge him or her and act all excited... ready?... ok, here we go:

why I am not sleeping...

future side note (meaning from the future, which is technically now as I write this, but based on the dates stamped above these words you are reading, this is the future): ironically or amazingly or just plain foolishly, I am still in this not-sleeping mode, so this may be as relavant now as it was then which brings then even closer to now and further makes the dates and time thing relative, which is good, mostly... anyway, back to the entry in progress which was an expansion of an entry from elsewhere, in case you forgot already or never understood in the first place... happens to the best of us... onward...


yes, the topic for today's monologue will be a lecture or analysis or perhaps both pertaining to and attempting to actually focus on the subject of this post which is, as we can plainly see unless we are blind, in which case call 407-325-1482 and ask me to read it to you, but then, if you are blind you probably won't know I just put my telephone number in this introductory paragraph so you can call me to read the blog to you because you can't see it...

right, well, now that we've cleared that up...

I am awake because... wait, I have not just brushed off all of my blind readers, I've simply realized that I do not have the time or brain capacity at the moment to come up with a suitable solution to the blind readership of blogs on the web... it is sad that a whole class of people are not provided with a place in blogdom and I believe we must insist on audio blogging to be made available free to the blind...

what's that?... audio blogging is free to anyone who has the computer capacity to audio blog?... ah yes, even video blogging is available, I should have remembered the good professor z0tl demonstrating his fine skills in that arena not long ago... I do hope he continues even though I haven't the computer capacity to access much in the way of audio or video blogging, which kinda of makes me blind to audio video blogging, which is ironic considering the content of this entry so far, don't you think?...

I empathize, I'm not sure I understand me myself all the time...

anyway, I am supposed to be (by the way, this entry will be duplicated and posted behind the candoor (and it was, as you see) with bonus material {hey, it works for CDs and DVDs, right?} because it is by nature and in fact, some serious babbling and babbling belongs behind the candoor, not here... but be that as it may be or not to be, we are here now and the question is why am I not sleeping... or why I am not sleeping, interrogative toneage to the statement as a proper thesis might be...

ya see, ya see?... I already knew that I would be duplicating that entry here (with this added commentary) because I do that because the babble belongs here dangit, and not elsewhere... well, much of the babble belongs here, that is... the free associative stuff, especially... in any case, I was trying to explain why I was still awake on the night in question (who's asking?), so let's get back to the report...

but before we do (just bear with me a moment, I mean, if you are here for the free associative babble, that is... if you are not here for the free associative babble then I really wish you would leave a comment and tell me why you are here because it would help me understand and I like to understand you... I mean, if you don't mind and all... of course few of you will have read this request and fewer still will actually give me what I want, but that's ok, because you will find the answer at the end of your road and then life can begin for you and all this time before will not have been completely wasted because we've all got to learn on our own at our own pace and it's ok, really, you are ok, so don't worry because you really are ok)...

spinning around a bit, perhaps, but really ok...

I'm not exactly sure just what I was going to mention before the before I do in the previous paragraph, perhaps a reminder that this is a catch up session and by nature catch up sections contain information that is not in the past, but it's ok and it's a good place to start when wanting to know something about someone's history... but it was something, of that I am sure...

anyway, I figure it's only fair that I let it go here, that is, I cast aside any rules or decorum or structure or any sort of sorting of words or styles or anything of the sort of sorting of anything that may or is maybe supposed to happen in my various writing spaces that differentiate various aspects of my writing and personality and whatever you might get out of this or that or the other thing, so I wrote this for John Lennon:

and so I stand
alone with open hands
a single child
still feeling young and wild
and having fun
as if I've not begun
to understand
that god or man has planned

though years have crossed my path I laugh at time
as I remain secure in my sublime
learn to enjoy life's bitter herbs and limes
and distance can be banished in this rhyme

and so I sit
small part of it
the grand design
the bottom line
from endless birth
what life is worth
is reasonless
just happiness

those jaded cynics may call it naive
but fear condemns the best man to deceive
there's no end to what you can receive
when you know in love you believe
when you know all you need to believe in
is in love you believe

and so I fly
to touch the sky
and sing my song
where I belong
no need for cause
no never was
just here and now
and just allow

love to carry me
love to set me free
love's epiphany
love is all I need to be


continued in the next entry...






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