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2004-02-12 - 9:40 p.m. the sound of silence can be defeaning maybe I've already gone deaf... at least to any meaningful contact or intimate potentials... or maybe I've just gotten way old before my time, though old is a state of mind and I've known some very old children in my life... people used to call me an old child... that was admired, mostly... old people are not admired, mostly... when I get old, shoot me... in the foot... and if that doesn't wake me up, hand me the gun so I can finish the job... I am not being noticed much... I wonder how many of you showing up in the stats numbers actually read me regularly and how many just stop by occasionally without much interest in knowing me and how many click randomly and hardly read a word... inside, there is only silence... is anyone even trying to reach me?... or am I truly deaf inside?... queue Evanescence... sometimes I consider applying for depression... I mean, going to a head shrinker for consultation and letting the pity party blossom into the necessary clinical criteria for professional diagnosis so that I can take my laptop into some nice depressing institution and sit on my bed in a semi-catatonic state typing random words to no one... you can quote me, just in case it happens... meanwhile, life around here today is much the same as life around here every day... Precious is on her dad's computer, her dad is sleeping, and I just got out of the shower after a gym workout... here I sit typing letters into this box while munching on some Greekish food that Rasputin brought home... he calls them gyros, with a hard "g"... every time I hear him say that I wonder what he's talking about until I realize he means gyros, with a soft "g"... it's regional, no doubt... but still, gy, like it's cousins gi and ge, are usually soft "g"s... except giggle, I suppose... the English language is full of exceptions, ya know... but go ahead, say gyroscope... anyway, the food was fair... it's a fast food Greek place across from the University... my muscles will be calling out for more protein later, this is mostly carbs, but it's a gift and that makes it taste much better... it is good to have a roommate who cares enough to bring home food for me... of course it could be they just didn't like it... I am practicing depressing thinking... it isn't easy for me... have to shorten my thoughts... abbreviate sentences... cut off tangents... kill the babbler (or at least a coma, a coma would do)... see (if you do), the babbler is an incurable optimist... words stimulate excitement and energy and creativity and positivity and ultimately, euphoria... even depressing words... so the words have to be reduced to brief moments of pathos, self-pathetic thoughts cut off from any deeper thinking... otherwise I'll start laughing at myself and be all happy that I've expressed depression so well... it makes sense, trust me... so even amidst the deafening silence and suffocating loneliness and blah blah blah I find an entry for posterity... posterity has always been my best friend... the only one who has always been there to motivate me to find the last thread of ego energy to blurt out some words to show some sign of life... as if someone might someday read a few lines buried among thousands of words in an obscure entry piled upon hundreds of other entries (or pages) in a discard section of some minor branch of the library of the cosmos... and find something worth remembering... ego has an amazing capacity for survival... I'll obvious have to find a way to silence it if I am to pull off my depression idea... still, I wonder...
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