wait, this is part three... part one is here...

and yes, I have decided to make some time to use the test results to inspire a bit more introspective babble here (for better or worse) and hopefully you've come back to notice and find some worth in the reading of the rambling� hey, I like that (momentary copyright notice):

You Are 17 Years Old

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

there's a Michael C. Smith (or is that Michael W. Smith?) song in this one, aye?� yeah, but it's not that I am looking for my place, it's that I want to play (and live) in a few rather different places and choices must be made because I do not want to do a superficial or skimmed-past job in anything I do� so I did not pursue the stage (and travel it demands) because I physically could not do the daily work I do involved in people's lives over a period of time� while I believe it is very possible for a singer or actor or public speaker to travel around and touch people very deeply and even help change things for the better in individual lives and in the world, for me, staying in one place for enough years to give someone a sense of actual caring and stability in their lives� perhaps a song can do that too� and perhaps I am selfish in wanting the personal contact and to see the improvement with my own eyes� and perhaps I was afraid I might not succeed on the stage and took what, in some strange way, might seem like the easy way out�

seems like I am continuing this ramble from where I left off in the previous entry (part two)� and wouldn't it be nice to find someone into the music world, a musician who wants to play with my words or a friend who enjoys karaoke and/or theatre and/or a concert-going and/or show-going partner or even, when the time is right (a year or few), an opportunity to hit the road with a singer, band, or show� as Gary Morris said, dreams die hard when they don't come true so I say why let them die at all� dreams die when the hope for the dream dies and hope springs eternal if we want it to and guess who wants it to�

You Are Most Like John F. Kennedy

You live a fairy tale life that most people envy. And while you may have a few dark secrets, few people know them.

probably a pretty fair segue and would you believe it was completely unplanned?� true, I just took the tests as they popped up in the sidebar on the sight and plugged them in here in the order I took them and did not read ahead as I scribble in the babble (add the rambling, that is)� I'd like a bit more of the luxuries that JFK's fairy tale had, but then, I'd like to live a lot longer than he lived too so I'll consider myself lucky to not have snipers aiming at my head (or if they are, lucky they've had pretty bad aim so far)�

the hope and idealism, however, that no one can take away from me (and believe me, some expert destroyers have tried)� and perhaps this is my place in this world most of all, to be here, wherever I am, in the moment, nurturing hope and idealism and striving to stay afloat when the rains fall hard and thriving to soar when the winbds are right� the rest of what I do can change, but this is the purpose that I call mine�

noble, aye? J

ah, it's too much fun to play with the possibilities in my mind� and with that thought (and perspective), I look ahead to see the next test was taken several times because a lot of possible correct answers were listed and this time, the different answers provided different results� for whatever Tarot cards might be worth in our ramblings, these are the Tarot cards the next test pylled up based on my answers�

You Are The Wheel of Fortune

You represent the cycles of life, death, and rebirth. You embrace change, the the ups and downs of life. Fate is something you accept, even when you could possibly change things. Big things tend to happen to you more than other people. Your fortune: Something huge is about to happen in your life, and you have little control over it. You must accept your destiny, but luckily it is good fortune that has come your way. Big things and big changes are about to come your way. And while things will be intense for a while, they will be followed by a period of rest.

You Are The Hermit

You posses a great deal of wisdom and the ability to see people for who they are. You are always looking ahead at the future, developing visions. A loner, you tend to travel by yourself through life, seeking your own truth. You don't crave material things or fancy titles. You have no baggage. Your fortune: It's possible that there is a unknown guiding figure in your life, ready to help you. All you have to do is find this person and seek their advice. It's also possible that you need to start seeking the meaning of your own life. Either way, there's some deep thinking you need to undertake, and it needs to be done soon.

You Are The Star

You represent the ultimate in truth and purity. Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others. You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love. You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal. Your fortune: Your future is looking brighter by the day. The near future will be a time of both hope and healing. Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen. Life is about to get a lot easier and much better!

You Are The Chariot

You represent a difficult battle, and a well-deserved victory. You tend to struggle to get what you want, both internally and externally. You excel at controlling opposing forces, getting down the same path. In the end, you bring glory and success - using pure will to move forward. Your fortune: There is great conflict in your life right now, either with yourself or others. You must find a solution to this conflict, which is likely to be a "middle road" between the two forces. You posses the skills to triumph over these struggles, as long as your will is strong. You are transforming your inner self, building a better foundation for future successes.

so my cards (or I am, so to speak) The Wheel of Fortune, The Hermit, The Star, and The Chariot� anyone well versed in the cards can explain what that means to me at your leisure� suddenly, I miss squirrelx, who disappeared from diaryland and her own site and as far as I know, from the web, more than two years ago� wonderful heart, wonder-filled mind, and fascinating writer, especially for the narrative�

there's yet another page of this test-stuff and rambling� are you too excited for words (apparently)� of course we could just laugh off all psycho-babble tests and methods of evaluation based on stars or cards or virtually anything (even science, for the most part)�

but then where would the ?drama be in that? J

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