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real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

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�2006 Candor Communications


2005-03-05 - 4:54 p.m.

at least I'm popular with SPAM (and you're popular with me)


there are times when I wonder what it would be like to be as popular as the most popular diaries (or websites, for that matter), online... and of course my ego drools over the possibility no matter how far fetched the probability... I mean, let's face it, I'm just a mushy emotion-addicted pile of goo... like a bad soap opera... to reach the pinnacles of popularity, much less personal whining and much more clever wit would be required... and possibly even some thought... I might lose some of you admitting this, but I don't put much thought into this diary... I think I may have used all my thoughts up with the funda...

the last couple of entries got me to thinking about the nature of popularity, especially online, and the effect the attention has on me... I mean, some people get around 150 unique hosts per day, whatever that means... I tease, cuz after all, if I was jealous I'd surely not link her and give her even more visitors, ya know... looking at my stats, DLand tells me casa de candoor averages 66 page views a day... at least I think those are page views... looking at the unique hosts column since Jan 4th (since that's as far back as the stats go), I am averaging in the mid 20s... there's a 40 as a high and a bunch of 30s and 20s and a few teens... and then there is February 31st listed at 0... zero, how depressing... at least it was an imaginary day...

it really feels good when the numbers are high, even if I know that's just my imagination... high is relative... I really don't know what i would do today if I got dozens of notes or comments the way some people do... I remember a time when I had the time and confidence (or whatever it takes) to write more then a dozen letters a week (at peak I corresponded with more than a hundred different people, but snail mail was different... a letter or two a month was great... now, with emails and instant messaging, waiting a couple of weeks for a response seems like forever... maybe even rude)... but I lost faith in corresponding and almost lost faith in thre written word... in music... in myself...

the diaries, the written gardens, these have kept me alive in many ways... the hope for sharing, the faith I have in written words, in other people writing and telling the truth, this has hung on by thing threads in recent years... but I continue, as I leave the past behind and feel the bitterness of betrayals and lies fading, to write... to hope... to want to believe...

I am not sure how or why, but I do not question the blind faith or insatiable desire or both that holds me to my love of words and hope for sharing trust again and... more than words...

meanwhile (back to the daily life), once again mail is bouncing at my website... but diaryland addresses and Gmail is still fine... speaking of Gmail, I've not checked for a while so maybe later...

the irony today is that I downloaded mail several times before last night and I attempted a download five times this morning only to be disconnected by the supposed unlimited connection I may for at ATT... I am coming to firmly believe, more and more, that the techies at ATT seem to want to sell the idea that they have no software or hardware or system of any kind to cut people off from their servers, to simply disconnect, but I do not believe them... the evidence, though circumstantial, is prepondering... or is that propondering?... well, in any case, based on a pre or proponderance of evidence, I conclude that the techies at ATT lie and therein commit fraud and shall be duly prosecuted someday in some way by some means somehow because that's the kind of universe I want to believe in...

let them prove me wrong...

ATT Worldnet Unlimited Access Report
attempt to download mail # 8 for today
(previous 7 attempts failed)
RESULT: not completed, server disconnected

so we try again (attempt #9):

website address SPAM count,
download 4:48 PM 3/5/05
1374 messages, 10.0MB
RESULT: completed, success, amazing.

hey, at least I'm popular with SPAM... real popular...


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and hope you're having as much fun as pickled eggs...

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