LIFE

IN
BLACK
AND
WHITE



last---past---next---now
( FEATURED OTHERS 'n STUFF )

MEG AND DIA!

ORLANDO?

WHERE IT BEGAN


ARE THEY SERIOUS?
(how far are we from censorship?)

ONE. . . WHY
(find your social conscience)

Barbara Waters: so candoor, what all this fuss about blogmad?

Candoor: Blogmad? It's better than ever! Get more visitors (or find me in chat there). Register now and tell me for extra credits. VARB?


JOIN OR RE-REGISTER NOW

welcome blogmadians... and the rest of you, while still in beta, you can still join the latest greatest party on the web, blogmad!

SUPPORT BLOGMAD! BUY STUFF



o O ( ALTERNATIVE MEDICINE ) O o

CONVERSATION WITH GOD

MEANING OF LIFE
FORWARD THIS ENTRY
INTELLIGENT DESIGN

(SEE WHAT THE POPE SAYS)

o O ( AND COMING SOON! ) O o

ABOUT ZOOPLA

o O ( AND CURRENT EVENTS ) O o


blogadvance blogazoo
blogexplosion blogmad?
bloglines


o O ( SOCIAL CONCERNS ) O o

HELP THE RED CROSS
MESSAGES FROM MISSISSIPPI
BLOG FOR RELIEF
NEW ORLEANS JOURNAL

(MIRROR OF N.O. JOURNAL)
(INCLUDING LIVE CAM AND PHOTOS)

HELP AND BE HELPED
HURRICANE HOUSING
LINKS TO HELP
IMAGES FOR HISTORY
New Orleans News
Buloxi News
THE FAILURE


FREE SPEECH
(tell them what you think)

The White House
(202) 456-1111

Senate and Congress
(202) 224-3121

YOU'VE GOT THE RIGHTS
USE THEM





FAT MAN WALKING
BLOGATHON!
INDEX BEGIN
FACE FUN!



last---past---next---now



SITES I SEE A LOT
IxQuick Search
Google Search
itools references
movie database

Giga-Quotes

Harry Chapin Lyrics
SSA




OLD AND NEW READS
(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

mother jones
utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
bugmenot
global news matrix
break for news
are you generic?
neil gaiman
h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
capitol hill blue
boing boing
nobody here




SITES I AM CONSIDERING
SEEING MORE OFTEN

3Hive
metafilter
comics
digg





REFERENCE LIBRARIES

questia
wikipedia
gutenberg
internet public library

itools references
movie database
Giga-Quotes
rare-lyrics
all musicals




AMUSEMENTS

Diaryland Times
home star runner
hell
hell too
sinfest
ill will press
the guide
purple
despair
maximum awesome
86 the onions
straight dope
something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
cracked



CULTURE

the superficial
darwin awards
this is true
urban legends
news of the weird
church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
faqs
fark
iGod
post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


COMMERCIAL CRAP (AND PRON)

(Note: pron is porn worth a look for amusement much more than passion, so if you see a (p) next to a link, be aware naked people may appear if you click it, m'ok?)

beautiful agony (p)
(a turn on or a laugh?)
real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

(or it could just be a typo)




PROMPTS
(IF YOU KNOW ONE LET ME KNOW)


Unconscious Mutterings
Friday Feast
Wednesday Whatevers
Sunday Brunch
Monday Madness
Thursday Threesom
Saturday Questions




(make it real)

PO BOX 780398
Orlando, FL 32878

send me some music
your favorite music
old or new
blissful or blue
let your message come through
and I will love you forever



last---past---next---now
�2006 Candor Communications


2004-01-19 - 7:12 p.m.

overdrawn at the mind bank...


ok, I finally made time to add another entry to browsing but that barely made a dent in the links added to this laptop just this week... but at least I did make a small dent in the pile... and I downloaded most of my DLand stuff to Rasputin's computer (cuz that's the one hooked up to the DSL connection) and now I just have to figure out how to get it off that hard drive (all that computer has for removable storage is a floppy disk so I guess I'll have to split up the folder my stuff is in, but at least it's safer than out here on the web on servers I have no access to without an internet connection)... so what else is new?...

it has been so long since I have slept, I dont remember... let's see if food might not jump start my brain... tic... tic... tic... ah, that's better... I actually started this entry about five hours ago and then Rasputin got home and in these five hours the TV had most of our attention... wonderful way to spend a day off, huh?... well, I didn't sleep much this weekend and that extended into today and the only way I can explain it is that the mind needed the mental aerobics more than the body needed physical aerobics... it has been at least few weeks since I extended the sleepless period beyond two days... and while this may be logic beyond known physical science, but it is the way I have lived this life so far and by all standards it seems to have worked well for me...

it is just less fun every year to do it alone...

but alone we must, as that is the nature of things and the sharing is mere illusion and no matter how much I miss the illusion and no matter how much I create the illusion of sorrow and even depression because my desire to share goes unfulfilled for more time than is fun, it is all still illusion... so I can just as easily create the illusion of happiness and satisfaction when the hunger and longing to share goes too long unfulfilled... and so it goes...

ah, now we are making sense...

I wonder if other intelligent species in the universe have sarcasm... heck, I wonder if other animals do... is it sarcasm when a cat raises her butt and flicks her tail at you?... no, that's probably just instinct... cat natural instinct is to raise their butt as if to say, "here, sniff this"... it may be an act of love as easily as that of sarcasm... is it sarcasm when a parrot repeats exactly the most ironic thing you've said?... no, that's probably just instinct too... it is more likely that the subtle energy of vocal emphasis is sensed by the bird and repeated for whatever reason the bird might have, if any... it is as easily an act of love, or attention seeking, as it is an act of sarcasm... and so I am left to wonder, is sarcasm what separates humans from other life forms?...

ah, now I remember... this is what happens when I don't do much physically and stay awake for days and days... I think too much...

was that sarcasm?...

ahem... perhaps the singularity that is human consciousness, collective and individual, is the ability to create, or perhaps even more the dependency on, mental illusion... the ability to and dependency on fooling one's self... it would seem logical that other sentient species would have the ability, even more ability than humans, to create and focus mental energy and therein form even more visceral illusions, perhaps even projecting these illusion into the physical space, manipulating matter, and inserting thoughts and whole illusions into less focused minds... perhaps that is what a being we'd call a god does, or can do...

this is not sarcasm...

looking at human behavior and history, it appears that the predominant collective illusions chosen by humanity is guilt, shifting responsibility, shame, and a rather irrational dependency on illusions that can not easily be brought into their physical world (if any can at all) and illusions that are self-defeating and self destructive... go ahead, digest that sentence...

really... the egocentric perspective, the belief in miracles, the conceptualization of an original sin, the complacency of conscience, and the thoughts and actions that place power and responsibility outside of self and literally in thin air are all traditional human choices that detach perception from the physical world and limit physical and mental ability... I believe it is fine for those who truly wish to remain unaware and therein restricted in their thinking, for that is freedom of choice - to limit consciousness and perception... but I believe it is not ok to condemn those who choose to reach for higher energy levels, less limited perceptions, and more extensive consciousness... limiting the possibilities for self is an individual's choice, limiting the possibilities for others, for a whole species, is not...

but then, freedom is my personal illusion and it may be unfair of me to impose that on others... the word is bandied about by many in many ways... from the physical fight for freedom that permits giving and taking of life that most human cultures experience sooner or later in their developmental histories to the concept of free will in spiritual texts, freedom is an illusion that eventually permeates most other illusions... the difference is a matter of degrees, how free is freedom...

further supporting this thought, if nothing is perfect and everything is relative, then the illusion of freedom is variable and therein, a choice... the collective choice of a species is the degree of anything, including freedom, that defines the concept... and the collective choice for human freedom is quite limited, therein limiting the perception and consciousness and therein limiting the grown and understanding of the species...

intellectual development, individual and in fact all species development is restricted, in many cases prevented, by accepting fears and substituting intangible solutions and ethereal illusions for visceral perception and actual physical world experience... it is a crime against humanity, but it appears that collective awareness is not ready to face this just yet...

and that may be an illusion I am buying into, that humans are not ready, and buying into it feeds the illusion and makes it more real... my choice?... and yet, when I stop buying into it and treat people as if they were truly ready, willing, and able to reach for a more extensive enlightenment, I am usually met with serious, even violent opposition... different perspectives, lifestyles, ideas, people have always met with the possibility of death if the difference deviates too far from the collective norms...

so it is with great care that I propose to you that you are all ready to let go of the age old fears and irresponsible transference of power and consciousness away from yourself and actually become aware that you are responsible for your choices, your actions, your perceptions, your illusions, and your existence...

and how are you today?...






. o O ( NOTES ARE THE NEW HAPPY PILL ) O o .
(just let me know you were here)




see me - - - feel me - - - touch me - - - heal me


< last one < < < < BURP! > > > >next one >




.

.

.

.

.

the moment

we interrupt these seemingly mindless dots for a word from (or at least about our sponsor (hmmm, sponsor?... what's the opposite of sponsor?)... anyway, now, as ado-less as possible, the word for you or andrew)...

you know that box to the right on the dland entry page called recent public entries?... what do the asterisks mean?... and the bold?...

. . .

connections

.

.

.

.

AND WHATDYA MISS?
Laughing Lament
stranger brews
once upon a diaryland
babbling through computer concerns
stunningly missing
older still


random chance

who me?

leave a note?
(read archived notes)

send me mail?

you want to know me?
soundtrack
101 Things
The Sequel
The Trilogy
202 Things
200 Things
202 More Things
202 Things Again
testing123
have time, love words?
sleepwriting
(where the heart dreams)

and now, in RealTime�

DO ME!
(Johari Style)


DO ME WRONG!
(but do me right)


SOAP!

(EPISODE ONE)
(the dark side of candoor)


loving linkers
other loves

A Diaryland Survey
other surveys
small world
your profile matters
(search for you & find me)


tell others
read others
applause?
favor?
gift?

get your own!

saturn rings and other places
googlisms
browsing
where've ya been?
the searchers

favorites

911
HEY AMERICA!
LOOK AT YOUR CHILD
STOP THE ABUSE

(GET THE CODE)

THOUGHTS ON GOD

( temporary attractions )


BACK TO #1 @ GOOGLE!

WAS #1 @ MSN!
(for a while, now on page 3 5)




(EXPERIMENTAL PLAYTHINGS)
RSS?



who links here
blogwise
Blogarama
Globe of Blogs
blogthings

~ BLOGLINKERS ~




~ BLOGROLLING ~
(Blogroll RSS)


Blogroll Me!

published
blogadvance
blogazoo
blogexplosion
blogmad?
bloglines



(PREVIOUS TEMPORARY ATTRACTIONS)
TSUNAMI INFO
fantasy sports?
BLOGGIES?
sorry everybody
Orange Blossom Music Festival

Deland Music Festival
MIT Survey

brilliant idea
Celebrate Birthdays
FOR FREEDOM



CONTINUE...
talking dog






SAY HELLO
407-325-1482





and if you want to leave
take good care
hope you make a lot
of true friends out there