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SITES I SEE A LOT
IxQuick Search
Google Search
itools references
movie database

Giga-Quotes

Harry Chapin Lyrics
SSA




OLD AND NEW READS
(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

mother jones
utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
bugmenot
global news matrix
break for news
are you generic?
neil gaiman
h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
capitol hill blue
boing boing
nobody here




SITES I AM CONSIDERING
SEEING MORE OFTEN

3Hive
metafilter
comics
digg





REFERENCE LIBRARIES

questia
wikipedia
gutenberg
internet public library

itools references
movie database
Giga-Quotes
rare-lyrics
all musicals




AMUSEMENTS

Diaryland Times
home star runner
hell
hell too
sinfest
ill will press
the guide
purple
despair
maximum awesome
86 the onions
straight dope
something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
cracked



CULTURE

the superficial
darwin awards
this is true
urban legends
news of the weird
church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
faqs
fark
iGod
post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


COMMERCIAL CRAP (AND PRON)

(Note: pron is porn worth a look for amusement much more than passion, so if you see a (p) next to a link, be aware naked people may appear if you click it, m'ok?)

beautiful agony (p)
(a turn on or a laugh?)
real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

(or it could just be a typo)




PROMPTS
(IF YOU KNOW ONE LET ME KNOW)


Unconscious Mutterings
Friday Feast
Wednesday Whatevers
Sunday Brunch
Monday Madness
Thursday Threesom
Saturday Questions




(make it real)

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send me some music
your favorite music
old or new
blissful or blue
let your message come through
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�2006 Candor Communications


2005-06-25 - 11:20 p.m.

on the crest...


ok, I've got at least twenty entries in near completion (enough to upload and see how they layout) and a dozen more in my head that will come out in the next few weeks (besides the dailies, if the dailies actually get back to continuing, which is the plan, for whatever plans are worth in my non-planning head)... I am hoping that I get enough together tonight so that I'll upload all the catch up entries and be back in real time (as this paragraph is)...

I smiled within a memory
and found hope in my eyes
as I wished on a happy tear
and much to my surprise
you came to me with open arms
and with room in your heart
a wish come true, a true friend
and memory came apart
so a new day could start

today I spent most of the day (and last night) culling through my brain and emails (because emails saw a lot more of me than usual the last two weeks while I've been mostly away from here)... my venture into developing more of an offline social life (including exploring falling in love and finding a true friend) was a wild ride that seems to have fizzled because, well, you can read the email conversations for yourself in the next series of entries as they are part of the catch up entries this time... simply, I want a true friend more than a lover and she wants a lover more than a true friend... add to that the fact that the most important wants for me were not the most important wants for her... and she has enough friends...

I am sad that she suddenly is too busy to communicate with me anymore... I can only accept that her excitement in knowing me was purely physical... and my excitement was almost all ethereal... oh well, sigh, and all that jazz...

guess I need to find someone who doesn't have a best friend who shares my interests and wants and values and ideals and perspectives enough to want me as a best friend... I still do not understand the term more than a friend... for me, there is nothing more or better than a friend... I add true to the words just as I add honest to love to emphasize how I perceive the words... there is no love unless it is honest... there is no friendship unless it is true... and two who share true friendship share everything that matters (with or without sex... yes, sex matters, but not as much as the unconditional trust of true friends)...

fall in love with me
not with my body
see the inner me
the child inside

pure and innocent
more than a body
ethereal and free
I do not hide

here I am in words
if you care to know
can you hear my song
soft and low
if you hear
before I go
then I may stay
in all you know

I don't even know if she reads me (you out there doc?)... intimacy, for me, starts here in the thoughts, in the mind, in the words and dreams and history and knowledge of who I am... passion, for me, comes from the knowing, the trusting, the loving of the ideals and perspectives and insides... extending this loving into the physical world, for me, means instinctive attractions must be there and that means truly loving the body (not overlooking any self-abuse that we might be doing to our bodies at the moment)... I will not pretend that sex is enough to satisfy me nor will I pretend that sex can make me turn off my awareness (even if I could)...

so I am too sensitive, too intense, too real, too consciously aware, too empathic, too whatever...

again...

it's tough to lose a towel
when your eyes are full of soap
but it's worse to lose a friend
when your heart is full of hope

it's the story of this life as I've known it... and it is beyond any literal explanation (no matter how many times I try to explain, it is an experience one must attain... again, read The Celestine Prophesy and Illusions and then talk to me about it)... and I will continue longing for the one who understands... and the one who actualizes... and the one who shares...

who will run the final mile with me
who will chase the stars across the sky
who will reach for the best we can be
nurture mutual creativity
be each other's fantasy
and settle for nothing less

and how are you, dear readers?...

remember, whenever I am away there is plenty of reading material you've probably not explored elsewhere and one way or another as long as I am able to tap keys and connect to the net, I shall return...






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