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SITES I SEE A LOT
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Google Search
itools references
movie database

Giga-Quotes

Harry Chapin Lyrics
SSA




OLD AND NEW READS
(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

mother jones
utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
bugmenot
global news matrix
break for news
are you generic?
neil gaiman
h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
capitol hill blue
boing boing
nobody here




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SEEING MORE OFTEN

3Hive
metafilter
comics
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wikipedia
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rare-lyrics
all musicals




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Diaryland Times
home star runner
hell
hell too
sinfest
ill will press
the guide
purple
despair
maximum awesome
86 the onions
straight dope
something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
cracked



CULTURE

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darwin awards
this is true
urban legends
news of the weird
church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
faqs
fark
iGod
post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


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beautiful agony (p)
(a turn on or a laugh?)
real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

(or it could just be a typo)




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Friday Feast
Wednesday Whatevers
Sunday Brunch
Monday Madness
Thursday Threesom
Saturday Questions




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�2006 Candor Communications


2006-08-01 - 6:35 p.m.

peeling the onion (part 2)


I know, you just couldn't get enough onion, so here's some more...


I tend to think in many directions at once and wish I could find someone who understands that such a way of thinking is not always a mental illness as when appears to be ADD can instantly become such intense singular focus that you might prefer me to switch back to scattered thoughts and scanning the horizon...

I suppose that by the time I ponder the best way to introduce myself here I'll have already written so many massive missives that few people will have stuck around to read that hypothetical and illusive best introduction... try the back door if you have time and are interested (the window hasn't been used in so long it may not be functional, but the concept remains and given the right inspiration, I just might get back to building my online house)...

I am still not sure just why I am here... sure, I am lonely and want friends... sure I live to be in love and share life with a partner... but do I believe such relationships can be found online?... even as I firmly believe there is always hope for dreams to come true, I'll check the agnostic box on that question for now...

I am an existential puppy
a enigmatic guppy
an eagle searching for a nest

I am not yippie or yuppie
left behind the silver cuppie
for the heart is what I love best

and I have no expectations
of magic copulations
I don't pretend to know what will be

seems to many want great wealth
I am satisfied with health
and all I want is honesty

but honesty, as Billy said too well, is such a lonely word... and I believe I am still alone in this life because I've yet to meet a human who really wants it all the time in the real flesh and blood world and that is where the real sharing begins for me... I've learned to enjoy the play of life on more superficial and less real levels (a survival skill, I think), but even as I am usually the genuinely happiest person wherever I go, there's a deep longing for more truth, more depth, and more honesty...

insecurity seems to guide most people on to paths walled by fear that lead to isolation and pretense... I am not fearless and far from perfect, but I consciously strive to hide nothing from myself or from anyone who cares to know me... I think any other way is a waste of time...

honesty without harm is true innocence and that is the ideal and the quest I choose for myself in this life... yes, me and Don Quixote, perhaps, but I believe there is no greater power or gift than true love (yes, and large chocolate pills help along the way to finding out)...

my rambles are threaded with references to popular culture, music, films, stories, and anything that I find along the trail as the words coalesce (where's the spellchecker on this thing anyway?)... I think in rhymes and feel in melodies and seek to share a life of harmonies... and yet, I tend to keep both feet on the ground way more than my literary persona might suggest... mostly because I have never intended to fly solo and save my best flights of fancy and deepest realness for the one (all I've ever needed)... I do believe in soulmates and fairy tales and magic moments as two connect and feel as one...

I am not a half seeking another half to make me a whole... I am complete and comfortable within myself... I seek one who knows no need and is therefore free to experience complete desire, to live and die and be reborn again as a pair of complete beings, two dice ready to roll together through life...

of course, sometimes I think I might metaphor a point to death...

luckily I can always find humor (yes in everything too) and laughing at myself is one of my favorite pastimes... as far as I can tell, life is temporary and






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