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2006-12-04 - 3:57 a.m.

once upon a myspace (part 2)


yeah, I was feeling all brotherhoody and hopeful over there at myspace... I split this particular myspace blog entry here as I present if for you with some commentary as if I have something profound or important to say about the babbling and rhyming I do over there at myspace... upon reflection, I am sensing that I feel more public at myspace and that influences my writing cuz just as I channel my various emotional energies into different blog and writing spaces in my written gardens, I am finding that myspace is giving me it's own sort of channel...

it's instinctive, mostly,. this channeling or filtering of the stuff inside that comes out in words, but I can often see a distinct difference in writing spaces... here, behind the candoor, I ramble on most freely... I let the words flow without any conscious thought of filtering or content or format (except maybe to center the rhymes and blockquote the stuff copied from other spaces or identify others words somehow)... it's the freest associative babbling I put out on the web... I am less concerned with who reads or what anyone thinks here than anywhere else...

though I do love your feedback as you know, it's seldom if ever going to change the flow because this is the space I let go in and I'm more interested in freeing my mind than in pleasing anyone...

but over at myspace I sense I am, as I do in other spaces, giving something to the world... and as some of you already know, one of my self-appointed missions for this life (and longest living dreams) is that I want to teach the world to sing in perfect harmony... and over there, while I won't promise perfection or even a constant flow of positivity, I am finding a much more optimistic and wanting-to-believe-in-people me...

I think that comes from the huge numbers of people there and the idea that I am probably speaking to the largest and most diverse audience I have anywhere and also, I believe more people from my actual offline life 0 work and home might stop by there and read me... and while I definitely do not want to put on any sort of pretentious make-myself-look-good show over there or anywhere, I do want to be more serious and understood in my communication over there...

and then again, the usual randomness and sleepiness happens there as it does everywhere and sometimes I wonder if my sudden and somewhat rushed comments I sometimes leave on my way out the door to work are undermining any chance I might have of connecting with people online...

anyway, maybe it's a sign that I am ready to take a chance again, ready to put my heart on the line... and ready to forgive everyone who's ever hurt me and believe in the good intentions of the human heart again... that would be nice... so with this thought in mind, let's get back to a myspace blog, part two (I'll repeat the rhyme just to get you back in the mood, just consider it background music)...

I know they're only words
but what are we then
I think therefore I am
and I share myself in words because I can

they're only words
but they hold the master plan
and the hope for understanding we can all share
and isn't that the hope for man
as in mankind
it's humankind
may we understand

that though they're only words
the represent us
and can help us
share and do the best we can
to make this world a better place
and put a smile on every face

here are words
I love you.

I hold to the family plan
we are all part of the whole
the same energy runs through every soul
call it God or love or ka or anima
or whatever word you understand
just put yourself in words the best you can
and share yourself and even join the band
and harmonize with those who understand
this world is built on the family plan
life is made in the family plan


and if you have a question about anything and either don't have the time to read more of my web ramblings and rhymes or you simply don't have the patience to take the time to try to find your answers in words I've already written, then just ask... I keep my doors and windows open to let in fresh air and welcome you, caring person, potential friend... I embrace and welcome every one who intends no harm and wish you the comfort and security to accept my caring about you as the innocent and honest feeling it is...

it feels better, everything feels better this way... I've tried other ways... I've tried apathy and I've tried ambivalence... I've tried cynicism and I've tried depression... I've tried superficial laughter and I've tried casual smiles... I've tried following holy words and doing good deeds in someone else's name... I've tried lying and cheating and casting aside my heart... I've tried blind faith and hanging on a psychological cross... I've tried giving in to insecurity and I've tried giving someone else total control... I've tried shutting down and hiding from the world... I've tried laying in the gutter and giving up on life... I've tried need... I've tried greed... I've tried wasting my seed... I've tried to understand and rationalize and I've tried detaching and I've tried compromising... and I've tried to find other ways to try...

and here I am, back to the way I was born... the first steps... the eyes wide open... the extended hand... the daring to inquire... to be curious... to say hello... to want to know... and to care because after all is said and done, caring still feels better than any other way I've tried to live... in spite of the way some can take advantage of it... in spite of the way it can leave me vulnerable to hurt... I've learned that every other way can hurt even more... and I've learned that no other way can bring the rewards that caring can bring... so I feel foolish to have taken such a circular route to this point, but being back to caring I can enjoy the laugh that is on me...

I choose love over fear... sure, I am afraid you might laugh or scoff or take advantage of me... sure I am afraid I might trust you and believe in you and you might use that against me or betray my trust... sure I am afraid I might love you and come to depend on you and you might leave... but I choose love over fear... it's the better way for me because it is the only way to have any chance at sharing a true and honest caring... every other way defeats the purpose before it starts...

so hello myspace world... how are you today?... I hope you find a way to create smiles in you and to share those smiles with those around you... I hope you choose to be honest with yourself and to care... find a way to care... make a way to care... that is my wish for you today...

let the words matter more place value in the story we write
and the messages we can send
to each other
friend or lover
sister brother
father mother
to each other
communicate and love each other
simply because we can
and share the beautiful security
and love in the family plan


g'nite myspace and g'day world







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