it really was no miracle whip or secret code that brought us here to this bit of delicious quip or passion play beyond all fear if you could only see me now and I could only see you too then you might understand and how it is and why and wherefore too and then maybe the answer will come to embrace and comfort you and open up your heart and mind to all the wonder that is true in all the wonder you can do in all the wonder life allows you...

anyway, this (what follows, that is) was a comment inspired by the z0tl context and all ships at sea in his comment section, or at least maybe one or two... you may have come here inadvertently by clicking the link in the previous (or another) entry and if so, go back and finish reading whatever you were reading because nothing will ever be the same if you don't and you may need that knowledge to understand this or something truly meaningful sometime later in life...

and now, I miss Velveeta:

meanwhile, on the other side of town... I snuggled up in my big green chair staying stupid and alone, but it's just another phase in the continued saga of the making of the story of the life of the person that I might want to be someday...

I was told I was more ridiculous than mathematics the other day and I agreed, because there isn't any equation that can explain me other than the one too simple for anyone to understand (even me) so I just do it, no explanation necessary...

meanwhile, in the third segment of this comment specially interpreted for us ADD addled brains (and I don't mean addition), the roller coaster of emotions rolls limp of late as the lazy malaise rolls through the flat plains of complacence where everything is as it is and accepted, but do you understand that depressed is not always down?...

watching some medical channel about people over 700 pounds talk about the rush they get from food and then people under 3 feet tall and then people with swollen faces and then people in Haiti who live on $1 a day and I realized I am in dam great shape, amazingly healthy, and have good will power and a luxuriously extravagant life...

freak on that when I can't get the chat module to work on my ancient machine :)

I didn't get to the uploading today... I really should take a week off to gather my words and dump them out so I can clean out my head and gather my wits and ka/anima (or whatever) and clean out my ethereal planes and gather my rest and energies and clean out this body and gather my memories and emotions and clean out my heart and gather my life and start again (all that in one week?... yes, it would be great to take another year or few off again)...

anyway, I'm going for my usual before bedtime stroll over at myspace now... if you look past the grade school drama and pretentious posing and over-done graphics and the usual paranoia and negativity that grows wherever large groups of humans gather, it's a microcosm of our human culture and amusements can be found... and maybe, along the way, down the road, and the connect to a friend or lover, even, cuz there's always hope, ya know?...

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