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2005-12-20 - 6:35 p.m. or 10:35 p.m me and my comments, strolling down through cyberspace... yes, that title is the song you think it is... and if you don't know the song or the melody, go expand your musical knowledge back to the whole past century and mammy, start with Al Jolson...
still hoping I'm not the only dreamer, ya know?... ah, if you do not hear my laughter, you do not understand the words or me... and that, those few words tucked in amidst all the others, may be the most revealing sentence about my writings and personality that have ever been written... or one of them... almost as profound as... you will not understand my words" see what magical mysteries can come of what otherwise might seem like another cheating entry of words written elsewhere?... how better can this decision to share and make more of comments be justified and validated and embraced and rejoiced and yay for you and yay for me and we'll have fun fun fun even without a T-Bird... I forgot who wrote the the silence one, but the laughter line just popped out and makes as much sense, maybe more, than the silence... the silence quote has always been one of my favorites... and it makes so much sense to me, I wouldn't even try to explain it... anyway, I was getting to comments and my responses, which have turned into mini chap books at times... that, my volumous verbage, should be accepted as praise for it is your comment that inspires me to think and ramble on (not as the Allman Brothers meant it, mind you, or Clapton or Led Zep {who probably deserve top billing for that phrase anyway}, either)... I am a rambling man, but much moreso in a literary sense than a hit the road jack sense in recent years... heck, I'm almost stable... I think I'll share my responses to comments now... so smash and I have been discussing hair and you can find the discussion in comments for the last entry (I think it'll be the last entry)... this is what I said (and I decided to include my comments here not just cuz I spent the evening commenting in between life stuff offline, but cuz I think you'll {all of you, dear readers} might get more of a sense of who lives behind the candoor from my responses to comments... makes sense to me, feel free to comment about it)... so about hair... I think I'd like to throw some color changes on my head before I cut it (flaming red tips, perhaps?)... I want to play with it... I may be in the wrong town to find playmates for such games though... the hair thoughts are indicative of growing desires for a change in this life on most every level... from alone to not alone, from single to not single, from bloated, tired, and old to working out and fit and charged-up, from sleepwriting to aware-awake-active, from couch potato to party-animal, and more (though not necessarily as extreme as I once might do, for that would not be a change, if that makes sense)... ir would also be fun, I think, to let someone play with my hair (as in change it)... much like Tiggers I guess, candoors just wanna have fun... yeah, the Tigger thought came up in retrospect... and then dandy gave me food for thought about this whole communicative interactive writing that commenting and responding to comments can become and I said: yes, I've done that (responded to people in an entry) somewhere along the way in most of my online writing places... I've also considered creating a diary community (since none of the existing ones will have me, hearing a Groucho Marx quote in my head at the moment and laughing), but I don't think I'd have the time to commit to maintaining it, maybe... at first I felt the 're-work my own comments' idea was too egocentric, but then, I figured how could I get 'too' egocentric when this diary is about as egocentric as I get... all those second thoughts seem to lead to rules of some sort, so I decided to toss them out and write on instinct as I usually do... and I'm so happy that is appreciated cuz I'm tired of living in my own comfy vacuum)... come to think of it, a fair portion of my babbling is inspired by stuff I read elsewhere and I usually link the source... but that is not actually communication, I suppose, as often the person linked doesn't even know they were linked or the inspiration for a few words here or even for one of my long and winding missives... but it's still a great thought... I wonder how many ways it's been done before... and then pfirsich (Pf) did what few do as well as she can, peel away more layers and inspire me to probe deeper behind the candoor for more clarity (which reminds me, clarity is supposed to be leaving us (the online world) in a few weeks and I must {and you must} go check her out and wish her well before she goes offline because she's absolutely one of the best people I've ever read and shall be missed enourmously by me and many others) about who I am and what I want and good stuff like that (at least I hope it's good stuff... it's good for me)... Pf's questions are in italics... and I said: to your question: What is your special interest in general?... words, I love to write... music, I love to sing, listen, live, dance, run, move, share, love, laugh, cry, feel, write and be inspired by music... helping others, I love to see someone smile because they know I just cared about them... falling in love, I love to fall in love, to be in love, to share a partnered-life... chocolate, eating and foods, sensual experiences, learning, games, I've got an activity page somewhere... here and then there's a wants list... both are years old, both are still accurate, mostly)... Rasputin got home and started telling me about a work issue that followed him home and is going to keep him working via phone a while longer... one of his trucks (he's general manager for a seafood distributer) somehow forgot one thousand pounds of fish and boxes of fish are sitting on the loading dock... the shipping manager didn't want the driver to turn around because it would mean him staying late... but the fish needed to be picked up, so Raspy had to give the shipping mgr a choice, send the drive back or go pick it up himself... the driver was turned around (he was less than a half hour from the pick up location even after a fifteen minute discussion)... shipping manager grumbled but was told to talk to his drivers who should not be pulling away from a loading dock without checking the load and manifest, and dock while he's at it... and next time hopefully they can solve their little screw up on their own... anyway, Raspy came home somewhere between the first and second questions (above) around two hours ago... so this writing paused and spurted out intermittently for the past two hours... I fed my face with some of Precious's leftovers (since she is now up north until the 30th) and then the TV went on and stopped at City of Angels which is obviously demanding my attention because I love the concept and the dialogue and the girl, so I am inserting this interjection to explain why it took so long to upload this entry and why I might seem a bit distracted from now on... so anyway, now back to responding to comments, specifically, continuing my Pf inspired response about sharing more, I think, and I thought my thoughts about sharing more than words would be helpful to anyone who wants to begin understanding me (so thanks again, Pf)... I respond to your words 'forced to take you fully'... I am not into forcing anyone to do anything... take, as in sexually, or as in 'in every way including sexually' (which is fully to me), well, fully is offline, in the flesh, eye to eye, hand to hand, body to body... the mutual attraction must continue there, in the flesh... that is where the visceral real world begins... that is where I live... to get me truly, fully, that is where it starts... and then, itineration brought me back to thinking about hair again... hair, hair, long beautiful hair (ok, I won't sing the song this time)... so I wrote: yes, the physical change goes with the inner changes (for me the inner changes always preceeded the outer change in appearance, but I'm considering reversing the process... though I'm not considering it enough to do it, since I've been considering it for a few years... one thing I am waiting for is someone to come along and want to play with my hair with me... to play with it before it's cut... I've been trying to remember the last time my hair did not at least touch my shoulders... the seventies for a few years (the army kind of insisted on it)... I trimmed it a bit in the late eighties for corporate America, but it still hung past my shoulders, it was just shagged (eeek, I know) in the front... so it would be freaky to do something with the mop... I am pretty sure that I will play with it before taking a hacksaw to it... and then I pondered whether responses to comments make for a fair and decent entry and as you see, I decided to do it, but not before pondering in the comments themselves: note to self: again, I find myself spending my night responding to comments and have run out of time for an entry... so do I make an entry of this so others can read it too or do I keep these comment thoughts in the comments for those who have the time to care enough to actually come and read comments (or respond, even)?... I wonder what you think about that, dear commenters... and I wonder if I'll get an answer here or in an entry... and I wonder how much it matters... and I wonder where everybody else is right now... very likely, more will be added in the morning... I'm off to work now, hope you have a wonderful night, wherever you are J PS... more was added in the morning, love your day! J
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