just to demonstrate how easy i am to amuse, i will let you know that i just spent the better part of a half hour playing with mo... yeah, the belly full but me hungry... no angry mob here though, or mood, even, just a kid who wants to have fun and while i may not be throwing a party all the time, life is sure a whole lot of fun almost all the time... and the only way if has a chance of being better is if we share it, at least that's my opinion on the subject of living, loving, feeling alright...

meanwhile, i'm just sitting here getting fat while waiting for the one to come along... i'm just a lonely boy, lonely and blue... but the thing is, i love blue... adore azure... royal... sky... and when it comes to feeling, well, feeling is the best thing that can happen in this life, again, from my personal perspective... so even if the feeling isn't shared and even when the feeling isn't the bestest feeling, feeling is the best experience (short of sharing, but we've been there, haven't we)... ironically (or luckily), i am thrilled to be alive and enjoy being alone almost as much (shhhh, sometimes more, but that'll be our little secret, ok?) as i enjoy sharing (the actual update entry, i mean, if you really want to know {and thanks oodles if you do}, is back one, just for the fun of the time-line thing)... still, i long to, need to, live to be in love (and i mean with someone other than just me, ya know)...

listening to you, i hear the music... get it?... you really oughta by now, unless this is your first time with me here or you have a short memory cuz even though i've not been around for a long long time (cuz i think it's gonne take me, if you know what i mean), even after all these years of silence, i am still all about the music... in fact, there is an amazing irony to tonight's musical selections which culminate a whole week of trusting the muses to lead me to the cds that should be put on next (i'm just reaching into bags and pulling the next one out blind... go look, you've gotta laugh and i'm loving every nostalgic ecclectic looney tune moment of it) and it just keeps inspiring a bigger smile every time...

it tickles me so to find the words to flow to share what i feel and make it this real, at least for me, in words for me, i feel so lucky... so where is she already? (come share the laughter with me)... ah, yes, and then, the music calls me back out of my bubbles of dreams and giggles... imagine actually being able to sing judy garland songs a whole night at carnegie hall, i mean, i don't know about you, but i've done that at home pretending i was at carnegie hall, or at least singing for the one... yeah, i mean rufus wainwright, in case you were wondering... two shows, and then more in other big sold-out venues, now that is an amazingly fun kind of guy... or at least a helluva lucky guy... kind of like andy kaufman... well, andy was lucky while he was alive and who knows, he may even be more lucky now... anyway, if you ever performed whole shows and albums to the walls of your room as a kid, you may know what i mean...

and if you haven't, well... do it! :)

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