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2004-04-25 - 8:53 p.m. I love you guys even though nobody is here in the physical world sharing this life of hungers and dreams and desires and personal challenges I live in my world and write about here, you are right here in the cyber space reading and responding in your ways and I feel so warm and fuzzy when I come here... even if some of the love and warmth and affection and sharing I feel here is imaginary, or at least enhanced by my imagination, the roots are real, your words are real, your notes and emails (and everything you share anywhere) and you are real to me... yay... just yay... I've got to get a computer that can handle the messaging programs like ICQ so I can communicate more... I reconnected with four of my favorite people in the world when I installed ICQ on my desktop last month, but with Precious using that computer most evenings and the CPU and RAM not enough to do more than one thing at a time without either freezing or slowing to an ineffectual crawl (like yesterday the CD writer stopped working and it may be gone for good as I wasted ten CDs trying to get it to work again and it keeps freezing up in mid-recording), I do not have the means to call myself reconnected in the instant messaging sense... maybe I should play the lottery (I laugh, cuz I never do)... life is a balance for me and I like the balance I've got... more money and stuff would make life more fun in some ways (as it has in the past), but my happiness is found inside first and within intimate sharings second and then in the written communications we share... stuff comes last... your words are more precious treasures because I don't have to pay for them... what is given freely is the best gift of all... so one of these days I'll have the better computer and chat in real time more often, but then I'll be asking you to love me even more and chase me from the conversation so I can go out into the physical world and find my dreams (cuz that's where dreams are found, right?)... yes, I will come to you one day to bubble over with romantic adoration for someone who moved into my life and changed it forever... it has happened before... it will happen again... gotta believe... and until then I will be here moaning about loneliness and tricking myself out of depressive spirals by babbling on about whatever comes to mind until the words feel amusing to me and I forget all about how nobody is here in the physical space sharing the me you read... and I'll be dreaming, fantasizing and philosophizing elsewhere (you know where and knowing you are knowing is a wonderful feeling)... and so your notes and emails and gifts remind me that I am doing it, staying positive and optimistic and strong in my faith in my self and belief in my dream and in my love for you... yeah, that's the ticket... so I dragged this body to the gym and entered the data in the log and cooked up some dinner and ate and glanced up at the NYC championship (sidebar to the NBA Championship) that is on the TV and Precious sits at my desktop browsing the internet and I ramble on here after some browsing of my own through wonderful worlds of words and images and ramble on about the inspirations you provide... and now, it's shower time so I can get ready to spend the night at the hospital (where I work)... I even did two loads of laundry all the while loving you guys... giggling all the way...
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