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SITES I SEE A LOT
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Google Search
itools references
movie database

Giga-Quotes

Harry Chapin Lyrics
SSA




OLD AND NEW READS
(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

mother jones
utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
bugmenot
global news matrix
break for news
are you generic?
neil gaiman
h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
capitol hill blue
boing boing
nobody here




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SEEING MORE OFTEN

3Hive
metafilter
comics
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wikipedia
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Giga-Quotes
rare-lyrics
all musicals




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Diaryland Times
home star runner
hell
hell too
sinfest
ill will press
the guide
purple
despair
maximum awesome
86 the onions
straight dope
something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
cracked



CULTURE

the superficial
darwin awards
this is true
urban legends
news of the weird
church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
faqs
fark
iGod
post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


COMMERCIAL CRAP (AND PRON)

(Note: pron is porn worth a look for amusement much more than passion, so if you see a (p) next to a link, be aware naked people may appear if you click it, m'ok?)

beautiful agony (p)
(a turn on or a laugh?)
real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

(or it could just be a typo)




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Wednesday Whatevers
Sunday Brunch
Monday Madness
Thursday Threesom
Saturday Questions




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2003-10-26 - 8:01 p.m.

just in case


I knew this was coming... I seldom sleep during the day on Sunday and drag myself to work Sunday night and then somehow find my way home Monday morning to fall asleep sitting up... this week, however, I have hopes to stay awake tomorrow morning to drive north through Atlanta and on into Tennessee... I suppose I will be drinking a lot of Code Red tomorrow... I still need to pack whatever I will be taking along with me and shower and stop to check mail so any bills that might be in there can be paid on time as I might be gone a few days or longer (though I've got the feeling I'll be back before Halloween)... I never did buy a suit or jacket (I am going up there for a wedding) or any sort of warmer clothes... it's not just laziness and procrastination, it's also very much poverty... blah, blah, blah, it would all be so much more fun if somebody was sharing the love of it all... yeah, same old song...

I think I know how to get there...

if I was wise, I would not be coming back here every day (or twice a day) to update you on this life for it is rather pathetic to report the same lack of activities, sitting in the big green chair, watching sports on TV, adding up fantasy sports points, ordering delivered food and eating... wait, I left out the shower and bodily functions... and all this done with an extra hour due to the annual clock changing ritual we do in this time zone... can we be having more fun?...

ah, but really now (this is the real life diary, remember?... most of the people reading my other sites probably haven't wandered over here yet and if they did they found this sort of dribble and never returned, but I keep hoping there are some people in this world who really do want to know me in the real world, offline-like, and may even be a friend if we'd ever be in the same city or neighbors, even, so in spite of my bleary blues and dimwitted depressions and aimless apathy and almost complete ambivalence, I struggle to show the truth and share here cuz what's the use in trying to know someone if you don't get down to truth, right?), I am exceptionally bored and disillusioned and frustrated with this life and those I have met in the physical world and would very much welcome a major change for the positive toward higher levels of optimistic energy (I keep trying to tell you I am mostly dead, but maybe you don't believe me)... so just in case some happy enlightened eager-for-change person stops by to read this entry, please suggest your idea for a change...

more than anything I want (enough to need) a friend in the physical world who can figure out how to turn me on (and I don't mean sexually, though physical stimulation and love would definitely be a wonderful change too)... someone who understands how to and who will actualize unconditional love (how else to be a friend, really?)... someone who might want to share a song, a meal, a movie, a conversation, a game, a walk, a life...

and until someone comes along I'll just ramble on, hopefully more positively than I have been recently, hopefully with more energy and better health habits than I have had recently... hopefully taking care of and loving myself more... cuz the hope that someone may come along to see through the crap and shell and muck and mire and find the keys and things I really need and then want to actually connect and actualize them keeps me pouring myself out here in words, even when it is mostly pathos...






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