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2004-10-30 - 4:49 a.m.

just another night at home (part one)


somewhere around 6:15pm, Precious was knocking at my door... and knocking... and knocking... I don't know precisely how long she was knocking, because just like the phone the night before (or was that the night before that?), it did not wake me immediately and I recall hearing the noise somewhere in the distance as if it was a dream and then I heard it a little while longer before I actually realized it was not a dream and the real world was calling, or in this case, knocking... it was time for the second Fantasy Basketball draft... I'll post an entry with draft results from all three leagues next week as Sunday is the third draft... anyway, 6:30pm the draft started (with the usual Donato's pizza) and I groggily clicked and picked... I think I did ok for sleep-drafting...

immediately after the draft, the after-draft talk started... how'd we do... did you hear about this player... or that player... reading up... jabber jabber... and then I listened to Rasputin tell me about his job for a while... somewhere around 8pm, he went to bed and Precious started telling me about her day... they didn't seem to mind my zombie-like state, probably because I was able to keep my eyes open and occasionally grunt in some manner that was an acceptable response... timing is everything in grunt-speak...

suddenly I feel like a housewife again... I actually love the role and have played it in real life, but the part I loved most was the parenting part... I do not love cleaning... unfortunately, here in the current casa de candoor, the perks of sleep-comforts and pleasures and cuddles and affections and intimacies and shared moments are missing, but hey, you can't have everything (even if you think you can and appear to), at least not too often...

Precious is reading from Fools by Neil Simon at the moment... favorite lines pop up at random from her smiling face... she's never heard of Felix and Oscar... you know, The Odd Couple... I am suddenly feeling much older than I was a minute ago... oh no, an old sexless housewife, I'm an old maid (Precious thinks that's a card game)... stop laughing...

ok, don't stop...

be amused, be very amused...

anyway, I gave in and stopped writing to give her some feedback... so now it's 10pm and I'll catch up on the evening... as she was reading from Fools and it related to Kahlil Gibran's Madhouse so I did a search for it (and was surprised and disappointed that my site was listed second (this page) cuz I'd have hoped that Gibran had more exposure online)... and then we discussed some of the lines she was reading and what else Neil Simon has written and that lead to talking about theatre (since the book was assigned reading for her drama class) and that lead to her wish to see a Broadway show which lead to what's playing on Broadway right now and what the longest running shows have been over the years... you wanna know?... ok

1Cats [Original, Musical] Perf. Count: 7485
2The Phantom of the Opera [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 6981
3Les Misrables [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 6680
4A Chorus Line [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 6137
5Oh! Calcutta! [Revival, Musical, Revue] Perf. Count: 5959
6Beauty and the Beast [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 4308
7Miss Saigon [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 4092
8Rent [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 3536
942nd Street [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 3486
10Grease [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 3388
11Chicago [Revival, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 3307
12Fiddler on the Roof [Original, Musical, Comedy, Drama] Perf. Count: 3242
13Life With Father [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 3224
14Tobacco Road [Original, Play, Drama] Perf. Count: 3182
15Hello, Dolly! [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 2844
16My Fair Lady [Original, Musical, Comedy, Romantic Comedy] Perf. Count: 2717
17The Lion King [Original, Musical, Comedy, Drama, Puppets] Perf. Count: 2443
18Annie [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 2377
19Cabaret [Revival, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 2377
20Man of La Mancha [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 2328
21Abie's Irish Rose [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 2327
22Oklahoma! [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 2212
23Smokey Joe's Cafe [Original, Musical, Revue] Perf. Count: 2036
24Pippin [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1944
25South Pacific [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 1925
26The Magic Show [Original, Musical] Perf. Count: 1920
27Aida [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 1852
28Gemini [Original, Play] Perf. Count: 1819
29Deathtrap [Original, Play, Mystery, Thriller, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1793
30Harvey [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1775
31Dancin' [Original, Musical, Revue] Perf. Count: 1774
32La Cage aux Folles [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1761
33Hair [Original, Musical] Perf. Count: 1750
34The Wiz [Original, Musical, All Black Cast, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1672
35Born Yesterday [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1642
36Crazy For You [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1622
37Ain't Misbehavin' [Original, Musical, Revue] Perf. Count: 1604
38The Best Little Whorehouse in Texas [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1584
39Mary, Mary [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1572
40Evita [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 1567
41The Voice of the Turtle [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1557
42Jekyll & Hyde [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 1543
43Barefoot in the Park [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1530
44Dreamgirls [Original, Musical] Perf. Count: 1521
45Mame [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1508
46Grease [Revival, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1505
47The Producers [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1462
48Same Time, Next Year [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1453
49Arsenic and Old Lace [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1444
5042nd Street [Revival, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1444
51The Sound of Music [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 1443
52Me and My Girl [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1420
53How to Succeed in Business Without Really Trying [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1417
54Hellzapoppin [Original, Musical, Revue] Perf. Count: 1404
55The Music Man [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1375
56Funny Girl [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1348
57Mummenschanz [Original, Special, Mime, Masks] Perf. Count: 1326
58Oh! Calcutta! [Original, Musical, Revue] Perf. Count: 1314
59Brighton Beach Memoirs [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1299
60Angel Street [Original, Play, Thriller] Perf. Count: 1295
61Lightnin' [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1291
62Promises, Promises [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1281
63Mamma Mia! [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1254
64The King and I [Original, Musical, Comedy, Drama] Perf. Count: 1246
65Cactus Flower [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1234
66Sleuth [Original, Play, Mystery, Thriller] Perf. Count: 1222
67Torch Song Trilogy [Original, Play] Perf. Count: 1222
681776 [Original, Musical, Comedy, History] Perf. Count: 1217
69Equus [Original, Play, Drama] Perf. Count: 1209
70Sugar Babies [Original, Musical, Revue, Comedy, Burlesque] Perf. Count: 1208
71Guys and Dolls [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1200
72Amadeus [Original, Play, Drama] Perf. Count: 1181
73Cabaret [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 1165
74Mister Roberts [Original, Play] Perf. Count: 1157
75Annie Get Your Gun [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1147
76Guys and Dolls [Revival, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1143
77The Seven Year Itch [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1141
78Bring in 'Da Noise, Bring in 'Da Funk [Original, Musical, Dance] Perf. Count: 1135
79Butterflies Are Free [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1128
80Pins and Needles [Original, Musical, Revue] Perf. Count: 1108
81Plaza Suite Perf. Count: 1097
- Visitor From Forest Hills [Original, Play, One Act, Comedy]
- Visitor From Hollywood [Original, Play, One Act, Comedy]
- Visitor From Mamaroneck [Original, Play, One Act, Comedy]
82Fosse [Original, Musical, Revue, Dance] Perf. Count: 1093
83They're Playing Our Song [Original, Musical, Romantic Comedy] Perf. Count: 1082
84Kiss Me, Kate [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1077
85Don't Bother Me, I Can't Cope [Original, Musical, Revue, All Black Cast] Perf. Count: 1065
86The Pajama Game [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1063
87Shenandoah [Original, Musical] Perf. Count: 1050
88Annie Get Your Gun [Revival, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1045
89The Teahouse of the August Moon [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1027
90Damn Yankees [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1019
91Grand Hotel [Original, Musical, Drama] Perf. Count: 1017
92Contact [Original, Musical, Dance] Perf. Count: 1010
93Never Too Late [Original, Play, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1007
94Beatlemania [Original, Musical, Revue] Perf. Count: 1006
95Big River [Original, Musical, Comedy] Perf. Count: 1005
and then she turned on the TV and found Bravo showing The 100 Scariest Movie Moments and then switched to watch her usual Friday night show, Medical Investigation (she is interested in studying forensic science), so naturally my browsings lead there... and as I write this, she puts on Mulan (again... it's the DVD of the week) and of course is watching me as much as the DVD to see my reaction... cute...

I suppose she is helping me by forgetting that I started watching Stargate SG-1 and Stargate Atlantis (yes, my beloved Sci-Fi channel) on Friday nights when this TV season started... if she didn't boggart the living room TV, I'd probably be watching more TV and feeling even more like a vegetable and writing less and exercising less and doing everything else in life less...

so life around here is doesn't have much actual active life in it, just mostly spectating and the usual... a visual gander at the space lets me notice that the kitchen is a pig sty again, dried drips of tomato sauce and meat grease and crumbs everywhere... I really don't understand how people do this to themselves... I explained to Precious, again, the dangers of bacteria growth and so on... now she's got a cold (not the first one since moving down here six months ago), but she doesn't seem to make the connection to her living habits... I love her, but some moments (like this one) I find little sympathy for anyone who brings on their own misfortune... so she doesn't exercise, soils her own living space, neglects her body, eats more pizza, drinks more Pepsi, and then takes pills like her dad instead of changing her habits... the American way... not much more I can do right now so it's time to step back again for tonight and let nature take it's course...

the good news is I don't like it and am finding more motivation growing in myself again to reduce my own clutter (internally, physically, and externally)... being a pack-rat is not as much fun as it used to be... especially not in this space... and without someone to share the stuff... I am remembering that material things, for me, gain almost all of their meaning through sharing... even alone, a thing is only of value to me if it reminds me of someone, an experience of sharing... like before the TV went on tonight... it may have been just sharing work and school information and it was all one way cuz I didn't have much to say, but it was better than nothing... I think...

ah, there's the giggle sneaking back...

so on this note I'll bounce on out of here... I remind you to take a step back and enjoy your life, whatever is happening (it is your choice)...






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