LIFE

IN
BLACK
AND
WHITE



last---past---next---now
( FEATURED OTHERS 'n STUFF )

MEG AND DIA!

ORLANDO?

WHERE IT BEGAN


ARE THEY SERIOUS?
(how far are we from censorship?)

ONE. . . WHY
(find your social conscience)

Barbara Waters: so candoor, what all this fuss about blogmad?

Candoor: Blogmad? It's better than ever! Get more visitors (or find me in chat there). Register now and tell me for extra credits. VARB?


JOIN OR RE-REGISTER NOW

welcome blogmadians... and the rest of you, while still in beta, you can still join the latest greatest party on the web, blogmad!

SUPPORT BLOGMAD! BUY STUFF



o O ( ALTERNATIVE MEDICINE ) O o

CONVERSATION WITH GOD

MEANING OF LIFE
FORWARD THIS ENTRY
INTELLIGENT DESIGN

(SEE WHAT THE POPE SAYS)

o O ( AND COMING SOON! ) O o

ABOUT ZOOPLA

o O ( AND CURRENT EVENTS ) O o


blogadvance blogazoo
blogexplosion blogmad?
bloglines


o O ( SOCIAL CONCERNS ) O o

HELP THE RED CROSS
MESSAGES FROM MISSISSIPPI
BLOG FOR RELIEF
NEW ORLEANS JOURNAL

(MIRROR OF N.O. JOURNAL)
(INCLUDING LIVE CAM AND PHOTOS)

HELP AND BE HELPED
HURRICANE HOUSING
LINKS TO HELP
IMAGES FOR HISTORY
New Orleans News
Buloxi News
THE FAILURE


FREE SPEECH
(tell them what you think)

The White House
(202) 456-1111

Senate and Congress
(202) 224-3121

YOU'VE GOT THE RIGHTS
USE THEM





FAT MAN WALKING
BLOGATHON!
INDEX BEGIN
FACE FUN!



last---past---next---now



SITES I SEE A LOT
IxQuick Search
Google Search
itools references
movie database

Giga-Quotes

Harry Chapin Lyrics
SSA




OLD AND NEW READS
(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

mother jones
utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
bugmenot
global news matrix
break for news
are you generic?
neil gaiman
h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
capitol hill blue
boing boing
nobody here




SITES I AM CONSIDERING
SEEING MORE OFTEN

3Hive
metafilter
comics
digg





REFERENCE LIBRARIES

questia
wikipedia
gutenberg
internet public library
deep web search engines
itools references
movie database
Giga-Quotes
rare-lyrics
all musicals




AMUSEMENTS

Diaryland Times
home star runner
hell
hell too
sinfest
ill will press
the guide
purple
despair
maximum awesome
86 the onions
straight dope
something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
cracked



CULTURE

the superficial
darwin awards
this is true
urban legends
news of the weird
church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
faqs
fark
iGod
post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


COMMERCIAL CRAP (AND PRON)

(Note: pron is porn worth a look for amusement much more than passion, so if you see a (p) next to a link, be aware naked people may appear if you click it, m'ok?)

beautiful agony (p)
(a turn on or a laugh?)
real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

(or it could just be a typo)




PROMPTS
(IF YOU KNOW ONE LET ME KNOW)


Unconscious Mutterings
Friday Feast
Wednesday Whatevers
Sunday Brunch
Monday Madness
Thursday Threesom
Saturday Questions




(make it real)

PO BOX 780398
Orlando, FL 32878

send me some music
your favorite music
old or new
blissful or blue
let your message come through
and I will love you forever



last---past---next---now
�2006 Candor Communications


2006-09-30 - 3:45 a.m.

I didn�t mention I chewed gum for seven hours straight, did I?


yes, just when you thought it was over, there are many bits of information caught between the synapses of my mind much like slivers of cheap ribs from Pizza Hut might get caught between even the tightest teeth (hey, I got that from metaphors R us, just go with it and let it go)... the baseball playoffs are on one channel and the football plays on the other channel and this series of babbling entries fill up the dates of a work week that was devoid of anything written specifically for behind the candoor...

feeling neglected, I know...

but you see (if you've been reading all along), much was left out of the madness and frolicking of the night I did not sleep this week, so your visit here is not a rerun and well worth your time if you have nothing better to do and enjoy ridiculous babbling with some meaningful life-bits tossed in here and there... so anyway, more than seven hours nonstop even while bouncing and swinging my head around (and I only bit my gums a few times)... now I can�t quite get my upper teeth to sit nicely on my lower teeth the way they usually do, but that�ll go away and just think of the muscles I�ll have in my head, or already do...

imagine, more than seven consecutive hours...

and I'm not talking about minor league ventriloquist chewing (where your lips hardly move) or even tough guy Clint Eastwood chewing (where practically nothing moves)... nope, I'm talking about full all out gum chewing using all the jaw and head muscles for more than seven straight hours while bouncing and head banging to the music... what can I say, my mouth is waking up and wanted something to do and there was nobody around to kiss (and I don't mean peck-kiss... and call me a kissing snob if you must, but I am very picky about who gets inside my mouth), so gum chewing was the only option available... seven consecutive hours of hard core gum chewing...

remember, I�m a professional, don�t try this at home...

ok, so I milked the gum chewing episode long enough... and slipped in my hunger for kissing, so subtly that you may not have even noticed... until now... and I continue rambling in my way of leading with understated sarcasm sprinkled with random irreverence while leaving the trap doors to the bottomless depths of seriousness wide open for any unsuspecting pixie to fall in and either stay or fly out and away... and I do it all in my seriously irreverent way...

and now that I've confessed, I shall continue and you shall forget I ever told you because the babbling asides will keep you off balance and distract you from the true purpose of this rambling which is to save your soul and take over the world in that order... providing you have a soul and the world can be saved, that is... and then, in coming to the fork between revelation and epiphany, I spoon the tune you've all been waiting for (and let ego fall flat on it's face, but to Pf's chagrin as Pf does not want me to pull back the curtain and expose the naked man flicking the switches and maybe Pf is right, but still I do it because I have more fun poking fun at myself than I do in fooling any of you) and suddenly discovered what I always knew about z0tl @ blogspot and I summed it up neatly in this comment which is saved here for posterity because it�ll be gone there shortly...

it's a memory game, that's it... read the post and leave comments and try to remember what was written in some future context so therein to promote better understanding and the fine are of communication extended over time forming the illusion of bonds of friendship and matrimony...

now I get it :)

and I didn't even have to clone any sheep, either...



you don't have to understand or get it if you don't want to, it's my mind after all... and I haven't even begun to babble today yet, but many hours have passed mostly distracted by football and baseball on TV and food arriving and browsing, yes, I made time for some browsing for the first time in weeks... yes weeks...

how long?...

weeks!



no wonder I've been feeling bogged up... no exercise and no browsing, the mind and the body have been cubified and stagnated... I definitely have been alone way longer than is healthy for a romantically social creature like me... but for better or worse it's gotten to the point where I just float effortlessly with practically no will to steer any course... if I didn't enjoy the ride so much, I'd be concerned about myself, but the thing is - I do enjoy the moments and feel no need to steer or decide or reach out for anything...

but all this waiting for romance without initiating new interaction or actively looking, as if the right one is simply going to appear and sweep me off my feet... I'm not so sure it's working... which is an amusement much more than it is a worry for me... but I imagine I should be a bit more concerned because look what happened to Don Quixote, after all...

and there aren't many windmills in Florida, are there?...

and then, just when you were certain that I was perfect and sure that I knew everything, I discovered tonight that z0tl (also known as z0tl) and quasar9 are not, in fact, the same person... I must have created that illusion all by myself in my head... and I felt so sure (such a fun thing, this sort of doh! moment... like so helpless, so wrong... it is not a frequent occurrence and I enjoy the uniqueness of trusting someone else's senses over my own every now and then)... I suppose I should have asked Morris... oh Sippy, how I miss you... where are you when I need you most?...

as I said in other words (at least I think they were other words), the whole doesn't really have to make sense outside of my own head, but yes, it would satisfy one of my fondest dreams if she read and understood and responded to every word... because that is the ultimate start to the ultimate caring in the ultimate dream of romance... and why dream at all if not to dream the ultimate dreams now and then...

so be it, I am I, Don Candori...

and yes, Z, I do have the name candori reserved at diaryland... something inspired (or compelled) me to register all the candor(x) names from candora through candori one sleepless night some years back... I would have continued all the way to z, but I thought that might be going a bit too far... although now that I know what it might be for, who knows, they all might actually open up for posts one of these days...

so anyway, what kept me awake (still on that ever expanding entry, are we?) was the excitement of music, the dream of romance, the reminder of sensuality, the frustration of loneliness, the foolishness of expectations, the disappointment of being used, the ire with technology, and the love of babble (at least I'd say)...

it was a wonderful night, indeed...






. o O ( NOTES ARE THE NEW HAPPY PILL ) O o .
(just let me know you were here)




see me - - - feel me - - - touch me - - - heal me


< last one < < < < BURP! > > > >next one >




.

.

.

.

.

the moment

we interrupt these seemingly mindless dots for a word from (or at least about our sponsor (hmmm, sponsor?... what's the opposite of sponsor?)... anyway, now, as ado-less as possible, the word for you or andrew)...

you know that box to the right on the dland entry page called recent public entries?... what do the asterisks mean?... and the bold?...

. . .

connections

.

.

.

.

AND WHATDYA MISS?
Can You Laugh At The Sky?
DSandDrew
It's Been A While
Just a Moment (Proof of Mice)
A Moment of Forever
older still


random chance

who me?

leave a note?
(read archived notes)

send me mail?

you want to know me?
soundtrack
101 Things
The Sequel
The Trilogy
202 Things
200 Things
202 More Things
202 Things Again
testing123
have time, love words?
sleepwriting
(where the heart dreams)

and now, in RealTime�
and then, (e)thereal
and now, briefly, in case it matters
and now, the dirt, drama, and details (babbling)

DO ME!
(Johari Style)


DO ME WRONG!
(but do me right)


SOAP!

(EPISODE ONE)
(the dark side of candoor)


loving linkers
other loves

A Diaryland Survey
other surveys
small world
your profile matters
(search for you & find me)


tell others
read others
applause?
favor?
gift?

get your own!

saturn rings and other places
googlisms
browsing
where've ya been?
the searchers

favorites

911
HEY AMERICA!
LOOK AT YOUR CHILD
STOP THE ABUSE

(GET THE CODE)

THOUGHTS ON GOD

( temporary attractions )


BACK TO #1 @ GOOGLE!

WAS #1 @ MSN!
(for a while, now on page 3 5)




(EXPERIMENTAL PLAYTHINGS)
RSS?



who links here
blogwise
Blogarama
Globe of Blogs
blogthings

~ BLOGLINKERS ~




~ BLOGROLLING ~
(Blogroll RSS)


Blogroll Me!

published
blogadvance
blogazoo
blogexplosion
blogmad?
bloglines



(PREVIOUS TEMPORARY ATTRACTIONS)
TSUNAMI INFO
fantasy sports?
BLOGGIES?
sorry everybody
Orange Blossom Music Festival

Deland Music Festival
MIT Survey

brilliant idea
Celebrate Birthdays
FOR FREEDOM



CONTINUE...
talking dog






SAY HELLO
407-325-1482





and if you want to leave
take good care
hope you make a lot
of true friends out there