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Google Search
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Harry Chapin Lyrics
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OLD AND NEW READS
(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

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utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
bugmenot
global news matrix
break for news
are you generic?
neil gaiman
h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
capitol hill blue
boing boing
nobody here




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all musicals




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the guide
purple
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maximum awesome
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something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
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urban legends
news of the weird
church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
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fark
iGod
post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


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real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

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�2006 Candor Communications


2005-08-06 - 10:00 p.m.

my fondest dream


so I'm just sitting here munching on pizza and watching the end of Spiderman 2, a film that does little or nothing for my libido, in case you were curious, which means you lucky people do not get layers of innuendos amidst the babble for the moment...

the line "I can't survive without you" does have me pondering the deepest roots of my character and belief system... for I do not believe in can't... yet I want to believe in the love that compels two to want to spent eternity together, preferably in each others arms most of the time, but at least connected in some profoundly meaning way at the center of their cores where it matters most...

to want to can't live without someone...

what an alluring concept...

kind of like the love I read about on the web from time to time... clarity25 and her hubby, for instance who wrote one of my favorite entries just recently, favorite first because of the diversity in it and always because of the honesty in it... as strange as it seems, even when all we have is blind faith (like religious folk, I imagine), I choose to believe in the truth of some people's words after reading them for a while... and after reading the entirety of a diary or a journal (it doesn't happen too often due to lack of time and the length of some diaries and such), I believe in the person writing as a real person... especially after some phone calls, hearing the vulnerability in a voice...

ultimately I prefer eye contact and sharing words coming out of lips that I can see moving... and for most people, body language says much more than words ever can... but still, either on blind faith or literary instinct (which has been quite wrong a time or two, so I sure don't believe I am always right), I trust clarity25 and believe in the love they share... it's one of the relationships I read about that keep my hope for my own chances of finding such a common bond, a mutual devotion, and a true sharing, vulnerable with doubts exposed yet with arms and heart and mind wide open...

free falling and trusting each other to ease the landing if the landing must come, but wanting to believe we'll fly forever together so much that we dare believe that our believing can make it come true...

I believe in Alex just as much... in her realness and passion to know herself and the truth in others and in this life... she inspires me to continue believing that is possible to share the quest for truth and believe in someone else who does as well... to trust, there is the key to shared happiness (and leave the doubts brought on by my personal traumas behind)... I love her mind...

then there are the babblers... I have a natural affinity for babble and yet if I tried to explain precisely what it is in the words that appeals to me I would fail... hissandtell comes to mind as a favorite in this genre and there are so many others I'd have to browse around for hours to give myself (and you) a fairly representative list...

memory is like swiss cheese after this much time babbling on...

as for story tellers nicim is renewing my faith that fiction and non-fiction are what we make of it... that words can store our memories and truest feelings even when our daily lives are devoid of the sharing of such depths... here I find renewal of my passion to believe in love beyond age limits or socio-exconomic barriers or any normalcies our culture may live by... she reminds me of Harry Chapin, who reaches my core as well as anyone, especially the long term love from a distance of Harry and Sue in his songs, written ten years apart, Taxi and Sequel and my own, extension...

my fondest dream is that love is real, can be shared in tangible form (well beyond the sexual, which is just one way to share it)... that love is eternal... and that love is the ultimate truth, the ultimate knowing, blind faith unconditional trust that requires no reason, however is all the reason two need unto itself... two who can believe in such permanence, even if daily lives grow apart, this is the dream I find at my deepest core and what many of you out there remind me of and inspire me to believe in again...

yeah, so what's up with you?






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