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�2006 Candor Communications


2006-08-19 - 10:53 a.m.

diastraction


in an environment devoid of individual creativity where insecure minds reach desperately for reassurance and purpose in superficial social interactions endlessly repeating the same fatal flaw, the lack of individual creativity, the energy flows only one way... it is as if energy becomes air and people become vacuum cleaners sucking up as much as they can, except that there is no exhaust on these vacuums and little or nothing is returned to the source of the energy...

from the depletion of physical resources on a planetary scale to the drain of individual energy, the vast majority of human beings are energy vacuums, spiritual vortexes from negative energy fields to black holes... as a species we infest this planet and suck her dry... as individuals we feed off each other... rare is the person who generates their own energy and creative spirit...

so many sheep waiting for the shears... or perhaps a shepherd in the sky... or wolves, as many run in packs even more hungry than the sheep... so many ready to submit with so little of their own to give... so many desperate energy starved people grabbing at anything that within reach, consuming everything in their path and hoarding anything they can stash or carry...

if you do not see humanity in these terms, perhaps you have rose colored glasses on... or your eyes are closed... or perhaps the perspective is inaccurate... whatever is true, I know that I know of no one in my physical spaces today who self-satisfies and generates energy as I do... perhaps that is simply because I am not intimate with anyone at the moment (yes, yet one more of those moments of awareness and longing and romantic dreaming that breaks into song la la la)...

some of you might think that I create this image of myself as if my life was a non-stop Hollywood musical show... well, in the sense that I must express it in words and the words represent the physical life I live and that anything that represents anything else is an image of that which it represents, I do... but beyond the image is a reflection of the actual being living the actual life and the actual physical reality (as perceived in my brain) is quite like a cartoon... cuz everything is show biz... and anything is possible... and pickles don't grow on trees...

some nights I can pour forty or fifty ounces of coffee into this body and sleep like the dead when I finally fall over and sleep... the struggle, on those nights, is between writer and the elements... the elements demand I cave in, let the eyelids close, and slide off into the la la land of sweet slumbers... the writer demands use of the time for literary exploration and expression... it is perhaps this fatigue pause that brings most people to their knees physically and ethereally as a body without any rest at all will likely fall over and die eventually and that scares most people... so scared, in fact, that anything can happen and often does...

which just scares the scared even more making them even more scared...

and the even more scared reach out desperately sucking energy and attention and anything they can get, but the saddest cut of all is they do not actually get anything at all because they are too needy to appreciate having anything even for the moment they suck in the energy, they barely feel it passing through... and are we all wondering who they are now?... and are we all wondering if you are one of they?... and are we all wondering just how unaware of their surroundings they can get before they are meaningless decay on the background of a life they never even started living?...

distraction...

some of you may already know, especially if you noticed the link on the left, that this diary ranks very high in some strange and provocative searches on the web... well, I found another and this is the official announcement (drum roll optional):

this diary, entitled life in black and white behind the candoor (or is some part of that a subtitle?... whatever), ranks #2 at Yahoo for comparative pictures of vaginas...



I tell you, I'm one sick pervolicious pervomaniac (but Im getting better, really, Im not dead yet... and can you just imagine what your boss or family might say about you when you forget to delete your history after you satisfy your curiosity by searching Yahoo for the entry that comes up #2?... just trying to expand your education, are you?... yeah, well, anyway... not everyone can be a thief of hearts... and some might say that what is a crime against humanity for one persona may be a crime against poverty and starvation for another person...

think about it...

stay awake stay awake tonight


some nights even a gallon of coffee (did I drink a gallon?... no, but I drank enough to feel quick sloshy inside and can imagine it) does not keep me from doing a masterful imitation of a bobble head... yes, candoor the bobble head, ready to buy one?... tell you what, you enterprising your entrepreneurs and creative geniuses... creative geniuses first... design the image best suited to represent me and I'll select the image that most suits this project and then... entrepreneurs, you contact some bobble head company and we'll see about investing in candoor bobble heads... then we'll see if they sell...

or not...

but surely goodness and madness will ensue for the rest of our days...











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