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utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
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odd todd
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the onion
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webby awards
meetup
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ragged trousered philosopher
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landover baptist
evil bible


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2005-04-08 - 9:30 p.m.

from the wanderings of a diary addict


there's always been something very amazing and familiar about jonathan... maybe it's that he's been obsessed with writing whatever comes to his mind every day almost as long as I have... maybe it's the way he just pours himself out in what appears to be free associative babbling that at once exciting and intriguing, that appears (despite the impossibility of the dichotomy) to be a complete exposure of everything that could possibly be known about him while at the same time omitting key elements of the man... at times it all seems intentional, more times it appears intentional but seems an unintentional mind dump that entices a reader (well, at least this reader) to want to know more (in spite of how much is already there to absorb)...

and have I told you lately how much I love this man?... I feel the emotions in his words, the highs that I wish were more frequent for they are pure celebration of all that matters most in life, the endearing love he feels for his family and some of us lucky people in this world for they warm my heart like only a trusted friend can, and the doubts and insecurities and calamities of life for his descriptions are so vulnerable they chill me to the bone and remind me of how lucky we all are to survive and have each other... a beautiful man, that tim dangerous...

sometimes I get pleasantly surprised to find out there are real people out there reading this (just look for yourself)...

he rambles almost as much as I do (and regularly gives the gift of his time to music lovers in Orlando... go read for yourself and see what I mean)... sometimes, when reading him, I think I'd reading me... his life is epic, a comedy, a tragedy, a modern classic that will inspire, break hearts, and entertain (when he finally gets around to an autobiography)... his personal site challenges my memory-challenged laptop, but is well worth it for you can feel the love... there are people in this world who I want to meet, he's one... ironically, we've been in the same room in physical spaces (club, bar, park) more than a few times and, well, besides being one of my favorite local musicians, he's one of my favorite friends I've never actually met...

so if you love music and deeply generous souls, go check out cazzy, that strange alien dude... and tell him you love him, so he won't feel alone...

and then explore this rather ecclectic list of local and far off musicians, hippies, and people worth hearing...

closer to home, some of the artists above will be playing at the Orange Blossom Music Festival, an annual festival held on a 60 acre farm/ranch 7 miles north of Deland, FL on SR11 (3 miles south of SR40)... About 120 sets will be scheduled during the 3 day event which will be held on Friday, May 20th Saturday, May 21st and Sunday, May 22nd... the organizers (Phil started this musical support organization back in the late nineties and his dedication to supporting local music is amazing) are are now accepting submissions for acts who desire to perform, so if you know anyone interested, pass along the info to Phil (he'll send you submission procedures and more details)...

perhaps I know you, in this life or another, in this world or beyond the known universe, perhaps I knoe you, or will, whatever that typo might mean (sometimes a typo is just a typo, but not Freud's Bananas For Anna, which has nothing to do with anything except that it's a maniacle comedy idea as yet unwritten (and mostly unthought) in the vein of Monty Python meets Woody Allen at the height of their respective irreverences... someday, somehow, somewhere)... sometimes the words suck me into the past as if that part of mind that will never leave a certain point in time will wait forever for just the right inspiration to come back to life as if it's never been away or sleepwriting for a million years...

and I was drawn, just as suddenly and instinctively and without need for reason, to feoh... maybe it's the fact that I felt music in the first entry, that is, the way music connecting with memories and places and feelings and the candor I felt in the words... one more person I would like to get to know intimately without knowing precisely how or why... maybe I am just reading into words that which i want to find these days (but this entry feels like glowing, so I'll let it glow)...

the bittersweet pill and the saving grace (is that selfish of me?) is knowing and cheering on some people who know (understand) too much and those who want to (or maybe those who thought they did) and believing they deserve all the love in the universe for remaining open to the potentials and the powers that be even when the risks have tried to bring them down, even when the madness that corrupts hearts and minds has attempted to manipulate their vulnerabilities and abused their souls...

the wild eyed child, the Halloweenish (Zappa Cooper?) toxic-shock, the desperate hope, the secure reaching out, the lecherous greed, the altruistic compassion, the independent freedom, the innocent hug and... all this is me and then, there is so much more beneath the surface... how much more than surface can I share with you in words online?... remembering how blessed am I to believe in those who can find, beneath the surface of words, the purity within...

and the unconditional love is most revered in my world, in me... Happy Birthday Lanny J...

sometimes I sense a deep seriousness and reverence in the words I read and sometimes I sense a tongue-in-cheek silliness or clever serious irreverence in what I read... and sometimes, I just wonder...

and I love this...

obviously there is something to be learned from everything and from this entry there is much to be learned about me, first and foremost that I have a rather bouncy bouncy mind that can enjoy all sorts of different perspectives and literary and visual stimuli and stuff (apparently some parts of my brain have not developed out of the insatiable curiosity stage... and that's just fine by me)... so if I fall in love with you and my momentary obsession seems odd or even scary at the time, please let me know and I'll go bounce into someone else's world and write passionate love songs dedicated to them instead of you, ok?... after all... it's only words, and words are all I have, to take your heart away (and thank you BeeGees)...

speaking of falling in love (and beauty)...

for an ecclectic and often fascinating mix of words and pictures I can always count on galaxy to stimulate my eyes and mind anytime (and often does)... I want to live in her world... and speaking of worlds I want to live in, visit clarity to see another... and just today I found another world that feels like home... so many movies and song lyrics, it reminds me of my first online journal that used to start each entry with a quote or song lyric (here's the index... and here's the index for laptops... wasn't I organized once?)...

I visited the girl with two first names the other day and once again got happily lost in her ramblings and links and pictures (but just what is a Ruben casserole?)... I've been to this place many times and every time I laugh a little more (Ok, sometimes a lot more, hopefully in the right places) and feel really good because there's one more person out there who rambles on (so tell us you love us, so we don't feel alone... and thank you Melanie)...

don't look now, but Diaryland has Mr. T (and he's strange as ever)...

and if I only had patience and more time and a decent computer with software and such, I'd endeavor to motivate myself to engage in this... it's a great idea that several people out there have done before (and wouldn't you know I don't remember the diaries that used to do them... so organized I am not)...

did you know that if you enter a telephone number in Google, it'll reverse look up the number and give you a name and address?...






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