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2005-12-23 - 11:30 a.m.

construction, reconstruction, language, and me


did I tell you this already?... I just built a house on Carpe-Diem Way (an fun little drawing and quiz site)... I'm #39... obviously I am not a drawing-type of artist, if anything I do might be called art at all, especially not with a ball mouse... the best part is being neighbors with the creative and beautiful Clarity (who built house #1 and started the street) and her wise and wonderful husband... if I could choose my neighbors, they would definitely be one...

well, if I told you that, then I probably told you this too, but in case I didn't here it is again, or for the first time, as the case may be... here's a favorite Xmas entry by the Indiana prophet, Smedindy, who is also doing a bang up job of reviewing some of the greatest albums (music, you know, CDs?) of all time in a series of entries that everyone who loves (or just wants to learn about) music should consider required reading...

in the Xmas entry he brings up the discussion many people seem to be having these days out there in the media world about the proper greeting for this season... now I suspect that the religious right is pushing for an elimination of anything that isn't Christian as their good book tells them to do that or they'll go to hell and if I believed that I'd surely feel justified in trying to change the whole world to the only thinking that'll save us from a horrible fate (but why can't they see that some of the readers of the other good book are doing the same thing with the same holy mandate from the same dang God?... the blind killing the blind, obviously... too bad they're such poor shots), but I believe in freedom first and so I wish you health, happiness, and most of all, I wish you love at this time of year or any time of you and you are free to share your love as you wish in any celebration you choose...

I was inspired to write this about this next paragraph (with an added word or few here) by Smed's Xmas entry which stepped away from the debate over language and returned us to what really matters, football (you think I jest?... well, Smed's a sly one) and the stories, the cartoons, the memories of the season... maybe you remember too...

I've been saying "Merry Happy" since I was a little kid and when I want to be more mature I say 'enjoy your holidays' because I want people to enjoy their holidays, whatever holiday they celebrate... if they're smart like me, they celebrate them all... it's all about the same thing, love love love - every religion is based on the same golden rule, be kind, do no harm, love everyone, forgive the idiots... extremists on all sides of a difference of opinion are always looking for power plays, always looking for ways to spoil something that might turn out good for everyone (especially if they fear free thought or can not control it)... the holiday season pre-dates Jesus, even... it's a time for love, whatever the book of rules we live by... and the fun, the games, the toys, the giving, the sharing, and cartoons (and the movies, oh those movies)... the Grinch's heart grew two sizes that day... Natalie Wood learning to believe in Santa... we'll follow the old man wherever he wants to go... Scrooge learning what glee is all about... and Zuzu's petals... I've seen them all dozens of times, at least, and I still look forward to them every year...

share the love, every one J


that was actually written a few days ago and might have been part of another entry or it might have waiting for this day off to be rescued from the babbling files... we shift to yesterday's entry (or was it the day before, yes, the day before) for more responses to comments (and I really think this time that I was inspired to sum myself up rather clearly and concisely, but then, I'm not sure just what your eyes and mind will make of the words, if anything)... here, see for yourself:

yes, Sandyz, you read me well it seems... I am actually more comfortable with what I do not know than with what I do know... what I mean is that I accept what is not evident to my senses, what is illusion or hypothesis or belief, and I feel no need to create a fact where there is no fact... I feel comfortable with the fact that for some questions, there are no certain answers at this moment in time...

maybe it is because I love to learn and accepting ignorance allows for real learning... maybe it's because I love and trust myself and, in spite of my craving for sharing and begging for attention cuz I enjoy interaction more than the isolation in this life, I feel completely secure about being a good and worthwhile person without any external reassurances...

I accept that I may be wrong, but I trust my intentions to do no harm and be a positive being sharing positive energy as much as humanly possible and that is what I think I know (and all I need to know to enjoy life)... I don't know if this is illusion or real, but it feels more real when I share it so I love to share it...

but other things I think I know, things I have too much empirical sensory concrete evidence to prove, does not feel comfortable to me...

how people hurt each other deliberately and by careless insensitivity... how people abuse each other and the planet... how people commit suicide on slow steady habits of consuming poisons and playing with fire... how people fight and kill each other over property, resources, and ideologies...

all that I am not happy about...

how so many humans can pretend to be unaware of their self-destructive ways... how so many humans can ignore, deny, or even justify the passion and energy they put into hate... and how well so many people appear to ignore, deny, or even justify the hypocrisy in their own words and actions and belief systems...

seeing all this, feeling all this, knowing all this is uncomfortable...

but as depressing as the knowledge can be, the energy of hope and doing good things is alive and well in me in spite of all the negativity observed and I've been through and I choose to invest myself in that positive energy and that is the proof I need that the unknown tomorrow can just as easily become more kind, more life-supportive, less wasteful and more beautiful... and that is the comfort that balances my experience on a smile :)


there is, I think (and prove to myself every time, so far at least, a way to make palatable lemonade out of even the most rancid lemons... it may take some profound filtering or even faking it (discarding the lemons and just drinking water, or sugared water, and imagining it's lemonade or whatever favorite drink it might be) but there is always a way... I seem to just assume I will find that way and hope that's not overconfidence, but it really doesn't matter because I will nonetheless... it may be I've decided to believe in a can't after all, that being I can't not find positivity in anything and I can't not find humor in anything and I can't not survive anything (although my jury might still be out on surviving death)...

I want to shout out beaucoup de appreciation to Sandyz for the way she reads me and appreciates me and seems to understand a bit of me here and there where it matters most... I'd like to believe there are depths and meaningful thoughts worth reading somehow twisted into the seemingly endless babbling and irreverent rhetoric... and when someone actually finds some of the needles in this haystack of words and actually gets the point that there may be a semi-sharp cookie crumbling here and there behind the candoor (in spite of the bad puns and mixed metaphors), it's a blessing I must remember to appreciate better and more often...

hope I just did J

meanwhile, here comes some words inspired by pfirsich (who's name suddenly reminds me of Perchik, from Fiddler on the Roof, a character I played on stage once upon a time and who's song was cut from the movie version, much to my dismay at the time), who intrigues me because I have yet to actually figure out exactly what we are doing to each other, me accepting genuflection or me getting a lapdance, but it's fun anyway to flex my irreverent madness on the possibilities even if it only makes sense in my head sometimes)... in any care, more appreciation goes out and here's my response to a recent comment that further clarifies my use of the language (there's always hope)...

hey Pf, I am happy you find my happy ignorance stimulating :)

in my head-dictionary, the word stupid means deliberately choosing to do something that could hurt yourself or someone else, deliberately causing harm or wasting something of value... stupid involves intentions to act... stupid is being unwilling to learn... choosing to be ignorant...

on the other hand, ignorance is simply not knowing... accepting not knowing something or about something and being willing to learn is the best we can do from my perspective... so I define smart as being willing to learn...

innocent is an intention to do no harm... it is not necessarily ignorance or inexperience, for no matter how much one learns or knows, one can still be innocent... like in court, one is innocent or guilty, not innocent or knowledgeable/experienced... intending no harm is a high ideal and goal and most attractive to me, so I am innocent and I am very attracted to innocence... it has nothing to do with age or experience, it has everything to do with intentions and following through on intentions...

intelligence, again in my head-dictionary, is the ability to learn (which is needed as much as willingness)...

wisdom is the intelligence and willingness to accept reasonable limitations, to accept what we can and can not do in this physical life, to accept what we can know and what we can not be sure of, and to accept that everything we know could be wrong...

and ultimately I think the best we can do is try to be wise by accepting the intelligence we have and using it to learn and grow and share positivity and care enough to do our best to do no harm, to be innocent...

and that's life :)


candoor the philosophiker... yes, that is a reference to Douglas Adams, but no, I will not expound upon it now (which might make me a philosophuker for a moment) as I am more in the mood to provide random thoughts about this and that, brief random thoughts at that like this (once upon a time, when I did this more often, the funda embraced me):

I must remember to check out this photo site some more whan I have more time... tell me what you think if you have time to explore...

I might only get to a couple of entries as I click banners and explore, but sometimes I am just loving it (reading diaries, that is)...

I watched some comedy channel earlier and South Park was, as usual, amusing , insightful, and a good kick in the head... and that Denis Leary Show is one weird collection of radical thought and genius... have you seen his Xmas show?...

smoog has been railing bah-humbug style lately, but I love it most when she mourns the death of poetry...

and don't forget Smed is updating daily and besides sharing his wonderful life, he's got music information to make a musicologist drool...

hmmm, this almost has a list-like quality about it, except it's not as narcissistic as the Things lists... I suppose this could be called a Other Things list, in the vein of The Princess Bride and Vicenti's and that other thing... or something like that... still to come... and send love now (lust too)...

shifting gears, this so reminds me of me, especially the me who started out writing before I know anything about anything except what I was sure of, and that was I loved writing and most everything else, including myself...

exciting news: I stopped at the post office on the way home today (yes today, in RealTime!.. finally, as if this very line, we are in RealTime... can it get any more exciting that this anytime?... and right on time too, just leave this parenthese for the exciting news) and found music there... 13 CDs and a DVD!... I am exclamation point excited!... I can almost taste the new sounds now... but first, I shall pass out with a CD on cuz I am barely able to hold my head up and I shall return later to put this entry together and start tomorrow's entry and (more excitement), continue Nicim's List of Things...

and if only to prove that I am still quite the genius:

I Passed 8th Grade Science
Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!


and shifting gears one final time for this entry, because there is still a serious need and because some of you may have the means to help, I am including the list of links to my entries inspired by the hurricanes that tore up the south and the links to more information and most important, links to ways to help... people are still homeless, people's lives are still devastated, and people still need help... so if you can, do...


this weekend week the past two three weeks month was my attempt to support The Red Cross by participating in Blogging for Relief... the first entries inspired by this effort and the events in the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina can be found here:

1 * 2 * 4 * 6 * 7 * 8 * 9 * 10 * 11 * 13 * 14 * 15 * 16 * 17
18 * 19 * 20 * 21 * 23 * 25 * 911
Hey America...


and you noticed missing numbers, of course you did, you're no fools... the missing numbers are the following entries now dedicated to deliverance (from evil, madness, dirty drawers, and many other things) and respectfully dubbed:

The Mississippi Chronicles
Mess (A Message From Mississippi)
Hope (Hope Grows in Mississippi)
Anger (Anger and Angst in Mississippi)
Sigh (A Sigh From Mississippi)
Rant (A Rant From Mississippi)
Pain (Pain In Mississippi)
Rage (Rage For Mississippi)

or Messages From Mississippi because they were mostly guest entries to pass along email from a friend who witnessed Mississippi first hand cuz he lives there... bless him and his family, in fact, do it yourself...

find someone touched by the events of the past week and share some love...

and then go tell Michael and Tim and our own DLand Michael and Ham something good J


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English: 1-800-HELP-NOW (1-800-435-7669)
Spanish: 1-800-257-7575 TDD: 1-800-220-4095
Hurricane Housing - - - Blogging for Relief
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list of ways to donate or help
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