gosh, look at all the happy pills J

smash - 2006-01-06 16:42:33
Oh, I have a purr beneath my growlz, do I? Yeah, okay, Im just a softhearted dude, but I can strike fear into the hearts of anyone when I pretend otherwise... and Id never admit that to anyone but you, hehe.

i just tidied my desk actually, all thats on it now apart from the comp obv, are two cans of beer (one empty one half full) a toy purple dinosaur (dont ask) a stuffed teddy bear my friend lola from NC sent me, a box of toffee and my harley davidson wallet.

Okay it was randomness in the extreme that comment, but I've had some drinkies (only a little though) and I'll leave the deep and meaningful comments to the other people that tend to read between the lines of your entries and find themselves detracting from the power of your words with every keystroke.

Did that sound bitchy? Ah what the hell, I'll leave it here, anyways.

be cool bro, and i love ya and hope you're cooler than an ice cube in the deep freeze of life.

smash\m/
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Smed - 2006-01-06 16:46:56
I think Robin Hood would need to take a transaction fee if he were to make the list - sort of like Visa or Mastercard.
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Ariza - 2006-01-06 17:28:28
Wow. Amazing, as usual. I've been trying to call you about EVERY DAY THIS WEEK! Why won't you answer your phone?! I kid, I kid. I am not upset. You're probably just busy. At the moment, I envy you on the fact that you actually have a job, while I'm struggling just to make ends meet. And the bad part is, I'm not even out the house yet!
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itineration - 2006-01-06 20:25:46
i've been trying to live the illusion for four months now. nobody's selling!
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Dandy - 2006-01-07 01:49:57
You rock, Candoor. Rockity-Rock-Rock!
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candoor - 2006-01-07 02:57:55
Smash - "just cuz his bark is worse than his bite does not mean his teeth are not razor sharp... I enjoy your humor even when it bites, even when it is not really funny... maybe cuz I understand the underlying frustration with the inaneness of human endeavor that anyone not caught up in the pretentious bullsyrup can only avoid through multi-layered laughter as an invisible tear is shed...

I feel much closer to your desk now...

Smed - yes, at least a fee for travel expenses, I mean, one must feed the horses, after all...

Ariza - so happy to see you here... some weeks are like this, the phone doesn't get charged, I wake and rush out the door to work with my eyes barely open and forget the phone (trying to remember my head is all I can do sometimes), and yadayadayada... I hang my head, not for missing calls, but for offering excuses (giggling as I peek out of the corner of my eye at you cuz I kinda hope you're giggling too)... I'm never sure just when is a good time to call back when I get a message or missed call... it sometimes feels like we're all random particles traveling through space and every now and then we collide and interact, which is usually much fun, but we never know exactly when... soon? :)

IT - it took me hours to finish this comment response because I got lost re-reading and catching up on your entries... I never found a shortage of anything when I lived in NYC... I have no idea where to look now, but then, I always liked being self-sufficient so I used to grow my own... it's a crime when carrots get scarce... I considered being a mushroom farmer once, someone came down from Alaska with the idea, got the brochures and checked out equiptment, but then I realized I was living in Florida and I didn't have a basement or a cool dark damp area...

random?... just think, this comment is without drinkies or any chemical additives... I think it's time to write an entry...
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candoor - 2006-01-07 03:09:42
see?... it took so long for my to finish that comment that Dandy had time to leave a comment and once again I feel hugged and squished in her loving kindness and cheery positivity...

thank you Dandy, for being you... for by being you, you make this world and much better place :)
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Pfirsich - 2006-01-07 06:41:23
Look.You aren�t cheap!!! See that.You aren�t cheap.You are expensive.The tough guy act is supposed to protect you.It�s not supposed to be blown.You are supposed to protect yourself.You aren�t supposed to tell me the truth. You are supposed to act like a tough guy. You aren�t supposed to let me see behind it. The soft sides of you,they shouldn�t be talked about. ----You�re a pretty wild thing. Do you think I would have called if you would have actually been home? Look,it�s pretty hard for me to see you cry,so,let�s just keep up the illusion,ok? You can be whoever you like,let�s just not talk about it!!! No confessions please!!!! This is too hard for me to take!! I like you already,so,why are you being Mr Nice? I�m just wondering. I�m having a great time with you and if I wasn�t and stayed it would be for my own stupidity. So,why are you so cautious around me? I think you�re cool. So why don�t you wanna leave it at that? You know,why are you yourself taking stuff away from that? Are you like babying me? Cause,I don�t think you have to....Hm,this talk was had before....I really love you,dude,like terribly,just,I said it so often now,so,what is it? What�s wrong with you,where is the problem,what ails you,I�m not getting it...sorry.I think you�re great.But,I�m not your mother...I want you to give me something,to show me something,I WANT you to put on a show. Do you think I want to see pathetic-you? I rather want to hear a gorgeous lie,an act,rather than some petty truth.You know? Do you think I can�t distinguish that? Do you think I can�t decide for myself? Then I can�t help you!...Incorrigible you.
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f-i-n - 2006-01-07 11:32:07
I always had a crush on robin hood...when he was a fox in the animated disney movie.
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smash - 2006-01-07 13:11:23
Heh, some might say my humour is never funny. But fuck them, I say. Who wants blind admiration? It's too much hard fuckin' work to maintain. Smash \m/
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Pfirsich - 2006-01-07 13:51:17
Blind admiration is what I want to give.The fun is giving it,for me.So,you will get it any way,but,I would rather have you NOT working.That makes sexy.Don�t work for it.That�s what I like.
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SMASH - 2006-01-07 19:22:18
No.
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candoor - 2006-01-08 03:49:55
lol... I hope you are enjoying the conversations as much as I do...

f-i-n - the Robin Hoods at the theme parks were adorably petite too :)

smash - your humor is usually clear to me, and much fun... as for blind admiration, I love a little worship now and then :)
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candoor - 2006-01-08 03:51:31
Pf - I seldom do what I am supposed to do and lying is against my nature, so I'll just continue playing my way and if you like it, cool, if not, oh well, I've been to the garden party (if you know the song)... I share everything in my way, hide nothing... thanks for the ba (blind admiration)... yeah, incorrigible me :)
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smash - 2006-01-08 04:55:04
Well I guess I could poke both my eyes out with a shitty stick and refuse to say anything other than "I love Candoor" for the rest of my life. BA in the extreme, there.

See? (!) I don't do things by halves.

Smash \m/
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candoor - 2006-01-08 06:17:07
lol, I love smash too... to quote a wise mammoth, that's what we do in a herd... baaa... baaaa... ;)
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