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2007-01-23 - 4:45 a.m.

you're certainly a thrill (part two)


with a biblical scholarly search for the authors of the Bible (and the query into what was edited out and what might be contained in the lost texts and what the motives behind the writers and editors may have been and so on) offers a challenge to ponder such philosophical journeys plays in the background on the television, I continue (as odd as that may seem)...

so maybe you'd have liked to have inspired (and/or received) the message that made the bulk of the previous entry (or maybe you are bored and unimpressed, your call, no offense either way) and want to know whether there was more to that stream (as if this being part two doesn't suggest just that... and by the way, have you caught the lyrical reference yet?... you can pretend not to notice me casually glancing at the ceiling as I slip out of this parenthetic aside) and if you are interested, you are in luck... for I did write another message inspired by the resplendent Miss Bandit (be amused with us)...

it could be profound or playful or both (and that's exciting), but it is as it is, a momentary play through words, fleeting and as meaningful as a moment in fleeting words can be (and just as meaningless)... no offence intended and may pleasure be enjoyed...

I sense a kindred spirit (or perhaps it's just my wishful thinking) that makes sharing the delight of sharing the moment possible while accepting that the fantasy of sharing anything more is simply that, fantasy, and we don't need to be offended or diminished by the idea that we shouldn't waste our time on such endeavors... I wonder to how many people that makes any sense...

in any case, I remind you that I was replying to this (which was a reply to my message in the previous entry):

Holy crap! this is an epic letter, thank you. I can't decide whether or not to reply in kind, or just to send you a one word response... like YIPPEEEE!!! or something. I guess this first paragraph has already put the kabosh on that idea though.

Hummm.

I have to go out. But I welcome you to the weirdness with all my happy heart and soul. Your letter was mostly accurate. i am a nice person, but I do stray into cunt-dom on occasion.

lets play!

have a beautiful day, new friend. zo xxx



and I replied:

I was all bouncy when your reply arrived and probably should have responded immediately, but then, I have a tendency to overwhelm people with my enthusiasm and imaginary ways so I think we are both lucky (if we want to continue communicating) that it's been a very odd and sluggish week in this body due to cold-flu season type feelings and adjustments to the timing inside the brain have me nodding off when I get home from work each night, which is not my usual pattern, but all that to say I love your YIPPEEEE!!! (and even mentioned it in my ever-so-dull "daily life" blog at blogspot {http://candoor.blogspot.com}, which of course, means it must be love, irreverent giggles and sincere thank yous and all) and appreciate your words and understand the caution or business (or whatever it was, but then, if I don't know what it was exactly, how can I understand it?... shhhh, logic mucks up the fantasy) behind your abbreviated response (besides, you are so insanely popular, how could a meek nobody like me warrant an expose, I know, which is why I am so thrilled with YIPPEEEE!!!, ya see) and hope to continue our little game of charade or communication or whatever this little thing we do with words might turn out to be when I am more awake and clear-headed and have more than a few moments (and now, late for work and all, I offer you the best sort of greeting and farewell you can imagine, whether that is a distant wave, a friendly smile, a hearty handshake, a polite hug, a squishy hug-till-it-effects-breathing-type-hug, multiple orgasms, prostrated bows, or just a snicker and promise to do everything in my power to return...

I really do believe you are gonna be a whole lot of fun... in fact, I think you just may inspire me to write some ridiculous rambles someday that I'll post as a blog in your honor... it would be ideal if you continued to find my babbling delicious (so I will hope to find just the right literary strokes for your ego and sensitive spots to make it good for you too as I come to know you better, which is the ultimate goal of this communication beyond the irreverent passing-of-time writing some words to relative strangers that I do here on the internet, as I expressed in my up-too-log-already babbling blog entry {http://candoor.diaryland.com} where, unlike here at myspace, imagination runs wilder than wild),m but even if you end up politely ignoring me, eventually, like many do, I'll be enjoying your presence in my mind because muses inspire my smiles and babbles and you seem to be quite the muse...

so it's a good thing I didn't respond immediately I suppose (dastardly understatements always seem to muck up the works and confuse people, especially strangers, but I am hoping you will give the benefit of doubt and laugh at me with me anyway, even if all this is meaningless drivel for now... of course I could hope {and do, after all} that you actually follow along and understand most of the meanings interwoven within this mini-missive and enjoy the experience as much as I do, but miracles are not an everyday thing in this world... at least not amongst humans...

what I meant to say was I haven't had time this week (or the right mental rest) for responding to you in the manner to which I hope you will become accustomed, with reverence and undivided attention, so I was going to wait for the weekend in the hope that the fog would clear from my skull and there'd be time to give you the respect you deserve, but some impulse (might have been the holy YMCA photo, but more likely was that delightfully refreshing wake up call from a seven year old, brought me here to embarrass myself by babbling naked (mentally, at least) before you just because I too feel all YIPPEEEE!!! about you and want you to know it (talk about putting a kibosh on an idea, aye?)...

may this add some interesting flavor or even hearty laughs (if not genuine giggles) to your day and may you be inspired to continue wanting to respond with smiles (or more excitement, even)... thank you for inspiring me to bounce around in words this morning and be quite late for work at that... yes, so, gathering what wits I have left and any sort of decorum I might muster, I'm going to sniffle my way to the bath and then to work now... you have a delightfully enjoyable mind and I hope we can continue exploring it together as we muddle our way through this getting-to-know-you stage of our endless love (and refreshingly unique and honest friendship)...

yes, such assumptions have gotten me in trouble before... just in case you are wondering... and no, I am not proposing (oh gawrsh, do I have to get serious?... well, she does hardly know you and might not have read enough of your babbles to realize you are as irreverent as you are serious, even when talking to yourself in a parentheses in the middle of trying to exit a message politely and respectfully)...

hello?... right, well, I do hope you are smiling and laughing (smiling is a fine start) and will consider enjoying yet another tte--tte with me in the near future... perhaps even a conversation one day... for these are the ways some of my most enjoyable friends have been found... and if you ever wonder just how serious or irreverent anything I may right might be, just call and ask (seriously), I mean no harm and don't take my imagination seriously unless confronted voice-to-voice or mind-to-mind or eye-to-eye (or any body part to other body part, for that matter) and what I respect and treasure most are heart-to-heart conversations with friends... honesty, above all else...

but play is fun too :)



and so I dream of the real while I accept the illusion that sharing words online affords... and I hope to find another (and others) who dream the same dream... and I hope to find another (and others) who might dare to venture past the words and into the flesh to actualize the potential in the dream... and as I hope, I enjoy the play...

profound possibilities may be found in the words and even more, beyond the words in the flesh, but for this moment, quiet rest is all I offer you and myself... the rise and fall of the diaphragm holds my attention as I breathe in and out, in and out, in and... rest... same as yesterday, only less detail... healing from within, perhaps exploring a profound change, or merely to rest...

g'nite J






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