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2005-08-30 - 12:52 p.m.

beyond distraction


what am I doing still awake?... I barely slept in the past few days... don't want to miss a thing?... of course... but the intensity of my hunger to share (and desire to not waste as little time as possible doing anything that is not sharing, even sleeping alone) is acute, intense, fierces even, iin recent days... it does come in waves, or cycles, but I went to read nicim this morning and realized it is more than just the usual intensity of feeling alive and waiting to share pendulum... I was writing the following note when my eyes opened:

I seldom sleep much on the weekend and go to work Sunday night running on empty, intending to fall out most of the day Monday for at least eight hours of uninterrupted slumber. I did not sleep much yesterday because my roommates needed me and woke me as I was just passing out. At least that is the excuse I told myself. Looking at the rambling entry I wrote in deep stupor and I left on my diary yesterday, I see that the constant weather news on the TV was haunting me with memories of last summer. I am torn between "wow, exciting" and "phew, lucky it didn't come here." The stress of last summer has not completely dissolved it seems as it has me quite alert this morning (along with the caffeine that kept me awake at work all night) and I've changed the channel to "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire." Still, I am way too alert for having slept less than four hours in the past three days. I shall make use of this groggy alertness by trying to focus my eyes and read what comes up on my screen and rambling on about whatever is inspired in my spacey head. Naturally, I came here (cuz I love ya and can curl up and be comfortable).

There isn't much we can say to people in the path of a storm as profound as a category 5 Hurricane, or even a 4 or 3 (as if a 2 or 1 is easy). The simple fact that they most likely will not be able to read anything we write for a week or longer because they have no power, possibly no phone line, is a harsh reality that can bring home the helplessness of our position. The unknown answers to the obvious questions makes it worse. Did people we love get hurt or worse, did they lose everything or something, and at best, how challenging are the hardships and inconveniences they must live with for weeks, maybe months?

Ironically, it is we who know what it is like to be in their position and we who care about people who are struck by the majesty and challenge of a storm and the hardships mother nature can bring that are left to comfort each other. We are safe, comfortable, concerned and pmaybe feeling a little guilty for thinking, "Thank goodness it didn't happen to me." Helplessness is a horrible feeling, especially when we care deeply.

There are links to information and ways to help. HERE and HERE and of course there's always The Red Cross (just call 1-800-HELP-NOW and ask "How can I help.") and The Salvation Army, both great places to start.

Related to this, if you own a home in an area prone to floods (and have not been flodded), Flood Insurance would be wise.


and so I realized that I am reliving, subconsciously, the stress and frustration and powerlessness and irony and wonder and excitement and passion for the natural world and concern and desire to share that was inspired by my own first hand encounters with Hurricanes last year...

and once again, she inspired me to want to do something to help... so here's an idea of how to help directly (the last link is part of Central Florida Hurricane Center, my closest-to-home hurricane watcher)... send what you can, money is the most expeditious item to send... and if you have the time and energy and money, organize an expedition (I call it that because you had better outfit yourself at a wilderness survival level of gear) with others experienced in emergencies and survival experiences and contact an agency coordinating help efforts like those linked above... some interesting information can be found at Wikipedia...

the bad news straight from Biloxi, MS and nearby towns and personal views are out there, but hard news may not be the best reading for many...

if you are depressed (or want to be), try not to be selfish, don't feed off others pain (I am going to get real for a few moments... suck it up and deal with my bluntness or go somewhere else because some people are in a tragedy and need help, not spectators in self-imposed misery seeking company)... can you handle the truth?...

if you felt defensive just now, reading here, ask yourself why because the answer to that question is more important than anything you might ever find in your mind... believe it or not...

but we distract ourselves with our own introspection (I know, I am an expert at that game, in cae you haven't noticed)... the point of this entry, or at least this serious moment in an otherwise ordinary entry, is to provide some links that can help you help the people who were hit by Hurricane Katrina...

one thing you can do is search (and browse) for diaries, blogs, and journals of people from Louisiana, Mississippi, Alabama, Tennessee, Kentucky, and even just a search like this one (blog journal diary +"Hurricane Katrina" +concern +help) at your favorite search engine... then leave some caring words...

you can search Diaryland for New Orleans or any city right here... even if they have no power, think of how good you might feel if you found lots of caring notes or comments from strangers when your power came back and you checked your diary... do the same on other sites that host personal diaries, journals, and blogs...

there are simple and easy ways to help right from your chair (other than writing a check, in case you do not have much money)... searching for people who are from the Hurricane hit areas and leaving some love is just one way... you can write letters to newspapers in the path... you can, if you have the means, throw a Hurricane fund-raising party and have games to make giving a few cents or dollars fun... make and sell crafts... have a Hurricane Yard Sale... get creative, you'll think of other ways...

the bottom line is we can do something if we want to... even if it's just stay awake and search the web for information and ways to help and write an entry encouraging others to do the same...

I'll close this entry the way I closed the comment that started this entry because it is the best idea of all in my mind...

In spite of what we do, send whatever we can or even find a way to go there and spend time and energy helping do whatever we can, feelings of loss and inadequacy are easy to come by when witnessing the power of nature. The best we can do is remain positive and experience the wonder of the physical universe and appreciate the fragile balance that is life on Earth. Perhaps the best we can do for the whole human race, not just in times of challenge or crisis, but at any time, is to live each moment with all the heart and energy we've got. Care, feel, experience life to it's fullest and appreciate each moment as one more moment we did not have one moment ago. And remember to tell those we care about we care.

I care about you. That feels good, no matter what is happening.


and less personally (because I know very few of you), but just as honestly, I care about the people in Katrina's way as she carves a path through the land like a streetsweeper, like a giant sea creature leaving it's natural habitat, the ocean, on a suicide trip across land for the first time... curiosity kills the Hurricane, perhaps, if we can give a storm a consciousness and feelings... and who knows, it may not quite be science fiction to say nature has a consciousness and creating a Hurricane is natures way of sacrificing a life form we call weather in order to balance the life forms on this balance or even wake up our human life form to our true place in the grand scheme of life... perhaps this is nature's way of suggesting we change something, care about the planet more, care about each other more... or my way of offering a distraction to the imagination to inspire a smile and ease the stress a bit...

but surely that, feeling, caring, wanting to live and even help each other is one natural effect of natural disasters, no matter what we believe causes them, if anything with a consciousness does...

and if this is an act of a God (or a god), perhaps the same intent exists beyond our current consciousness... anything is possible...

so remember, dear reader, I care about you...

be good to yourself today...






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