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mediate
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ragged trousered philosopher
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landover baptist
evil bible


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2004-07-03 - 8:10 p.m.

busy busy, and what?...


so this was yesterday, in relation to the last entry, at least, but this is actually two days ago if you accept that today, by my reckoning, is not the date of this entry and speaking of the date of this entry, it is as accurate as any measure of time might be except for the fact that this entry is appearing after the previous entry, which was actually written yesterday... or tomorrow...

someday science might reveal precisely why I seem to enjoy the confusion of time and run-on sentences, but until then, we'll just have to catch up on the mundane details of life in black and white and the odd thoughts that rummage through my cranium in search of intelligent life...

no, this isn't another Jay and Silent Bob film, though the gratuitous tittilations in tight black shiney outfits doing Maxtrix-like tumbling acts (though it might be just farting around, if you get the picture) could be enough of a distraction to get a rise out of my imagination and lead me to forget whatever it might have been I came here to write about two days ago, or yesterday, or whenever this was...

so excuse me if lonelines dominates my every thought, I mean, just because I live to fall in love and be in love and trasure my love and focus every breath I take, every move I make, and every sub-atomic particle of energy on pleasing my love and creating the fulfillment of my love's every wish and desire, that doesn't mean I necessarily have to tell you about it all the time...

meanwhile, I was browsing a lot today, in fact, all weekend, in fact, I have several browsing entries in the works if I ever have time to catch up on that, but for now, I shall tell you a bit about where I wandered today... let's see if I can do it without too much narcissism, ok)... if I haven't mentioned it in a while, or at least in a paragraph or few, I fall in love rather easily... and I am on the edge again... sometimes (lately) it's fantasy, occasionally it's for real in the real physical world when someone else participates, sometimes it's creative play in words when someone plays along... the emotional roller coaster of the fall and expressions of desire and adoration are one of my favorite pasttimes in this life... and some people just watch baseball, huh?...

did I mention I was now listed prominently here?...

anyway (or irrevently serious, no really, true), I am deeply intrigued (in trigued, huh?... well, it is a precious kind of being inlove, in case you did not know)... and it is not just libido attraction either, for there is the essential ingredient for my ultimate connections in this life, absence of of such detachment from biological family that anyone can be family and is by decision, by choice of the heart... and then (drumroll) I find another sister a daughter a friend or a lover, what choice shall be made we have yet to discover, but wishes are horses and when we dare ride they can come true and reach the other side...

let's ride to the other side (a link will appear here eventually when the other side has finally been uploaded, which will mostly probably be in candora but will probably spill into other places as well as the moods circle my heart and go where they will go... and you ought to know by now that this sort of semi-subtle drumroll might backfire sometimes, but if you follow the bread crumbs you will eventually find the inspirations bubble over, still in embryonic stages, from here, soon to be there)...

along the way, I made these stops for music, information, pizza and thought about camping, which goes great with pizza of course, and that lead me to this story about soap...

who'd have thought that reading about soap would bring me back ten years to wonderful memories of a time before I was the jaded cynic I might be today (I am too jaded and cynical to decide if I am or not, so I might not be, but anyway)... and I remember backpacking too... ironically, while working too much and wondering why I have no life, I suddenly realized that it wasn't always lost wandering around the web leaving random notes, it's just that somewhere along the way I lost my life (or was that my mind?)... you are inspiring to read, but hey, that's just me saying that...

oh yes, that was a note I left along the way to someone who was inspiring to read... perhaps it was the pizza... but then, for no apparent reason (lazy, aren't I?) other than wanting to, I like enjoyed this, which may or may not have had anything to do with the inspirations I sometimes find here... of course I too am

impetuous, which reminds me of one of the first stops along my cyber path a long long time ago (ah, the memories) when I was kind of a cyber-virgin dreaming of and other sundries and then, just as I was remembering my other childhood as a rock star, she came along with chills and curious thrills until I just had to admit that feared is not more than revered...

what could we have possibly been thinking to leave our selves behind in simple words, just bits and pieces of hearts and minds on the internet... if we only knew all it could be...

what can be said about you wonderful people out there who inspire me and read me and make me laugh and cry and feel like it truly is such a very small world after all by simply sharing your words and thoughts and feelings and music and places and inner mindgames, split personalities and precious madness?

so anyway, I was way too busy to to write an entry yesterday (or the day before) so this one shall takes it's place and probably, if you look close, is the best entry I've ever written... I didn't call it that though, cuz I wouldn't want to come off too egocentric and self-absorbed, after all... even if I am...






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