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2006-03-01 - 11:47 a.m.

back to the beginning again


ok, here's the deal on this entry... I am not sure if I've uploaded it here or elsewhere before and it may be two different entries that never got uploaded or maybe they did in two different places, but anyway, these words have been sitting in my scribble files for a long long time (appropriate song reference, no doubt) and I am finally going to delete them from there and before I do, just in case they were not actually shared in entries before, here they are in this entry...

I believe they were inspired by dalyrical1 a while back (and I'm thinking perhaps they were comments I left in her dalyrical1 at LJ (Live Journal)... I recall her writing an entry about her first love, Adam... I believe in the eternal infinity of love and my belief, my memories, and her words inspired this:


inspired to return to my mostly dead (no, only sleeping, please) heart, always hoping (I hope hope still lives in me, wherever I might be) that it's not too long gone or warped or broken or perverse or jaded or soured or blue... not too late baby now...

thank you for the tear that falls from my eye
thank you for the power of belief
thank you for the wonder that I read in your words
thank you for the dream free of grief
thank you for the passion buried under the skin
thank you for the innocent relief
thank you for the hunger you remind me about
thank you for being such a good thief

for you stole my heart
and I didn't notice
I don't know where I could have been
but you woke me up
I must have been sleeping
and now I feel something begin

and I'll call it love
romance or a chance
to become best friends
and share a life's dance
and I'll call it love
and give it to you
a song full of words
and every word true
a heart being true
a dream coming true


there, for you... inspired by your entry and your next entry and your next (that would be three entries, yup, that's what inspired this and more... and with an assist from my memories that you woke up, my early memories (first childhood writings, most of which were lost a long time ago because I entrusted them in another's hands for safekeeping)... my adam was amy... there's a song about it somewhere... actually, many songs... I hope I've inspired your smile... thank you for inspiring mine J



once in love with Amy
always in love with Amy


yes, a child's love, but what love could be more pure or real or right?... yes, a long ago love, but love is timeless... yes, unlikely that another human would live through this life, ten year or twenty or thirty or more and still be in touch with that child inside, that purest most innocent most real and true love, but it is possible...

I know, for I am.

you were everything I had ever dreamed of
and no dream since has come to show me more
for it was the most honest infinite love
unconditional belief in sharing something pure

unconditional trust
creates an infinite love
and the first time tells you what your feelings are for

and if you can remember
you'll always rise above
any challenge to find you can know that love once more

for it's in you
to choose
to believe in yourself
and believe you are loved
more than anything else

this is in you
to choose
to believe you can be
as pure in your heart
as you were with me

and now wherever you are in your lifetime
I hope you still feel this true love inside
for it was is most honest infinite love
unconditional belief dies when it is denied

unconditional trust
creates an infinite love
and the first time tells you what your feelings are for

and if you can remember
you'll always rise above
any challenge to find you can know that love once more

for it's in you
to choose
to believe in yourself
and believe you are loved
more than anything else

this is in you
to choose
to believe you can be
as pure in your heart
as you were with me

let's not pretend it's always easy
being vulnerable can be dangerous
in this world where people are so confused
love can feel like getting hit by a bus
but shutting down does not make it better
denial only helps the pain
embrace your heart and let your love go
and it will come back to you again

for love is not a person
love is your own heart
when you dare to share it
you can feel it start
every time's a first time
when you give it all
remember the feeling
and let yourself fall

and now wherever you are in your lifetime
you can still feel this true love in you
for it was is most honest infinite love
unconditional belief that your love is true

unconditional trust
creates an infinite love
and the first time tells you what your feelings are for

and if you can remember
you'll always rise above
any challenge to find you can know that love once more

for it's in you
to choose
to believe in yourself
and believe you are loved
more than anything else

this is in you
to choose
to believe you can be
as pure in your heart
as you were with me


yes, my Adam was Amy and the miracle of life for me was realizing it never ends for it is inside of me and I can share it again... it is unconditional love and unconditional trust and believing in the promise of everything and forever, the infinite giving that is falling in love and all I need to do is do it...

and it all becomes real again J






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