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Harry Chapin Lyrics
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OLD AND NEW READS
(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
TO READ and EXPLORE)

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utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
rolling stone
reel classics


fallout shelter
the memory hole
song meanings
truth out
wil wheaton
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global news matrix
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h2g2
daily kos
the truth laid bear
reason
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boing boing
nobody here




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the guide
purple
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maximum awesome
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something awful
glossy news
eric conveys emotion
odd todd
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urban legends
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church of the fsm
the onion
god checker
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fark
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post secret
webby awards
meetup
the white house
ragged trousered philosopher
the smoking gun
the defective yeti
landover baptist
evil bible


COMMERCIAL CRAP (AND PRON)

(Note: pron is porn worth a look for amusement much more than passion, so if you see a (p) next to a link, be aware naked people may appear if you click it, m'ok?)

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real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

(or it could just be a typo)




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2005-06-17 - 12:13 p.m.

and so it goes...


"I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough." ~ Nicholas Sparks


watching The Notebook and so many tears fall from my eyes... it's way too personal a story for me, but then, you knew that... but did you know that my nickname for Amy was Ali... yes, of course you did... and the rest of you, well, now you know too...

maybe (that old blank sly grin that once may have been magic {whatever the color or absence thereof} just can not resist popping out now and then and what might seem to be the most inappropriate times, ya know?)...

maybe...

no time...
no sleep...
no life that is all mine and no one who loves me for only being me

it's sad...
it's true...
but what is there to do about it but hold on to the same fantasy...



maybe...



every heart dreams of love
like a god up above
pure and true, without end
the bestest best friend

every soul dreams of this
like a never ending kiss
holy bliss, passion beyond
any choice but to respond

and carry on




ah, such sweet babble calls out to me...

I've been on a roller coaster of emotions and so hopeful and it gave me several weeks of wonder and excitement too cuz somebody cared to know me or at least that's what she said but unfortunately at this moment it seems all she wanted to know was the me I could be in her bed...

alas, some times I just don't want casual sex...

I've always wondered about the phrase "more than friends" because I don't see anything relationship more important than a friend... but then, maybe I just define the word friend differently than Webster and most of the world... and when you know you have a real friend somewhere, suddenly all the others are so much easier to bear... oh yeah... thank you Jackson...

it's a little bit funny, this feeling inside...

yes, I'm not one of those who can easily hide...



so the rich doctor lady in the big ranch in the country tried the sweet seduction and I just adore her kids and might have adored her too if she did not put knowing my body ahead of knowing me (call me strange, but I like to share naked on the inside before I share naked on the outside and so few really want to get naked on the inside it seems)...

and so it goes...



and that's where I've been for the past few weeks... exploring a whole new world that appeared to be not far from Neverland (she even played the film, Finding Neverland for me and had The Princess Bride up next and was so seducing my child inside)... for those of you who noticed I was gone, thanks... the conversations in and out of the past few weeks shall be the entries that you've missed, if you want to look back, for whatever they're worth...

as for me...


I'm moving on...

I don't want to tell you how much it hurts
to feel like I'm being used
I don't want to know myself at these times
so I let myself get confused
and lost in a silent isolation
my tears flow on the inside
in plain sight for anyone to see
there's really no way to hide
but for the moment I won't tell me
another dream has died
oh, oh
another dream has died


I was going to start a whole new diary called Letters to Lala, but now I am not so sure there'll be much to post there cuz the bubble seems to have burst quite suddenly... so I had poured my heart out to her because she asked and she seemed very interested in knowing me... and she invited me up to her ranch for the past two weekends and we cuddled and coupled with her friends and kids and we talked of being close for life and always friends no matter what... and I started bonding with her kids and dogs and we were making plans and then, well, you've got sixteen entries to decide for yourself what happened...

if you want my body and you think I'm sexy
will you hate me if I don't want yours?

will you try to seduce me
tell me everything I want to hear
promise me to moon and stars
and to always be there
to be a true friend
convince my heart that your love never ends

will you tell yourself to wait
that I will come around to want you as you want me
and what if I don't?
will you break every promise and drop me
like a worthless fantasy?

if this sounds like something you do
and you think I'm sexy
keep the promises of love
and false friendship
just pass me by
just let me be






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