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(WISH I HAD MORE TIME
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utne reader
common dreams
the progressive
mediate
the other side
orion
harper's
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reel classics


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real doll (p)
(the ultimate self-indulgence)

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�2006 Candor Communications


2006-07-28 - 6:26 p.m.

agelessness


you see my grin?
I hope you do
cuz if you don't
your guilt is probably effecting you
down in the dumps
or maybe numb
and then there is
no way you could know where I'm coming from

well, I'm back again in part to thank you... I appreciate comments and want you to know that and since you can't read my mind (I think), I've come to tell you... thanks... life offline has been keeping me busy of late what with extra shifts at work (the blessing and curse of working a 24 hour job) and Precious being home for the summer and a general malaise (deliberate lethargy, lazy fool I am lately) slowing everything down... all is well and all that's missing is a partner so if you happen to see her roaming aimlessly out there, just point her in my direction and I'll have even more to thank you for... a lot more...

I have been keeping up with the RealTime blog and occasionally elsewhere (a lot of the currently being updated elsewheres can be found linked on the right side of the RealTime blog), but this babbling place just seems to demand more time than I've had in any one sitting and I feel like I am cheating if I do not let go and ramble on here... aside from working late and shopping and dining out and sleeping, writing is usually how I fill my days since I don't know anyone who is home during the day and wants to hang out or do things with me... working nights can be an obstacle to a social life, but I think it's just part of it...

music is replacing the TV more and more, so I'm less dead than I was in my most recent mostly dead times, but I am still not running or getting to the gym or doing any serious exercise (and I'm noticing that I am going through entire nights at work without sitting down because I miss it so much and the body is tired of resting and vegetating... now if I can just get the lazy motor cortex to listen to this body)...

and of course, loneliness remains a constant companion... as the years pass I find fewer and fewer people just hanging out places looking for friends... suspicion and openness and friendliness seem to fade as people age... I get the strangest looks (and sometimes hostile rebukes) for smiling and saying hello to people (some tell me I am too familiar, that my comfortable greeting puts people off because they lost the ability to trust as I do and suspect me when I am just being friendly... I say people forget how to be or become friends, but the majority rules)... part of it is my own frustration though (I know, it is most of it) as it shows too much sometimes...

if I had a dollar for every time I've been told to act my age simply because I am excited to be alive and enjoying a walk (or hop, skip, and jump) in the park or any activity or event, I'd buy a big house where we all could live and have enough left over to live really well without ever having to work again...

ageism sucks...

and when I was nineteen (a few years after I wrote this little ditty, in case you thought my ageless attitude is just a recent development) and living with and sharing life with a thirty-two year old mom of two, I was judged negatively as well... I realized a long time ago (at four years old, actually, when I was treated like a freak for simply exploring the sensuality of this human body with my first girlfriend {also four}... the irony was the teachers and parents taught us the words boyfriend and girlfriend calling our affection for each other "so cute" until they found us rolling around naked one day... people are so afraid of life) that a lot of people want to find fault and judge negatively and that doesn't have to stop me from being me and enjoying life without becoming like them...

but it does keep me more alone than I'd like sometimes...




something was going to go here, so it will, when I find it, or write it, or...




actually, I am still four (it's written many times in many places if you explore my written gardens... I'll be five next year, tomorrow, which is always tomorrow, since today is always today...






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